m o r i e s of l o v e* m e

Sunday, January 30, 2005
aiights, was home at like 1230pm?
damn shagged. i need my sleep badly.
but well, i lun. hahas.
cos im entertaining lotsa pple.
bwahahs. im so tired.

okays. last nite sucks biggie.
i didnt regret going there.
but its just tt the pple n time is outrageously bad.
aiights. other than tt...
there is no other problem.
mygosshies. tt place is nice.
but i dont find tt its any worst than ubin??
and it isnt wad i expected as well...
rather disappointed. hahas.
but well, my motive to go there is not to fish..
but to spend time with my boy.
and make him happy cos ive nv like fishing trips anws..
my boy was damn sians. cos its like..
there are more pple there unlike wad tt uncle said.
and boy caught like nothing??
tts like shit?? hahas. disappointing. really..

okays. other than all these factors..
the rest were rather good. i wont say its good.
cos the day sucks cos of some low-down cheapos..
pissed off~!!! bwahaas. aiights. and ohyah.
there isnt any freaking toilets around.
i carried my filled-bladder around for like 14 hrs??
hahas. tts sick. but too bad.
tt place is rather eerie to let go ur 'water'.
be it in the sea or bushes?? haiis.
but when i got back to mainland,
there wasnt an urge to use the toilet anymore. hahas.

aiights. came back mainland.
everyone disconnected.
me n baobeii walked to elias mall.
wanting to eat breakfast.
but but but. no space.
so went back to my area.
ate prata. mygoshhies.
nearly vomit. weird. hahs.
mayb im just not feeling well. hahas..

okays. after tt. boy walked me home.
den he went home. my boy is still slping i guess.
hahahs. tt boy. =)))

okays okays. needa go do hw le.
played games with kelvin for like 1/2 hr.
better go call him and do my hw le. ahhas.

tatas all`

[missed you`]
at 1/30/2005 06:35:00 PM

Saturday, January 29, 2005
well. back finally. hahas..

aiights. school's as per normal.
poor jerry got suspended till after june hols.
haiis. kelvin oso sots sots de. hahas.
well. school arhs. my class' more fun.
indeed a fun n crazy bunch. hahas.
aiights. enough about school. tts sickening. =X

have been rather down. i dont know why.
well. today wenta watch bball match at 230.
honey's team with monkey's bunch of pple.
mygodd. monkey's team damn powerful.. hahas.
fast. accuracy. nba standard. all in. co0l...
monkey's quite a nice guy. n ohyarhs.
andrew seemed to change alot. goshhies.
now a typical ahbeng.
e cute japjap looking andrew involves..
and become a typical ginna-bin ahbeng.. hahas.
okays okays. enough.

weets~!! im kinda excited. not coming home tml.
going to coney island. with honey, jofri n anas.
hahas. well. its another offshore island.
which is like ubin. but its just 5 times worst. =.-"
haiis. w0rried. no toilets. n its scary. mygod.
hahas. talking to jerry now. he's like. weird.
quarrel with yinwen. haiis.
well. he's now talking about tt kukupore.
which is his island. hahs.
well. awaiting for a nice day tomorrow.
mygoshhies. nice nice. hahs. wait wait.
and im still waiting =)))

well well. gonna go sleep. damn shagg.
promised baobeii to slp early as well.
meeting him at like 2pm?
for lunch. den slack around. leaving at 5pm..
yeahs. hhas. a nite out.. weets~!!
aiight aiights. gonna go sleep..
tatas all` =)))

[missed you`]
at 1/29/2005 01:28:00 AM

Friday, January 21, 2005
Hitomi Wo Tojite ` Ken Hirai

Asa mezameru tabi ni kimi no nukegara ga yoko ni iru
Nukumori wo kanjita itsumo no senaka ga tsumetai
Nigawarai wo yamete omoi ka-ten wo akeyou
Mabushisugiru asahi boku to mainichi no oikakekko da
Ano hi miseta nakigao namida terasu yuuhi kata no nukumori
Keshisarou to negau tabi ni kokoro ga karada ga kimi wo oboete iru

Your love forever
Hitomi wo tojite kimi wo egaku yo sore dake de ii
Tatoe kisetsu ga boku no kokoro wo okizari ni shitemo

Itsuka wa kimi no koto nani mo kanjinaku naru no kana
Ima no itami daite nemuru hou ga mada ii kana
Ano hi miteta hoshizora negai kakete futari sagashita hikari wa
Mabataku ma ni kieteku noni kokoro wa karada wa kimi de kagayaiteru

I wish forever
Hitomi wo tojite kimi wo egaku yo sore shika dekinai
Tatoe sekai ga boku wo nokoshite sugisarou to shitemo

Always my love
Your love is always in my heart
You're my everything

Your love forever
Hitomi wo tojite kimi wo egaku yo sore dake de ii
Tatoe kisetsu ga boku wo nokoshite iro wo kaeyou to mo
Kioku no naka ni kimi wo sagasu yo sore dake de ii
Nakushita mono wo koeru tsuyosa wo kimi ga kureta kara
Kimi ga kureta kara

my all time favourite. ken hirai's.
right, its gettin late. im getting tired. nitenite.

