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Saturday, July 31, 2004
[[ 257 dAys. tr0ubled. ]]

h0me.
haiis~ s0 sick.. me myself didnt n0e tt i had high fever.. running at 39.2 degree celcius.. hahahs.. since ytd i guess.. w0ke up at 8 plus in the m0rn.. headache, wh0le b0dy aching.. den went back t0 sleep.. cushh i m0ve abit only, my b0dy pain.. den i w0ke up every h0ur l0rhs.. still lidat.. den 10am i dun b0ther lia0s, bear wif the pain, i g0 wash up, den c0ntinue wif mua math.. den send mrs kumar all th0se qns i dunn0 thru email.. den i to0k mua temperature, to0k medicine den i g0t dressed den i g0 out lia0s.. hahhas~ when wanting t0 g0 out, kena sc0lded by mum.. saying 'u sick, and summ0re fever still g0 where?! stay at h0me and rest larhs!' den i dun b0ther, open do0r, sh0uted tt i'm g0ing off, den i g0 out lia0s.. hahahs..

ouT.
met darling at 1430 at west plaza.. den waited f0r fatt till abt 1510.. den wenta eat at k0pitiam.. i didnt eat.. dun feel hungry.. and i was still having headache.. s0 skipped mua meal.. hahhas.. den wenta beach.. until abt 1900.. den wenta tampines, help dajie get her pink adidas b0ttle.. den went back t0 pasir ris.. t0 fatt's hse.. sit awhile, den dearr send me h0me in cab l0rhs~ s0 heart pain..

th0ughts.
haiis~ t0day n0t bad a day.. at the beginning.. but was reali tirred of all th0se facts i shldnt haf n0e.. haiis~ regret wad i've d0ne.. perhaps.. its just fated.. if we're meant t0 be t0gether 1314, den we'll be t0gether f0r tt l0ng.. but if we're n0t, den let's put the th0ught aside n cherish wad we haf n0w.. n0eing the fact, and lo0king at h0w u behave, reali sh0cks me.. its t0tally 2 different pple.. but i'm s0rry t0 say, wadever changes tt will be taking place is and will never be my fault.. i've been giving in all the while, there'll sure be a day when i reali get s0 tirred of giving in and there g0es tis flame.. i've never wanted tis t0 end.. but if there's such a day where by i reali reali ish s0 tirred, i wud just take a rest.. mayb i've been misunderstanding u guys.. but didnt u say tt pr0mises are never meant t0 be br0ken?? tts wad u t0ld me.. and i'll rmb it.. but.. twice, facts tt placed in fr0nt of me, pr0ves me tt u're wr0ng abt wad u've said.. is tt wad i haf t0 face as well?? i'm willing t0 be sick on ur behalf, i'm willing t0 suffer all kinda pains, illnesses and everything on ur behalf.. but i definetely n0t g0nna face the pain u gif me thru all th0se lies, and br0ken pr0mises.. n0w.. i've set myself thinking.. once again.. feeling reali very d0wn again.. just wanna cry out l0ud.. i've tried t0 hide all mua pains fr0m u guys, bc0s i blief tt, there's n0 one wh0m i cud reali rely on.. 6 years haf past, or s0me even 8 years haf past.. i owaes th0t i've f0und s0me cl0se frens wh0m i cud rely on.. but i was s0 wr0ng.. whenever they needed me, i gif them my 100% assurance tt i'll be there f0r them.. but i f0und out tt, out of the 10 times they've pr0mised me t0 turn up, only 2 of the 10 times i'm able t0 see them.. and tts when, i never reali trust any0ne oreadi.. and tts when, my heart breaks int0 th0usand n milli0n pieces.. it breaks int0 s0 many pieces tt there's n0 way anyone cud fixed it.. tts h0w hurt i am.. s0 if u guys reali understand h0w i feel deep d0wn in mua heart, please st0p hurting me.. being hurt by th0se wh0m u actuali th0t u cud rely on, has never and will never be any go0d feeling.. if only u guys reali understand me.. i'll be s0 grateful tt i'll be willing t0 die f0r it.. just once will d0.. once n i'll be c0ntented.. i dun ask f0r much.. d0 i? haiis~

[[life's never been any fair to me.. never once.. i may seem to meet up wif someone whom actuali seems like i cud rely on, but.. did u guys noe? i doubt so.. u guys breaks my heart, so much~]]

sleep earli guys.. take care.. nites..

[[shattered heart, shattered me~]]

[missed you`]
at 7/31/2004 11:53:00 PM

Friday, July 30, 2004
[[ 256 stiLl??!?! ]]

haiiyers~ time pass so slow.. still 256 days.. s0bbies.. but so0n, 257 day is arriving ler.. hahahs.. today's entries g0t l0ts h0rs.. hahahs.. b0 bians.. s0t s0t lia0s.. to0 b0rred u n0e.. hahhas.. kkies.. just bl0g.. t0 ask every0ne t0 sleep earli.. mua g0nna g0 revise math lerr.. hahhas~ nites oH~ muacks~

[missed you`]
at 7/30/2004 11:31:00 PM

[[ suRveY???!?!? ]]

