vivian.
13 going on 14.
18 april.
attached
you and me. ilu*
wish list`
good relationship with him.
his birthday.
tone n slim down.
march holidays.
sun tanning. my birthday.
nite safari.
more tops.
heels.
flip flops.
shoes.
Sunday, February 27, 2005 just came home from taking care of my boy. he's sick. very sick. wenta meet him at his place. and accompany him. den peii him go eat. den he peii me wait for bus. den here i am. hahas. hmm. got a apple shaped crystal thingy from honey. its very nice. i like it alot yeahs?? thanks honey. muacks muacks~
well. just feel like blogging. tts all. no intention of anything. just had the mood to blog and update.
well. gonna rest then. rest well n sleep tight everyone. sweet dreams~
*honey, my angels will look after you. day and nite. sleep tight. sweet dreams. hope to see you soon. miss you le. muacks <3>
[missed you`] at 2/27/2005 11:41:00 PM
wtf man. its a sunday. and someone's on strike. but well. matter settled. but.. there'll be a hell load of troubles in sch. aiights. forget it. its not fully my fault yeahs? fcuk it. just fcuk it.
okays. what's so wrong with next sat?? hahas. mr rayyan's celebrating his 21st bdae. AND. mr linkin is celebrating his 18th bdae. both are important bdaes. the problem now is.. which to go. like wth man. damn it. and how the hell. where the hell can i find the money.. money for gifts??!! mygod~ i regret making so many frens. l0ls~ there will be many upcoming bdaes i guess. important ones too~ boo!!! im oreadi so broke. and here comes all these bdaes. bwahahas~ wth!!
okays. boyboy is not back yet. feeling kinda weird. haiis!! have been slackking my day off. its like. imagine u sleeping at 4plus in e morning. waking up at 5 plus. den 7 plus. den finally at 830. and keep urself awake just to msg ur boy. and from then, u're awake. to the market. ur homework. online. sleep. eat. and finally back online. l0ls~ waiting for boyboy to come back to spore. tt pangsehs kia. l0ls.
haiis. sians arhs.. booooring. wondering what shld i do. haiis!! currently hooked on to the song.. tong hua. its just so nice can~ haiis.
t0nG hUa.
wang le you duo jiu zai mei ting dao ni dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi wo xiang le hen jiu wo kai shi huang le shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me ni ku zhe dui wo shuo tong hua li dou shi pian ren de wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi ye xu ni bu hui dong cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju ni ku zhe dui wo shuo tong hua li dou shi pian ren de wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi ye xu ni bu hui dong cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le
wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju wo yao bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju wo hui bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju yi qi xie wo men de jie ju
though its nice. but its a sad song. haiis. aiights. still thinking abt lotsa stuff. stress arhs. hahas~ haiis. wondering when my boy's coming back. alrights. this entry is long enough. gotta go den. hahas~ byebye. missya!!
[missed you`] at 2/27/2005 06:49:00 PM
to stay or to leave? its as good as saying.. to love or not to love.
2 A.M. and the rain is falling Here we are at the crossroads once again You're tellin me you're so confused You can't make up your mind Is this meant to be You're asking me But only love can say - try again or walk away But I believe for you and me The sun will shine one day So I'll just play my part And pray you'll have a change of heart But I can't make you see it through That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking Face to face and a thousand miles apart I've tried my best to make you see There's hope beyond the pain If we give enough - if we learn to trust
But only love can say - try again or walk away But I believe for you and me The sun will shine one day So I'll just play my part And pray you'll have a change of heart But I can't make you see it through That's something only love can do
I know if I could find the words To touch you deep inside You'd give our dream just one more chance Don't let this be our last good-bye
But only love can say - try again or walk away But I believe for you and me The sun will shine one day So I'll just play my part And pray you'll have a change of heart But I can't make you see it through That's something only love can do
i dont know. im confused. words tt come out of my mouth may hurt. i know they hurts. but.. dont blame me. ive been hurt more than enough. all i wan is just to be happier. being happy is a choice. is not a chance. but for me. its more of a chance than a choice. bcos nothing is making me smile. those laughters dont last. those frenships dont last. nothing lasts for more than 2 weeks. and everything gone. i just wan someone to be there to care for me. i need people to care for me. i need people to make me smile. i wanna be happy.
i will be happier. cos i know ive you. i will be happier. cos ive gotten rid of those pests. i will be happier. for my sake. i promise i will be happier. cos i wan to be...
i wanna live for myself. and not anyone else. i will only trust myself. cos theres no one else. i wanna be happy. and i will be. promised -
[missed you`] at 2/27/2005 01:05:00 AM
Saturday, February 26, 2005 well. changed a skin ytd. did it in a shorttt time. hahas.