[missed you`]
at 1/21/2005 11:24:00 PM

Sunday, January 16, 2005
aiights. back again. updates.. =D

okays. went jogging in the morn.
with nicole. hahas.
came back. rested. bathed.
did alot of stuff. prepared.
wenta tm to order jie's cake.
den met darling.
wenta sembawang.
honey bought me my all tiem favourite..
kenhirai's cd. sentimentalovers. gosh. MWAHS~!!
mygodmygod. darling i love you loads~!! <3
den helped dulcie bought her eminem's encore.
den... wenta walk around. sit around.
talk crapp. den wenta mac. drink.
then slowly wenta take 81 to serangoon.
walked around there. hahas.
then took 81 back to west plaza area.
stopped for dinner.
had mini steamboat. ohmygod..
we were damn full. its we, not me. hahas.
den suggested to take a walk.
good for digestion. hahas.
den walked around. saw swallows.
not one, not two. but thousands of them.
its the migrating season.. mygod.
it is so upset if you missed tt scene.
tt was definitely a very nice scene.
actually wanted to walk away after awhile.
but... something caught our eyes.
a cat. climbed up the tree. camouflaged.
and caught a swallow close to 20 mins later?
mygod. tt was rather cruel yeahs.. haiis.
* 1 min of silence for tt poor swallow *
after tt, sat around with darling at voiddeck.
wait till the birds rested.
then we walked. walked to mjc.
den we looked at the sky. which was full of stars.
so i suggested to walk to the beach.
went there. hugs, kisses and everything.
lie down on honey's stomach. watching the nite sky.
very romantic and nice indeed.
esp when youre with your love one.
talked, laughed our asses out and everything.
slowly, we walked our way out to elias mall.
got momoko. l0ls. greentea. n kitkats.
i didnt eat much. only 2 small bites. hahas.
im amazed. l0ls. den wenta wait for the bus..
took a bus home.
hugged darling to sleep on the way back.
woke up. lotsa small details.
after 10 mins. wenta roof garden sit awhile.
den sat for 1/2 hr like tt.
den i went down to find mummy they all.
then darling went home =)
called him. and darling's now aslp.
im glad he's slping. he's real tired.
so am i. hahas. wellll.

i seriously enjoyed myself so much today with honey.
today was so damn nice.
no fights no tiffs no nothing.
throughout were just our sweettalks, kisses n hugs.
hand in hand. walked around everywhere.
what else should i ask for man. hahas.
to be with my boy ;
is seriously the most wonderful thing in life.
i love him tt much. i seriously do.
alrights. promised him to slp early.
so im going off. take care guys.
darling i love you. i understand something le.
finally~!! thank god i found you <3

good nite honey. smooches n hugs.
mwahs muacks. sleep tight~!! (>.^)v

[[ 425` finally i realised. thank god ive got you ]]

[missed you`]
at 1/16/2005 01:14:00 AM

Friday, January 14, 2005
yawns* just woke up. mwahahas..
aiights, its time for UPDATES~!!

monday 10 jan 05 ;
im absent for school. hhahas..
monday blues. so i missed school.
with darling. l0ls.
wenta sengkang, found out tt.
the clinic is closed. not opened acty.
den headed down to changi hos.
den to sakura to eat.
funny things happened. hahas.
den wanted to catch a movie..
but didnt cos no shows to watch.
had a small tiff with honey.
but things were fine in awhile's time.
went back to pasir ris.
den sat down and slackked.
went home at 7plus??

tuesday 11 jan 05 ;
went back to school with.....
my fever, cough, flu and headache.
cant pay much attn due to the headaches.
school was a lil boooooring.
but my class' so lame. hahas.
they cheered me up a lil bahs. thanks.
had lit which was booooring.
did reflections, no quiz. hahas.
then had science. booooring.
enjoyed talking to my right n behind. =D
then had chinese. as usual.
english same old stuff.
mrs poh was funny.
math, mrs tey got drifted from lesson. l0ls.
and comp studies suck.
cant touch the comp. goddamnit.
dora n grace came to my house aft school.
funny funny. i fell aslp for 1/2 hr. l0ls.
3 missed calls from honey. l0ls.
they went home at like close to 7pm??