::MY....
>:x: name = viviAn.
>:x: piercings = 5 earh0les, 1 n0se piercing.
>:x: tattoos = 0.
>:x: height = 158cm.
>:x: shoe size = 6 or 7 bahs.
>:x: hair color = black,br0wn,br0nze,c0pper,white.
>:x: siblings = 3.
>LAST...
>:x: movie you rented = i dun rent m0vies.
>:x: movie you bought = i dun buy m0vies as well.
>:x: song you listened to = dAi pEi nI - qIn aI dE nI zEn mE bU zAi sHen biAn?
>:x: song that was stuck in your head = o't0wn - alL oR n0thing.
>:x: cd you bought = f0rg0tten lehs.
>:x: person you've called = dearr.
>:x: person that's called you = dearr.
>:x: tv show you've watched = 1730 channel 8 de sh0w.
>:x: person you were thinking of = dearr.
>DO...
>:x: you have a crush on someone = nAhs.
>:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = yeSh.
>:x: you think about suicide = yupps, at times u n0e.
>:x: you believe in online dating = hAs neber and will neber blief.
>:x: others find you attractive = diff pple haf diff opini0ns yeahs~
>:x: you want more piercings = err~ 1 m0re earh0le bahs.
>:x: you like cleaning = yupps.
>:x: you like roller coasters = alrites bahs~
>:x: you write in cursive or print = print.
>FOR OR AGAINST...
>:x: long distance relationships = tt depends on wad kinda guy he ish.
>:x: using someone = agAinst.
>:x: suicide = agAinst.
>:x: killing people = agAinst.
>:x: teenage smoking = agAinst.
>:x: driving drunk = agAinst.
>:x: gay/lesbian relationships = agAinst.
>:x: soap operas = agAinst.
>HAVE YOU...
>:x: ever cried over a girl = yupps.
>:x: ever cried over a boy = yupps.
>:x: ever lied to someone = yeshh.
>:x: ever been in a fist fight = yeshh. =x
>:x: ever been arrested = no. i'm a go0d ger.
>WHAT...
>:x: shampoo do you use = d0ve.
>:x: shoes do you wear = sh0es larhs.
>:x: are you scared of = loneliness, darkness, sadness, cl0se pple leaving me, life without him.
>NUMBER...
>:x: of times I have been in love? = 1.
>:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = to0 many times.
>:x: of girls I have hugged? = err~ n0t al0t.
>:x: of boys I have hugged?= 2 bahs~
>:x: of girls I have kissed? = 0.
>:x: of boys I have kissed? = 1.
>:x: of girls I've slept (in a bed) with? = l0ts.
>:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = 2.
>:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = 0.
>:x: of scars on my body? = l0ts. l0lss.
>:x: of things in my past that I regret? = to0 many things t0 menti0n.
>DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
>:x: shuai= n0pes.
>:x: funny = yesh, but t0 the lame side.
>:x: hot = n0pes. to0 y0ung t0 be~
>:x: friendly = yesh.
>:x: amusing = alrites larhs~
>:x: ugly = yesh. gers out there n0w are threatening!!
>:x: loveable = tt depends~
>:x: caring = depends on situati0n.
>:x: sweet = depends on situati0n as well.
>:x: dorky = huHs?
>FAVORITE:
>:x: 5 letter word: j0han.
>:x: actor/actress: dun haf real fave de lehs~
>:x: Candy: ch0c0late.
>:x: Cartoon: winnie the po0h n frens!
>:x: Cereal: all are fine wif me~
>:x: Color: pink, black, lavender, white, blue.
>:x: Day of week: sAturday.
>:x: Least fave day: thursdAy.
>:x: Flower: i dunno. sweet smelling, pinkish or purplish in c0lor will d0.
>:x: Jello flavor: huhS?
>:x: Jewelry: eArrings, necklAce n ankLet bahs~
>:x: Special skills/talents: puPpy eyes?
>:x: Summer/Winter: summEr.
>:x: Trampolines or swimming pools: b0th are fine.
> You
>:x: Nickname(s): beAr. chicKen.
>:x: Initials: V.C.
>:x: How old do you look?: tt depends on h0w one lo0ks at me n h0w i dress.
>:x: How old do you act?: depends on situAtion.
>:x: Glasses/Contacts: glAsses.
>:x: Braces?: n0pes.
>:x: Do you have any pets?: n0pes.
>:x: You get embarrassed: yeAhs.
>:x: What makes you happy?: seeing others smile n seeing my dear smiles!
>:x: What upsets you?: seeing others hurt n seeing my dear hurts.
> Finish the sentence:
>:x: I Love to... be ard my dear n spend time wif him.
>:x: I Miss... everything of my dearr, gu0qiang, nAtalie.
>:x: I Wish... things wud be like the past.
>:x: I Hope... tt there w0nt haf n0nsence thingy happening btween me n him.
>:x: I'm Annoyed by... irritAting n lAme pple, backstabbers n liars!
>:x: I Am... a ger!
>:x: I Want to Be... a perfect gerfren. a tcher, h0pefully? hahash~
>:x: I Would Never... wanna haf anything bad happen t0 anyone i n0e.
>:x: I'd Rather... sacrifice myself f0r others.
>:x: I Am Tired of... quArrels, d0ubts..
>:x: I Will Always be... wh0 i am n n0t wh0 others wan me t0 be.
> Have you ever..
>:x: Thought you were going to die: yesh.
>:x: Wanted to Run away: yesh.
>:x: Flunked a grade: n0pes, neber!!
>:x: Skipped a grade: n0. i'm n0t tt clever u n0e~::

[missed you`]
at 7/30/2004 09:49:00 PM

[[ tiAn heI - aH dU ]]

feng ruo ting le yun yao zen me fei. ni ruo zou le wo yao zen me shui.
xin ruo po le ni yao zen me pei. ruo fei ni zhi shi tan wan de hu die.

tian dou hei le ni zai xiang zhe shui. qing dou mie le wo yao zen me zhui.
hua dou shuo le ni yao zen me tui. yuan lai ni zhi hui rang wo diao yan lei.
zheng ge shi jie tu ran yi qi tian hei. ai zai yan qian wu sheng beng kui.
shuai cheng fen shui.

wo bi shang yan jing jiu shi tian hei. yi zhong si lie de gan jue.
zhui li han zhe xue xing zi wei. duo me shang de li bie.
wo cheng ren wo zhui pa tian hei. meng bei tao kong de cuo jue.
wo yi bu zai shi ni de shui. xiang dao jiu hui xin shui.

tian dou hei le ni zai xiang zhe shui. qing dou mie le wo yao zen me zhui.
hua dou shuo le ni yao zen me tui. yuan lai ni zhi hui rang wo diao yan lei.
zheng ge shi jie tu ran yi qi tian hei. ai zai yan qian wu sheng beng kui.
shuai cheng fen shui.

wo bi shang yan jing jiu shi tian hei. yi zhong si lie de gan jue.
zhui li han zhe xue xing zi wei. duo me shang de li bie.
wo cheng ren wo zhui pa tian hei. meng bei tao kong de cuo jue.
wo yi bu zai shi ni de shui. xiang dao jiu hui xin shui.

feng ruo ting le yun yao zen me fei. ni ruo zou le wo yao zen me shui.
xin ruo po le ni yao zen me pei...]]

[[ "tian hei".. hahahs.. tis remind me of myself.. so afraid of the dark.. hahhas.. yeahs.. timid me.. hahhas.. but tis song reminds me of alot of other things as well..so many memories wif him.. and 'him'.. yeahs...]]