okays. firstly.. i wanna thank them who stood by me.. through all the unhappy moments.. for the past few days... they are ~ jerry korrkorr. mr kelvin. cheryl mummy. nice peeps. always making jokes just to get me smile. thanks for all the encouragements.. the advices.. the assurance.. really really thanks a million times~
next.. me and my boy survived through it again.. but well. it happened too many times. so.. yeahs. still thinking about it. but it isnt taking so much on me anymore..
last but not least.. im now a happier me. all i ever wanna bother now is to make myself happy. and im now happier. i wanna gain back all those confidence. i wanna be who i once used to be. and lead a happy and carefree life. love who i want to. be who i wanna be. and hate everyone who makes my day bad. and in return, those people will regret~
i love myself more than anyone else could. i dont wanna rely on others totally. cos ive learnt tt in life.. you can only trust urself n rely on urself the most. i know i can survive on my own. i have frens who care for me. and i care for them too. its not my loss when frens leave. its them who lose me. not me losing them. for frens, ive lost a whole chunk of happiness. now, i wanna love only myself. i will love MY frens. but if you ever treat me like shit.. or you think im not good enough for you.. fucking get out of my life. without YOU, i will still live. and i'll be happier without YOU. cos YOU aint important. YOU showed me what you actually are. i wont hate YOU. cos YOU make me learn something. so yeahs. thats about it~
going off. im going out. lalalas~
[missed you`] at 2/26/2005 01:41:00 PM
Wednesday, February 23, 2005 wo hen pa. bu yao li kai wo.
i dont know. just feeling very scared. haiis. baobeii. weii shen me? wo yi zhi dou dan xin ni hui zou.. ni hui mahs? haiis.
sch life sucks. everything sucks. baobeii ke yi care for me more mahs? hoping.. hoping tt our love will bloom. hoping tt i will feel more secured.
loveyou.
[missed you`] at 2/23/2005 10:20:00 PM
Sunday, February 20, 2005 im sooooooooo happy. =D was with honey since 3pm. met him. wenta mummum. walked to dte. walked around. wenta the beach at about 6plus. slacked till round 8pm. had lotsa fun. we didnt went into the beach. but was sitting n slackking on a bench. near to the entrance of the beach. took pictures. sooooo sweet~ love my babyboy. muacks~ den walked everywhere. sat at everywhere we saw a bench. hahas. tt was fun. fancy sitting every 5 to 10 mins. den headed down to foodcourt. ate. den to mac. got boy his chicken stuff. den wenta some voideck. slackked. hugged. kissed. talked. talked about lotsa stuff. den went home. though we didnt move around much. but i love my boy and i enjoyed today~
will never forget the pictures we took. so nice. babyboy i love you. till death do us part. good nite. sleep tight. sweet dreams.. my angels will look over u everynite. huggie hugs n sweet kisses~ miss you lotsa. love you <3
ohno. missed chingay. boo~
`19 febb. loveya~
[missed you`] at 2/20/2005 12:21:00 AM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005 hey guys, im back!!
okays. for i dontknow how long ive disappeared. im finally back. leaving the bygones as bygones. though memories are nice to be kept in ur heart. but some times, its good to let everything go..
okays. have no idea if today is a good or bad day. hahas. got new fone. samsung's. hahas. den got my song. only love by trademark. i dont know how do i express my happiness. but its definitely impossible to tell u thru words. im very happy. hahhas.
well. new year was rather fun. valentine's day has not much of diff as well. spent my nite out. for the past 2 weekdays, ive been like.. out till after 0000?? hahas. monday i was slackking with my boy. tuesday wenta watch constantine with him. nice show indeed. surprising. it gives one heart attacks. hahas. gonna catch hide n seek no matter what. a series of unfortunate events sound not bad. goshhies. im broke after new year. there are so many things i wanna do. using money. hahas~
alrights. have been thinking what to get for my boy. for his 21st bdae. hahas. stressed. ive ideas. but dont know. maybe bahs. still considering. hahahs.
well well. gotta go. call my boy. talk to him for a sweet while. sleep tightly. go to school tomorrow. a real long day. theres netball tml.. haiis. hoping to see him soon. babyboy. i love you. always..
m i s s y o u ~
[missed you`] at 2/16/2005 11:03:00 PM
hey guys, im back!!
okays. for i dontknow how long ive disappeared. im finally back. leaving the bygones as bygones. though memories are nice to be kept in ur heart. but some times, its good to let everything go..
okays. have no idea if today is a good or bad day. hahas. got new fone. samsung's. hahas. den got my song. only love by trademark. i dont know how do i express my happiness. but its definitely impossible to tell u thru words. im very happy. hahhas.