wednesday 12 jan 05 ;
had mass ex. which was torturing.
den some time to waste.
then mother tongue.
then had art. as usual. how can it go then??
geography. did the workbook lorhs. normal.
den mr zaidi came in during math period.
gave us homework. grrrrr.
but 10 mins after he gave homework,
he came back into my class to teach us.
lotsa funny things. sure i did lmao. =)
den had project work. goshhhh.
i actually fell aslp for the whole 1/2 hr.
bwahahahs. im great. l0ls.
had cca recruitment today. boooring.
all sec ones are irritating attitude fools.

thursday 13 jan 05 ;
chinese first, no lesson. tcher's absent.
den had science.
the bloody tcher changed my seat. grrrrr~
then had english. as per normal.
history was kinda boooooring.
how could bernice tey call us scattered brain?
dumb-dontknow-who said he've got no brains.
how dumb can my class gets mann. shit..
den st lesson dont know do wad.
den had assembly. my class arhs... hahas.
den had treasurer meeting.
den had netball training. goshhh. tired. l0ls.

friday 14 jan 05 ;
which is today. had reading period.
which is one period tt cause me to be slpy..
had pe after tt. ran like crazaye. tired.
but more awake. hahas..
den came lit. had quiz. wth.
qns changed cos bloody 2e tell norlinda,
tt 2h told us the answers. then lotsa pple;
had to copy. only lirong got it all correct.
i copied once. tts like wth. tiring man.
took cme lesson to like copy.
cos dorothy yeo's lesson is like this.
its always booooooring. hhahas..
den by the time mrs poh came in for eng,
ive fnshed my punishment. hahas.
den had intellect log-on. funny sia...
gonna role play next week. lmao.
imagine what would come out in a team with..
me, dora, dickson and matthew... LOLS.
stayed back for an hour to like do my journal.
hahas. im so guaii. reached home at 1345 =)
had my lunch. den slept till like..
just when i started to blog? hahas. cools..
imma piggy piggy oink oink. l0ls.
okays okays. i dont know.
ive quite alot of things to think abt.
cos... i dont know. its abt me n him.
its always about us.. haiis..
is things like how he actually has said?
maybe yeahs. gotta think thoroughly..
maybe it just doesnt meant to be...

okays. gotta go bathe. and start with my work.
going jogging early morning tomorrow morn??
or later at nite. well. ending here then..
tatas all` have a nice weekend... =)

is this all meant to be? or it isnt?
youre always confusing me.
youre always stopping me;
from carrying things out..
maybe like what you said.
i will consider. dont worry.
sorry anyway~

[[ 423` life's getting tough right at this moment ]]

[missed you`]
at 1/14/2005 06:14:00 PM

Monday, January 10, 2005
3 days since ive blogged.
here i am for UPDATES..

alrights. the 2 previous days were badd.
real bad.
broken up in a sense with darling.
but lame me thought of something real funny.
LOLS. tts my secret with honey.
things now are much much better.
skipped school today. wenta meet honey.
wenta changi hos. with him.
he got his mc. den we wenta eat at sakura.
its darn funny eating there. l0ls.
darling eat till real full.
cos i gave half of wad i eat to him.
we ate like fried beef kway tiao,
seafood crispy egg noodle and sharkfin soup.
darling ate half of my noodle..
and i got him drank like 3/5 of the soup?? LOLS.
then headed for tm. wanted to catch a movie.
BUT no nice movie. plus ive quite alot of dvds.
soooooo.. skipped the movie.
walked round tm. took bus back.
had a short talk. the went home.
sure enjoyed myself. hahas.
things are sure getting much better.
and its time i change my view of things.
so darling, give me sometime. i can do it~!!
for you, for myself. i'll try my best now =)
darling, have more faith~!! loveyou <3

okays. going back to school tomorrow.
but but but. the headaches just wont leave me.
how sadd. hope it'll go away soon.
well. darling n me are oreadi making plans..
plans for mine n his bdae. hahahs..
we are so so so funny. lotsa funny plans.
darling was notti. and so was i.
made each other blush.. hahas.
my boy's so cute. *muacks*

well. perhaps this time round things'll be better.
and i hope it'll be better.
gonna tell baobeii my plans tomorrow.
hope it'll work out for both me and my boy.

well. and for now. gonna go read friedrich.
and sleep~!! hahas.. shagg.
okays okays. update again sometime soon..
tatas all. weets**

lovemyboy. darlingiloveyou.
hopethingswillbebetter.
hopethingswillworkoutforbothofus.
imtruelymadlydeeplyinlovewithyou.
wewillnotregret.
tilldeathdouspart.
iloveyou <3