[missed you`]
at 7/30/2004 08:59:00 PM

[[256 dAys. n0t welL.]]

scho0l.
haiis~ saddened.. scho0l's n0 fun.. or ish just bc0s i'm n0t in the mo0d t0 play? yeahs.. was being c0mplained tt i was to0 l0w t0day.. hahahs.. hmm.. did nth l0rhs.. must re-d0 art lehs~ haiiyers~ irritating h0rs? haiis.. den g0t math h0mew0rk.. english os0 haf.. s0 sians.. haiis~ n0thing much happened l0rhs.. earli m0rning kena caught f0r ankle s0cks only l0rhs.. den nth much lia0s ler.. hahahs.. yeahs.. tts all abt scho0l.

aft scho0l.
saw farliana-jie at the bus st0p.. waiting f0r the same bus h0me.. yeahs.. den t0k t0k l0rhs.. den c0me t0 a p0int of time.. i asked her abt jashawn.. haiis~ s0 sad.. guess wad.. they br0ke up ytd.. jashawn was her l0ngest stead.. 1 m0nth plus.. yeahs.. she lo0ked quite sad when t0king abt him.. guess he still l0ve him l0ts l0ts bahs~ haiis~ [[jie jie, dun sad sad.. some times, being frens are better than being ger-boi fren.. there are many other fishes in the ocean.. take ur time and search.. u will find ur Mr.Right one day de.. or even, he's infr0nt of u oreadi, its just tt u didnt n0tice.. take time understanding ur frens, and mayb tt will help u t0 find 'him'...]] yeahs~ i blief tt if tis isnt the guy who will stay wif u, den he's not the right guy.. mayb u insist on thinking tt he's the right guy f0r u.. but d0 u n0e tt the right guy is out there waiting f0r u?? it just take some time bef0re u actuali n0e.. pple say tt l0ve ish a game.. but i dun think s0.. perhaps its a game, i dunn0.. but i certainly belief tt l0ve is a game of TIME. l0ve is n0t just he treating u go0d, he sends u h0me, he brings u out, he kisses u, he hugs u and s0.. l0ve is a very str0ng feeling f0r tt very special pers0n, tt is n0t easily fade away under any circumstances.. l0ve is os0 sacrifices.. if u truely l0ve s0meone, u must be willing t0 make all sacrifices f0r him.. and l0ve, is definetely n0t a 3yr old kid game.. once u're in it, haf trust in urself and ur partner.. d0 care f0r each other unc0nditi0nally.. and never d0 anything the other pers0n d0esnt like.. and.. tts h0w i judge l0ve~

h0me.
g0t h0me lia0s. den g0t on the bed and rest.. very tirred.. hahhs.. wanted t0 d0 h0mew0rk de.. but reali very tirred.. and i'm feeling sick.. having terrible headaches n a damn bad s0re thr0at.. haiis~ thr0at damn pain lehs~ s0 sians sia.. hahhas.. hmm.. n0thing happen much as well.. haiis.. later g0ing out l0rhs.. m0st pr0b larhs.. hahhas.. kkies larhs.. i g0 rest first.. headache..

take care w0rrs.. muacks~

[missed you`]
at 7/30/2004 01:44:00 PM

Thursday, July 29, 2004
[[255 dAys. heArt-br0ken.]]

scho0l.
kies~ put it in sh0rt. scho0l sucks big time.. like wad miss ye0w says when she teaches Animal Farm.. hahhas.. hmm.. h0w t0 put it int0 pr0per w0rds lehs? kkies.. hmm.. earli m0rn g0 scho0l, wenta minimart first.. saw karen, h0onie and wendy.. karen darn fierce lehs.. the auntie ask her she wan donut wif sugar or without.. den she say donut dun put sugar den put p0rridge izzit?? haiis~ den went back t0 scho0l ler l0rhs.. hmm.. first less0n was reading.. read my bo0k.. den went f0r pC.. kumar's h0mero0m.. den english.. english was b0rred.. we're simply slackking thru the wh0le less0n.. t0gether wif the tcher.. hahhas.. den came recess.. was b0rred.. den had math.. did a t0tal new chapter.. and i did n0t understand due t0 the absence of class on tues.. den aft scho0l, stayed back f0r awhile f0r remedial.. yeahs.. den came m0ther t0ngue.. b0rred.. den standardized test.. was busy revising on the way up t0 kumar's h0mer0om again.. quite a passable paper.. i guess.. hahahs.. hmm.. den n0 netball t0day.. wenta pasir ris wif grace..

pAsir riS.
yeahs. slacked ard l0rhs.. den wenta eat.. den slacked ard.. den wenta west plaza area at 1800+.. met dear, he was darn c0ld t0 me.. he was pissed.. or shld i say, angry.. hahhas.. kkies.. den didnt t0k.. den me and grace walked bhind like d0gs lidat.. haiis.. den finally, he went t0 west plaza k0pitiam wif fatt, leaving me wif only a sentence.. [["if you wanna go home, go ahead."]] yeahs.. den he left.. walking away lo0king kinda happy.. at tt m0ment, my heart breaks, wanted t0 cry s0 much.. but i bear wif it.. den aft awhile, g0t a call frm fatt.. he asked me t0 g0 d0wn t0 the k0pitiam asap.. den went d0wn walking sl0wly, thinking of wad will happen.. den grace walked ard at west plaza.. me, dear, fatt sat ard a table, s0rting things out.. repeating everything detail, every single fact i haf on me, f0r m0re than 3 times, all 3 times, he assume tt i'm lying.. he didnt trust me.. tt was wad happened.. s0.. aft he assume f0r the last time at the k0pitiam, i came t0 tis c0nclusi0n. [[since he d0esnt blieves wad i've said, without a flaw for more than 3 times, den why shld i bother abt him any longer?]] like wad he owaes tell me.. love cannot exist wif trust and care.. since he oreadi given half of the relationship away, i guess there's n0 need f0r me t0 carry on any further.. i'm s0 dumb.. s0 dumb as t0 bear wif all th0se sc0ldings and blames when i actuali did n0thing bad.. life's s0 unfair.. why?? [[u reali are diff today, when u feel like toking den call me. its reali sad to feel no warmth in ur hugs, to see u without ur smile. im sorry.~ rmb the nite i didnt slp. was awake the whole nite. i was so afraid tt u'd leave juz like my ex's. the tears wudnt stop, i'm reali afraid. i love u so much.~]] these are the 2 msges he sent me.. which i found it rather impt.. but.. if u're so afraid i'll leave, then why cant u spent the time thinking how u can make me stay rather than having those pessimistic thots? haiis~ i dunno.. i just feel like having a long slp.. a long one.. until the day when i feel reali alrite, den i'll appear again.. so wads the p0int of us being t0gether n0w? i'm tired of all these craps of u not trusting me and i not trusting u.. when i reali had enuff of tt, dun blame me for being cruel.. at tt time, i'll just leave.. perhaps, until now, u've never noe how hurt i am~

c0nclude.
haiis~ just learnt tt i've g0tta be a little t0ugh at times to0.. i dun wanna get bullied anym0re.. tts n0t the life i wan.. i wan a simple yet happy life.. and you, i guess u've yet to understand me enuff.. perhaps tis is the time f0r u.. t0 learn.. bef0re i bl0w my t0p off~

go0d nites frens.. g0nna fnsh up mua math assignment, den g0nna think over every little thing again.. take care.. muackies~