well. new year was rather fun. valentine's day has not much of diff as well. spent my nite out. for the past 2 weekdays, ive been like.. out till after 0000?? hahas. monday i was slackking with my boy. tuesday wenta watch constantine with him. nice show indeed. surprising. it gives one heart attacks. hahas. gonna catch hide n seek no matter what. a series of unfortunate events sound not bad. goshhies. im broke after new year. there are so many things i wanna do. using money. hahas~
alrights. have been thinking what to get for my boy. for his 21st bdae. hahas. stressed. ive ideas. but dont know. maybe bahs. still considering. hahahs.
well well. gotta go. call my boy. talk to him for a sweet while. sleep tightly. go to school tomorrow. a real long day. theres netball tml.. haiis. hoping to see him soon. babyboy. i love you. always..
m i s s y o u ~
[missed you`] at 2/16/2005 11:03:00 PM
hey guys, im back!!
okays. for i dontknow how long ive disappeared. im finally back. leaving the bygones as bygones. though memories are nice to be kept in ur heart. but some times, its good to let everything go..
okays. have no idea if today is a good or bad day. hahas. got new fone. samsung's. hahas. den got my song. only love by trademark. i dont know how do i express my happiness. but its definitely impossible to tell u thru words. im very happy. hahhas.
well. new year was rather fun. valentine's day has not much of diff as well. spent my nite out. for the past 2 weekdays, ive been like.. out till after 0000?? hahas. monday i was slackking with my boy. tuesday wenta watch constantine with him. nice show indeed. surprising. it gives one heart attacks. hahas. gonna catch hide n seek no matter what. a series of unfortunate events sound not bad. goshhies. im broke after new year. there are so many things i wanna do. using money. hahas~
alrights. have been thinking what to get for my boy. for his 21st bdae. hahas. stressed. ive ideas. but dont know. maybe bahs. still considering. hahahs.
well well. gotta go. call my boy. talk to him for a sweet while. sleep tightly. go to school tomorrow. a real long day. theres netball tml.. haiis. hoping to see him soon. babyboy. i love you. always..
m i s s y o u ~
[missed you`] at 2/16/2005 11:03:00 PM
hey guys, im back!!
okays. for i dontknow how long ive disappeared. im finally back. leaving the bygones as bygones. though memories are nice to be kept in ur heart. but some times, its good to let everything go..
okays. have no idea if today is a good or bad day. hahas. got new fone. samsung's. hahas. den got my song. only love by trademark. i dont know how do i express my happiness. but its definitely impossible to tell u thru words. im very happy. hahhas.
well. new year was rather fun. valentine's day has not much of diff as well. spent my nite out. for the past 2 weekdays, ive been like.. out till after 0000?? hahas. monday i was slackking with my boy. tuesday wenta watch constantine with him. nice show indeed. surprising. it gives one heart attacks. hahas. gonna catch hide n seek no matter what. a series of unfortunate events sound not bad. goshhies. im broke after new year. there are so many things i wanna do. using money. hahas~
alrights. have been thinking what to get for my boy. for his 21st bdae. hahas. stressed. ive ideas. but dont know. maybe bahs. still considering. hahahs.
well well. gotta go. call my boy. talk to him for a sweet while. sleep tightly. go to school tomorrow. a real long day. theres netball tml.. haiis. hoping to see him soon. babyboy. i love you. always..
m i s s y o u ~
[missed you`] at 2/16/2005 11:03:00 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005 ni shang tou le wo de xin. ni ba na zhi zhen hen hen de cha ru wo de xin. wo de xin yi po shui. ni zhi dao ma? wo zi ji ye bu zhi dao wo shi fou shi lai zhen de. dan shi wo zhi dao wo bu neng zhi yang zuo. ye xu wo yi xi huan shang le ni. ye xu zhe yi qie zhi shi huan jue. wo bu zhi dao. wo zhi xi wang wo men neng hui dao di yi ci. he ni shuo hua de na yi ci. yin wei zhi you na ci.. wo cai gan jue dao ni zai wo shen pang.. dan wo cai na zhi shi huan jue. yin wei xian zai de ni zai ye bu shi yi qian de ni.. wo tong hen wo zi ji he ni gou tong. wo tong hen wo zi ji yao qu ren shi ni. wo tong hen zhi yang de gan jue. ni zhi dao mahs?? wo bu xiang ai shang ni. yin wei wo bu ke yi. wo zhi xiang zhi dao.. ni you mei you wo dui ni de na zhong gan jue? wo zhi yao ting dao yi sheng 'you'.. wo jiu man zu le.. ke yi ma??
well. im just feeling like this. pms. l0ls. nono. it isnt. hahs. aiights. this kinda feelings sucks biggie. anws. these few days aint great. slept earli. woke up earli as well. but i only turn in at like 10 plus 11. and woke up at 5am? damned. hhaas. aiights. have been thinking through lotsa stuff. ever since.. 1st jan?? hahas. well.. all these ive to think again.. i needa go. msging jerry. hahas. missing my boy.