[[ 419` truelymadlydeeplyinlovewithYOU ]]

[missed you`]
at 1/10/2005 10:43:00 PM

Friday, January 07, 2005
hey. im back. from a 6 days rest. hahas.

aiights. cant remember much.
not gonna blog all details oso. hahas.
i dont have a superb memory. grinns*

well. just remembered the fun i had..
last nite. before me n honey had a tiff.
the love i was given.
the love i indulge myself in.
the sweet kisses we had.
the warm hugs we shared.
but tt was the only time this week.
i enjoyed myself like this. the only time.

for the past week. things ve been terrible.
darling n i doesnt seem to be on good terms.
tts something im worried abt.
we're more off than on. sadd.

well. but i wanna thank this particular person.
for being there for me this week.
thanks for listening to me crap, complain;
and all kinda nonsense. thanks alot.
though the times u go, i feel upset.
but well. i wont ask for much.
cos at least there's someone there for me.
seriously, thanks alot.
i'll cheer up. i promise (>.^)v

aiights. my feeling's abit weird though.
after like let's say..
2 continuous nights of quarreling.
i began to let myself to get loose,
loose from the fact tt we might separate.
now. ive learnt things as time passes.
ive learnt tt.
loving someone doesnt neccesary ve to own him;
as long as tt person is happy.
if you choose to end this.
i believe its bcos u think u'll be happier.
and if i were to let you go.
it doesnt mean i love you no more.
i still love you and ill still be loving you.
but i wan you to be happier.
if we failed to be lovers, we can still be friends.
all i wanna let you know. is that.
no matter what happen, ill always always love you.
i promise`

if we're meant to be, we'll be.
no matter how long it takes.
how difficult the process' gonna be.
but if we're not meant to be.
we can still be friends right?

but if given a choice, i wont give you up.
i will not give you up unless you need me no more.
i will only give you up if you insists.
and if you definitely will be happier.

well. so. tts abt it. gonna go.
mum's making lotsa noise on the fone.
she's damn loud. im getting headache.
and i cant concentrate on this.
i dont know wad i wanna write.
so i guess ill be going. tatas`

imworriedillfallforyou.itshouldnthavegonethisfarthisway.
makemeconfusenomore.makemebeindecisivenomore.
cosiwannagrow.iwannabeindependent.andmatured.
iknowyoucare.butdontgivemetoomuch.
illnolongerfeelsecuredwhenyouguystreatmeextranice.
itsjustwarnnningme.lettingmeknowthatitsdangerous~
alliwannasayisstillthankyouverymuch. =)

[[ 416` life's still the same. worried. ]]

[missed you`]
at 1/07/2005 10:40:00 PM

Saturday, January 01, 2005
happy new year 05' ~!!

hmm. well. let's update~

301204 ; thursday
hmm. returned from town at 5pm.
honey came up to my place.
played gunbound.
cheered my lil bro up. thanks honey.
me and darling then left for town.
skipped my modeling course.
hmm. sad. l0ls.
well, at least uan makes up for it. l0ls.
then slackked around.
darling sent me home at night. hahas.
love darling. mwahs muacks <333

311204 new year eve~!!
met darling at like 7pm.
then i shall not talk about it. l0ls.
just knew i spent time with e guys. hahas.
with darling too. same old bunch of pple.
'04's new year eve suck biggie time.
next year will be better. promised. l0ls.

010105 happy new year~!!
well. darling sent me home.
with me going home at first alone.
then he came along. l0ls.
then had a talk. then i went up home at 11am.
took a bath. called darling.
he slept early. then i went over to mama's place.
then left with dajie to bugis.
then wenta compasspoint.
got my stuff. bought a small gift for darling.
then went home. hmmm..
darling's sleeping again. tired tired*
i hadnt had any good rest for 3 to 4 days straight.
fuck lorhs. school's gonna reopen soon.
i need my rest. l0ls.
well well. 2 hrs and 10 mins more, itll be 2nd day.
2nd day of 2005. hahas.
well. im gonna sleep real soon too. hahas.

alrights. darling's booking in tml nite.
tt sucks. hmm. then ill be meeting darling tml.
meet him for something before he goes back in.
haiis. dont know why suddenly needa go back.
arghs~!! saf got bigg problem. hurrrr.
hmm. tml might be going swimming.
if not, we'll just be chilling somewhere. =)

alrights. discuss tt again when i talk with honey.
gonna bathe and sleep. darn tired.
tatas all. rest well =)

miss my boy. love him. smooches and huggs~!!
muacks. huggies. loveya<3

[[ 410` 010105` darlingimissedyou.loveyou. ]]

[missed you`]
at 1/01/2005 09:32:00 PM