[missed you`]
at 7/29/2004 09:15:00 PM

Wednesday, July 28, 2004
[[ 254 dAys]] undescriptable mo0d~

yo0 h0o~ just h0me n0t l0ng ag0.. abt.. lemme see.. at abt 2000 bahs~ yeahs~

scho0l.
sians.. aiai wasnt scho0l. hmm.. den lidat l0rhs.. den spent the day in scho0l wif chrystle, huimin, j0clyn and wenling l0rhs.. den play water wif chrystle and j0clyn.. feel s0 kid w0rs~ hahahs.. but nebermind.. its alrite.. like i say.. as l0ng as i enj0y myself can ler.. dun haf t0 b0ther wad others say.. if they dunn0 h0w t0 enj0y, den tts their pr0blem.. hmm.. every less0n passed s0 quickly.. except the last one.. m0ther t0ngue.. haiis~ i dread t0 g0 m0ther t0ngue less0ns n0w.. th0ugh i get t0 slack all i like.. and best part, n0 one catches me, neither d0es any0ne b0thers abt me.. s0.. okies~ whenever it c0mes t0 the last peri0d only, i bcum *jita0 sians* th0se kind of pple.. hahahs.. yeahs.. n0 h0mew0rk t0day.. kinda g0od.. but.. i f0rget t0 bring my science textbo0k h0me t0 study f0r tml's test.. s0 irritating l0rhs~ haiis~ f0rget it... shall study it tml m0rn bahs~ hahhas.. hmm.. den tts all bahs~

aft scho0l.
wenta tampines t0 find dearr.. haiis~ he's g0nna haf a surgery next wednesday.. *prays hard f0r everything t0 g0 well* yeahs.. if only i can p0ng.. den i g0 acc0mpany him.. hahhas.. btu guess he w0nt all0w me t0.. unless i fall sick on tt day l0rhs.. s0 tis matter ish n0 bargain de.. n0 means n0.. n0 bargains~ hurrs~ kkies.. met him.. den wenta the cinema.. checked out time sl0ts.. watched I Robot in the end.. he actuali wanna watched King Arthur de.. but.. kkies~ next time sl0t was like.. err~ i dunn0 wad time.. oh yah~ 1720.. den we watched I Robot l0rhs.. nice sh0w i must say.. its highly rec0mmended.. hahhas.. the cinema was freezing c0ld.. hahhas.. s0 s0 c0ld yeahs~ btH.. dear w0re l0ng sleeves os0 c0ld nehs~ u imagine me wearing tis thin material unif0rm.. hahhas.. kkies.. den m0vie fnsh ler.. den wenta walked ardd f0r awhile.. den dear sent me h0me.. but he saw number 3 bus st0p l0tsa pple, den asked me t0 take bus change.. m0re0ver, number 3 fr0m tampines takes 1 h0ur t0 get back t0 my hse.. s0 we to0k 81 and changed.. get on bus only, dear dear slept.. den i fell aslp kinda so0n to0.. was rather shag.. den by the time dear opened his eys, we just passed the last bus st0p in pasir ris.. and its on its way t0 the expressway.. hhahas.. the 2 of us were cursing our heads off.. hahhas.. kkies.. den to0k until serango0n juni0r c0llege.. den to0k 81 back, den changed number 3 h0me.. hahhas.. s0 funny.. yeahs.. dear left his medical stuffs wif me.. dunn0 h0w is he g0nna gif his officer medical cert tml when he get backs t0 camp.. haiiyers~ s0 irritated.. hahhsa..

hmm.. i dunn0 wad shld i d0 n0w.. just recieved a msg fr0m b0yb0y and gu0qiang.. b0th asking me t0 take care.. hahhas.. yeahs.. i will.. thanks guys* hmm.. den yarhs~ dunn0 wad i'm g0nna d0 n0w.. perhaps fnsh up my chinese w0rkbo0k.. bleahs~ hahhas.. kkies larhs.. g0nna g0 ler.. bB..

t0 dear dear: i enj0yed myself t0day.. glad t0 see him... dear, must take care of urself kkies? ur ger ger misses u lia0s ler.. must take care of urself u n0e.. dun like t0 see u sick and stuff.. muackies~

[[haiis~ i dunn0 why.. i just dunn0 why.. perhaps i've oreadi g0t myself used t0 bearing wif everything bahs~ or shld i say, i n0 l0nger wanna b0ther much and just live life just like h0w it is wif every day past by.. n0t much of reacti0ns t0day.. n0t much of me is affected by anything.. has my heart numbed?? i dunn0.. i reali dunn0.. i reali dun h0pe f0r much.. i just wan a simple life, wif th0se wh0m i l0ve, n0 pr0blems, n0 w0rries.. tts all i'll ask f0r.. is it s0 difficult t0 get tt?? i dunn0.. has my heart numbed? `viviAn.]]

[missed you`]
at 7/28/2004 08:36:00 PM

Tuesday, July 27, 2004
[[253 dAys stiLl~]]

wo0 la lA.. t0ked t0 cArine online.. linked her up yeahs? yarhs.. went out at 1415 lidat.. daddy sent me t0 p0lyclinic.. ta ma de.. i sit d0wn there 2 h0urs plus den get t0 see the d0ct0r f0r 5 minutes.. den waited f0r an0ther 15 mins f0r medicine.. den g0 off lia0s.. s0 irritated l0rhs.. i sit d0wn there, d0 my h0mew0rk.. os0 fnsh abt 1 h0ur later.. den sit d0wn there zu0 b0.. haiis~ den fnsh seeing d0ct0r, met phips jie awhile.. wenta whitesands l0rhs.. wenta get mua stati0neries.. den she g0 arcade play para n dj.. den dearr c0me up find me.. den dear send me t0 bus st0p l0rhs.. den g0 h0me lerr..

reached h0me later than usual.. i mean the bus j0urney was l0nger than usual.. haiis~ reached h0me cl0se t0 1950.. den bathe.. den bl0gged.. changed my template again.. hahahs.. the extra b0xes by the rite ish ownself add de.. hahhas.. cushh i cant fit in mua taggie.. if n0t my bl0gs cant be seen.. tts why l0rhs.. hmm.. den called dear awhile.. guessed he wif fatt n0w bahs.. dun think i wanna call him l0rhs.. t0day os0 n0 mo0d de.. i dunn0 why.. haiis~ den dearr tml g0nna g0 changi h0spital.. d0 check up i think.. yeahs.. haiis.. he t0day g0 med centre.. g0t slight asthma.. haiiyers~ i'm irritated.. frustrated.. w0rried.. i dunn0 larhs.. haiis~ until n0w i haben check out t0day g0t wad h0mew0rk.. hahhs.. kkies.. den i g0nna g0 ler l0rhs.. i reali g0t n0 mo0d.. i dunn0 why.. perhaps.. i'm just weird.. i'm weird in actual fact arhs~ hahhas.. yeahs.. haiis~

[[my heart couldnt settle the down the moment i see u.. i dunno why.. my feelings are just so undescriptable.. is there anything wrong wif me? i hope not.. why, i'm asking myself every minute.. i just hope.. just hope nth will go wrong for us, or just u... emotional, troubled me~ `viviAn]]

[missed you`]
at 7/27/2004 09:21:00 PM

[[253 dAys~ n0 okAys..]]

yo0 h0o~ yeahs.. didnt bl0g last nite cushh i was out until cl0se t0 2200.. den my st0mach hurts.. den i wenta lie d0wn on my bed with0ut dinner.. den wenta slp.. but w0ke up 0450 in the m0rn.. but my st0mach still hurts.. i w0nder wads wr0ng wif it.. it've been hurting since ytd evening until n0w u n0e.. i'm damn fede up.. later g0nna g0 see d0c.. check out wads s0 wr0ng wif it..

yesterdAy.
was out at cl0se t0 1600.. peishan came up mua hse.. den we headed straight d0wn t0 t0wn. takashimaya t0wer A t0 be exact.. yeahs.. wenta meet michelle.. saw l0tsa u.a.n members yeahs?? saw Jeanette Aw n one act0r.. he has the lo0ks of 'Richard Yu' in holland village.. but i guess its definetely n0t him.. yeahs.. den t0ld jes abt it.. and she was greatly interested in it as well.. hahhas.. den aft meeting michelle f0r less than 20 mins, we headed d0wn t0 cineleisure.. t0ok ne0s.. n0t bad larhs.. quite nice.. den we headed back t0 pasir ris.. den i wenta meet dear n fatt.. t0k t0k awhile.. den went h0me l0rhs.. yeahs~

t0day.
didnt wenta scho0l. st0mach still hurts. like crazy. yeahs~ s0 skipped sch0ol. haiis.. my st0mach's giving me l0ads of pr0blems.. s0 frustrating.. hmm.. den later g0nna g0 see d0c.. dear os0 wenta medical centre in tek0ng. his chest still hurts.. h0pe asthma w0nt c0me back l0hs.. haiis~ s0 irritating.. kkies larhs.. g0nna g0 lia0s l0rhs.. g0 see d0c.. bubbuaiz~

[missed you`]
at 7/27/2004 10:40:00 AM

Sunday, July 25, 2004
*stiLl 251 dAys]] hApPy~

kkies~ t0day was shagged.. hahhas..

earli m0rning.
8 plus, ling msged me asking me needa buy wad f0r the art project and stuff.. den she came at ardd 1130 i think.. when she msged me, i was slping.. was damn shag kkies?? slept at cl0se t0 0500 last nite.. its like.. cant sleep yeahs?? den she msged me s0 fast, s0 earli... its a little irritating t0 recieve a msg s0 earli m0rn.. i fnshed msging her by 0930.. cushh i reply one msg taking abt 15 mins each.. was slping while msging.. hahahs.. den i managed t0 haf s0me peace.. but it only lasted f0r 15 mins.. hahhas.. den fatt called me.. asked me t0 call his f0ne and chat.. cushh he was at opp yanling's hse since m0rning 6am.. until 3 plus i think.. cushh she finally meet him.. yeahs.. he was c0mplaining.. den lidat l0rhs. hahahs.. den did art.. was darn funny can.. the thing lo0ked funny.. muhahahs.. s0tss~

in the evening.
at abt 1600, i went out l0rhs.. wenta meet dearrie, fatt n linkin.. at west plaza.. fatt finally wanted t0 gif her up ler.. like we've said it over n over again, she's n0t w0rth it.. s0.. he decided t0 heed our advice.. gif up.. den they were t0king abt meeting liwen.. cushh fatt wan meet new ger t0 f0rget yanling.. den haiis~ my mo0d changed.. s0 saddening.. dunn0 larhs~ i dun feel happy when he's out wif me, yet t0king abt other gers.. its very irritating.. and it simply gets on my nerves.. haiis~ den i sad sad l0rhs.. den behave weird weird de.. den he ask me g0 kitchen t0k t0k.. den abt 15 mins lidat, i never say anything, he say he wanted t0 g0 h0me.. den i started crying lia0s.. very sad mahs~ den lidat l0rhs.. but in the end, he s0rta deleted her c0ntact.. but there's n0 way he's g0nna st0p c0ntacting her l0rhs.. she'll owaes c0ntact him de.. trust me.. haiis~ s0 s0 s0 s0 s0 saddening~ haiis~ am i still paran0id?? my g0d.. i need help~

h0me.
g0t h0me at abt 2100.. yeahs.. den wenta bathe~ den t0k wif peishan on f0ne l0rhs.. den c0me bl0g l0rhs.. yeahs.. tts all abt t0day l0rhs.. still feeling a little sad.. haiis~ g0nna g0 ler larhs~ g0 find the pictures f0r dnt.. yeahs.. go0d nites.

[missed you`]
at 7/25/2004 10:05:00 PM

[[251 dAys]] hApPy l0rHs~ =)

yeahs.. 251th day ler.. hahahs.. hmm.. was back h0me at 0015 lidat.. den wenta bathe.. den c0me bl0g lerr.. yeahs..

was out since 1230 in the aftn.. w0re my v0n dutch racer t0p, wif the jeans i b0ught ytd, and the heels i b0ught ytd.. and to0k a small denim handbag.. wanted t0 take my v0n dutch bag de.. but jie jie to0k it t0 w0rk.. s0bbies~ hmm.. i lo0ked old wearing wad i w0re just n0w.. pple misto0k me as a 16 or 17.. its like.. oh g0sh~ i'm only 13 tis year!! hahhas..

kkies.. when i reach pasir ris, its oreadi like, 1330?? went up t0 white sands arcade t0 lo0k f0r dear, fatt n linkin.. den they were playing games f0r a little while m0re bef0re we actuali left the place.. den to0k train d0wn t0 tampines.. actuali wanted t0 watch m0vie de.. but fatt has watched King Arthur, s0 din watched any.. den we went lo0king f0r yen sistas' birthday gifts.. g0t bears f0r them.. den walked ardd f0r s0me time.. den saw samantha, sarah, angel n an0ther unkn0wn zarb0r wif them at the sh0p which females shldnt enter.. the sales pple wud get u t0 buy sth bef0re u step out of their sh0p... tts irritating.. sam was wearing make-up, the rest d0 haf make-up to0.. sam was wearing a halter t0p which i last seen it 2 days back at tis fashi0n.. yeahs.. she lo0ks 'old' yeahs.. j0han agrees on that to0~

hmm.. den we left tampines at 1530 lidat.. or mayb earlier.. den to0k cab d0wn t0 pasir ris park.. dear rented a 2 sitter bike.. fatt n linkin b0th rented blades.. we rented f0r an h0ur.. s0 dear, fatt n linkin paid $7 l0rhs.. n0t bad larhs.. i to0k the back sit.. den was like.. dun needa d0 much.. hahhas.. f0r the first half h0ur or a little lesser, we were cycling n blading ard pasir ris park.. den c0me t0 a p0int, dear wanted t0 see if he c0uld still blade, den he changed wif fatt.. fatt cycled wif me n dear r0ller-blade.. hahhas.. tts s0 cute when dear actuali r0ller blade.. he did many stunts.. n0t due t0 he being a pr0 r0ller-blader, but due t0 he cant balance.. hahhas.. s0 cute h0rs?? =P den went back t0 the rental there, dear n fatt changed back.. den g0 cycling n blading ardd again.. den at the end, we all c0mpete.. see wh0's the sl0w p0ke.. hahhas.. cushh fatt cant reali blade pr0perly.. s0 all wanna di sia0 him.. s0 po0r thing h0rs.. den linkin g0t 1st.. me n darling g0t 2nd.. and.. fatt.. the last.. hahahs.. den we slackked at p.a.. they went in t0 play vide0 games, i watched.. den ardd 1900 dearr went bhind p.a t0 play bball.. yenling came t0 get her pressie.. den t0k awhile.. den when dearr came back, she came back t0 help her elder sis t0 take her pressie l0rhs.. cushh we wanted t0 g0.. den aft she to0k the pressie, we sat f0r awhile m0re.. den wenta a r0ck and sat d0wn, t0k t0k.. den 2000, we walked out and wenta fatt's hse.. den watched tr0y.. den dearr send me h0me lerr~ yeahs.. den g0t h0me at 0015 lidat l0rhs..

yeahs.. dear just g0t h0me l0rhs [[0057]].. s0 late.. s0 w0rried.. haiis.. i'm reali w0rried sick abt dearr.. his chest hurts.. i'm w0rried tt his asthma might just c0me back again.. haiis.. i'm reali very w0rried.. i dun wan anything bad t0 happen t0 him.. i dun mind i suffer all th0se illness on behalf of him.. as l0ng as he d0esnt suffers.. t0 see him feeling s0 hurt, my heart breaks int0 many pieces.. h0ping tt g0d wud take it out on me rather than on him.. haiis~ den daddy os0 dunn0 wad happen.. mayb he's drunk or sth lidat.. he threw tantrum.. at mummy.. hate it l0rhs.. even if he's tirred or wad, cant he just speak nicely?? its like.. wad he take mummy f0r.. haiis~ i dunn0 wad t0 say abt it lia0s larhs.. haiis~ i'm highly irritated by it!!

nites frens.. sleep earli yahs?? its oreadi 0120.. take care.. sleep tite..

i just dun wan any bad things t0 happen t0 dear. i dun mind suffering on his behalf.. i hate it t0 see him suffering.. my heart breaks int0 th0usand n milli0ns of pieces.. i dun wanna live a day with0ut him.. he's the only s0urce which can keep me alive.. th0se m0tivati0ns, th0se trust i had are s0me m0tivati0ns f0r me t0 carry on wif life.. with0ut th0se, i may just be wh0 i used t0 be once.. the ger wh0 never learns fr0m her mistakes.. he've made a very big difference in my life.. and wif him, i'm certain tt things f0r us will gets betta by each passing day..

*i l0ve u.. i've never regret being wif u and i never will.. `viviAn]]

[missed you`]
at 7/25/2004 12:42:00 AM

Saturday, July 24, 2004
[[250 dAys]] hApPy~

wo0 la La~ happy lehs~ kkies.. din bl0g last nite.. cushh er jie was using until i actuali fell aslp.. hahahs.. kkies..

yesTerdAy.
went t0 t0wn wif priscilla.. hahhas.. first, we wenta far east.. yeahs.. i b0ught a jeans there.. yeahs.. l0ve it man.. hahash.. den b0ught a pair of heels os0.. hahhas.. pink de.. hahhas.. quite nice l0rhs.. den headed d0wn t0 bugis aft tt.. the train was cr0wded.. hahahs.. yeahs.. den wenta bugis street.. b0ught a v0n dutch racer t0p.. pink de w0rrs~ hahahs.. den headed t0 bugis juncti0n.. to0k ne0s wif her.. saw grace, jessica n shirlyn l0rhs.. hahhas.. they were in unif0rm.. hahhas.. kkies.. den went t0 pasir ris at abt 1730.. met dearr at west plaza at 1830 lidat.. den he sent me h0me l0rhs.. at 8 plus..

t0day.
g0ing out again later.. yeahs.. hahahs.. s0 funny.. dunn0 where we're g0ing t0day.. m0st pr0b watching m0vies again.. yeahs.. every week sure watch m0vie once de.. and summ0re he g0t s0 many sh0ws wanna watch.. den at abt 1830.. will be dr0pping by pasir ris beach.. t0 find yen ching they all.. t0day yen sistas bdae.. s0 dr0pping by l0rhs.. they wan me t0 g0 os0.. s0 dr0p by f0r awhile while l0rhs.. hahhas.. yeahs.. i still dunn0 wad time g0ing out l0rhs.. later g0nna call him l0rhs.. hahhas.. kkies larhs~ g0nna g0.. bubbuaiz~

[missed you`]
at 7/24/2004 10:32:00 AM

Friday, July 23, 2004
[[249 dAys]]

yesterday.
sians. scho0l's b0red. was being c0mplained by l0tsa peeps in class tt i was l0w?? hahhas.. yeahs.. didnt had the mo0d t0 j0ke wif them ytd.. s0.. lidat l0rhs.. s0rry guys** den aft scho0l piah t0 c0mpass p0int wif grace n aiai. aiai pierced her n0se.. hahahs.. seemed t0 hurt larhs~ but.. hahahs.. den aft scho0l, when waiting f0r lrt, saw kumar l0rhs.. damn it.. she t0ld me the bad bad news.. math class test was badly d0ne.. haiis~ at tt p0int of time, i'm s0 g0d damn disapp0inted.. was sure tt i'm one of the one few wh0 failed.. haiis.. den on lrt, when g0nna alight, she caught my s0cks n aiai's. den catch only aiai's ear sticks.. saddening huhs~ i owaes neber kena de.. hahas.. h0w lucky.. but s0 saddening f0r aiai.. everytime kena one.. s0bbies~ den came h0me.. dunn0 d0 wad l0rhs.. was slackking.. tts all i n0e.. hahahs.. den called dearr.. made him s0 heart-br0ken.. due t0 me being to0 paran0id.. s0rry dearr** haiis.. hmm.. den slept kinda earli.. actuali wanna watch mete0r garden de.. but wait till 11pm haben start den fall aslp ler.. hahhas..

scho0l t0day.
o0h lA la~ scho0l's kinda thrilling t0day.. was hiding since the start of scho0l until scho0l end wif aiai.. yeahs~ den aiai kena sc0lded by kumar.. but kumar didnt n0tice mine.. s0 ke lian.. hahhas.. yeahs.. i failed my math again!! ka0s.. i wanna die ler larhs.. test 2 times, 2 times failed due t0 my carelessness of algebra.. oh g0sh!! i hAte algEbrA!!! yeahs.. other than tt.. my science g0t 11/15.. yeahs.. english was d0ing intellect l0g on.. hahhas.. i'm acting as a mum.. hahahs.. kinda lame ehs?? hahhas.. art was b0rred.. f0ng actuali g0t angry.. hahahs.. s0 funny.. den music was b0rred.. was d0ing all the the0ries n stuff cushh her cd player ish g0ne.. den n0 music.. idi0tic l0rhs.. the0ry was easy, but b0rring.. haiis~ tts all l0rhs.. den time passes quite fasst l0rhs.. was a n0rmal day larhs.. yeahs..

h0me t0day.
hahahs.. g0t h0me jiu use c0mp lia0s.. hahahs~ n0t much of h0me w0rk.. can be c0mpleted s0on bahs~ hahhas.. yeahs.. g0ing out so0n.. wif priscilla.. yeahs.. g0nna g0 t0wn f0r awhile l0rhs.. yeahs.. its been 7 m0nths and 6 days since i last saw her.. s0 saddening.. mishh her yahs?? yeahs~ s0 g0nna meet up wif tis kid.. hahahs.. yeahs.. g0nna get changed.. take care frens.. bubbuaiz~

[missed you`]
at 7/23/2004 01:34:00 PM

Wednesday, July 21, 2004
..c0ntinUeD~

haiis.. i didnt enj0y the t0k.. did u?? hahas.. haiis.. f0rget it bahs~ haiis.. cristAl says i'm paran0id.. i'm just thinking t0o much.. i dun trust him t0tally.. haiis.. izzit?? i dunn0.. perhaps i'm just like tis.. haiis.. f0rget it den.. g0nna call him later.. if things g0 well, den go0d.. if n0t, its n0t sh0cking larhs~ hahhas.. yeahs.. f0rget it..

paran0id:Exhibiting or characterized by extreme and irrational fear or distrust of others~

hahahs.. am i??

b y e e ~

[missed you`]
at 7/21/2004 09:04:00 PM

[[247 dAyS]] hAiiS~

scho0l.
b0rred.. hahahs.. aiai n0t in scho0l again.. dunn0 wad she's up t0 lehs~ haiis.. hmm.. did nth.. hist0ry less0n was fast.. f0r once~ hahhas.. time passes kinda fast.. i think.. hahhas.. only f0r m0ther less0n.. tt less0n seems t0 be s0 s0 s0 sl0w.. os0 dunn0 wad's wif it.. or mayb.. i dunn0 wad's wif me.. hahhs.. hmm.. yeahs~ den nich0las n weixun wenta pierce their ears ytd.. hahahs.. den weixun m0ther caught him.. den br0ught him t0 scho0l t0day and c0mplained t0 mrs kumar.. hahahs.. den i g0tta help tt 2 t0 take out their studs.. s0 pain l0rhs.. just pierce only den must take out.. haiis.. den tt nich0las act daring.. to0k out ytd nite.. den t0day m0rning wanna pierce back den cann0t find the h0le ler.. 80% ish cl0se ler bahs~ hahas.. i didnt dare t0 p0ke it hard in f0r him.. cushh i'm afraid tt it'll hurt.. i myself s0metimes feel hurt l0rhs.. hahhas.. den kumar ask wh0 are the gers wh0 haf piercing on the ears.. i raised hand.. and of c0urse many other raised their hands t0o.. den she ask ish single piercing or d0uble piercing.. hahhas.. all raised f0r single piercing.. th0ugh i had d0uble piercing and an extra one.. but over time.. when i wenta ask her abt mah qns, she didnt catch my piercing lehs~ s0 weird huhs?? haiis.. mayb she's lenient wif me bahs~ i wear ankle s0cks os0 neber kena.. aiai os0 lehs~ weird0.. hahhas.. yeahs~ tts abt scho0l t0day l0rhs.. b0rred huhs?? bleahs~

h0me.
came h0me wif wenling~ did art.. cant fnsh it.. was damn shagged.. b0th of us l0rhs.. its like.. d0ing art wif newspaper.. tts wad i hate t0 d0 m0st.. kkies.. den i co0ked f0r her l0rhs.. den start d0ing.. den very sians lerr.. den she went h0me at 1730 l0rhs.. btH lia0s.. hahhas.. den my mind filled wif my math assignment.. still g0t 2 qns t0 fnsh up.. haiis~ den came t0 bl0g.. while t0king t0 peishan on f0ne.. yeahs~ den planning f0r tmll l0rhs~ haiis.. only msged wif dear dear f0r awhile.. guess t0day's an0ther day i w0nt be able t0 t0k t0 him bahs.. he's busy.. yeahs~

mE and deaRdEar.
yeahs.. t0k until dear dear.. g0t things t0 say.. haiis~ s0 saddening huhs~ haiis.. this time i os0 dunn0 ish go0d or bad.. haf been thinking over it since last nite.. i reali dunn0 if tis is go0d or badd.. perhaps u guys will ask me t0 be happy.. but~ i dunn0.. i reali dunn0~ dear dear and liwen ish n0 longer c0ntacting each other.. kkies~ basically.. dear n liwen n0e each other 2 years ag0?? ardd there larhs.. t0 cut sh0rt. dear n0e her bef0re dear n0e me.. kkies~ s0 was like.. dear all the while t0ld me tt they are n0thing much m0re than cl0se frens.. and wad's s0 funny ish tt.. dearr haben see her bef0re.. yeahs?? hahhas.. hmm.. den a few days back only l0rhs.. liwen asked dear wad he thinks abt their frenship.. dear said 'go0d frens'. liwen then dunn0 say wad larhs.. but wad she means is tt she d0esnt just wanna be go0d frens wif dear.. she likes him.. in simple~ yeahs.. haiis.. den dear t0ld her tt if she wans t0 be s0mething m0re than go0d frens, den dun msg him anym0re.. den f0r a few days they neber msg le l0rhs.. haiis.. liwen has a b0ifren.. and she n0es dear has me.. but.. things still g0 tis way.. like wad i owaes tell dear.. 'there'll be a day whereby either she'll fall in l0ve wif u or u'll fall in l0ve wif her.' and tts exactly wad's happening n0w.. haiis~ i dunn0.. i reali dunn0 h0w shld i feel.. shld i feel happy tt she's n0 l0nger any pr0blem btween me n dearr or shld i feel unhappy tt she've fallen in l0ve wif dear n dear has l0se her as a fren. i dunn0 h0w i exactly shld feel. i'm all at a l0st. just as i th0ught things are fine, but out of n0where, i hear sth like tis.. very saddening huhs?? haiis~ i dunn0 wad i shld d0 n0w.. i reali dunn0..

backK t0 h0me.
i just fnsh eating.. mummy's h0me-made dumpling? yeahs.. nice nice w0rrs.. hahhs.. th0ugh its a lil salty.. but its reali nice.. perhaps its just bc0s i haben eaten tt f0r quite s0me time bahs~ hahhas.. hmm.. didnt eat much.. wasnt feeling very hungry l0rhs.. hahhas.. had sth t0 bite on in the aftn wif wenling~ yeahs.. haiis.. dunn0 larhs.. just feeling c0nfused.. feeling weird.. i dunn0 h0w i'm feeling exactly.. but there's tis very one mo0d i'll owaes haf.. and tts em0ti0nal.. its been s0 l0ng.. i've been em0ti0nal.. there's to0 much t0 think abt.. one pr0blem aft an0ther.. my life?? haiis.. sucks~ the one and only w0rd i cud use t0 describe my life.. hahhas.. haiis~

LifE~ s0metimEs i'm jUst w0nderinG wad'S tT.. wad'S the reaL meAninG bHind thE w0rd 'LifE'.. ish tT a peRi0d oF timE whEre humAns haF t0 livE bY iT.. g0 thrU alL thIck n tHinS.. suFfeR t0geTheR n t0 enJ0y tiMe sPent t0gEtheR?? i duNn0.. i rEaLi dunn0.. wh0 caN i sEek heLp f0r? haiiS~ i feEl s0 duMb~ i guEsS n0 otHer hUmaNs wh0's likE mE, wh0 d0esNt n0e tHeir pUrp0sE oN eaRth n iN tHe pEri0d oF tiMe thEy're gIven~

[missed you`]
at 7/21/2004 06:43:00 PM

Tuesday, July 20, 2004
[[246tH dAy]] .shAg~

scho0l.
lame~ scho0l's b0rred.. n0thing t0 d0 larhs.. had ge0g test.. easy l0rhs.. den failed math standardized test.. s0bbies.. hmm.. wh0le day in scho0l veh sians.. st0mach hurts l0rhs~ haiis~ n0thing much l0rhs~ but farliana and heather g0t big big pr0b.. farliana say heather very qia0.. hahahs.. haiis.. den.. finally.. waiting s0 l0ng.. finally.. farliana g0t problem wif amelia.. hahhas.. haiis.. jialat~ bleahs =PpPp n0ne of my pr0b.. muahahhas~

h0me.
sians~ came h0me straight aft scho0l. den did a little of the math. den fell aslp.. hahhas.. den wake up, g0 back t0 slp again.. den wake up, slp again.. hahhas.. den w0ke up at 7pm.. den eat... bathe.. d0 w0rk.. den t0k t0 dearr until n0t l0ng.. den c0me use c0m l0rhs.. den n0w conferencing wif grace n gen~ yeahs.. g0nna fnsh up mua english.. den call darling again.. hahhas.. yeahs..

kies larhs~ g0nna g0 lia0.. d0 w0rk n call darling.. muahhahas.. sleep earli yahs?? go0d nites~ muackiess~ huggies~

[missed you`]
at 7/20/2004 09:37:00 PM

Monday, July 19, 2004
hAiyeRrs~ [[245tH dAy]]

sch0ol.
hmm~ did nth much bahs.. had science test.. actuali g0nna haf ge0g test de.. but in the end haf a quiz.. den i p0ng hist0ry less0n.. hahhas.. haiis.. dun feel like g0ing l0rhs.. very sians sia.. hmm.. wasnt feeling well t0day.. didnt enj0y myself in scho0l.. yeahs.. did nth much l0rhs.. n0w piah-ing mua ge0g.. fnsh math lerr.. but haben fnsh math assignment.. g0nna tell kumutha tt i absent den dunn0 h0w t0 d0.. bleahs =PpPp

h0me.
came h0me right aft i call darling. went h0me. eat eat. den change.. den went out t0 meet darling.. hehes.. den.. met him.. t0k t0k.. den walk walk ardd.. den t0k t0k.. den he send me h0me l0rhs.. yupps.. den teach br0ther d0 w0rk.. den piah my w0rk.. den n0w chatting online den chatting wif grace on f0ne.. den g0nna g0 off lerr.. cushh needa revise ge0g.. yeahs..

haiis.. kkies den.. g0 off lia0s ler larhs.. go0d nite.. slp tite tite w0rs.. muackkies.. angels lo0king over u guys t0nite.. >.^

[missed you`]
at 7/19/2004 10:47:00 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004
bacKk h0mE~

wo0 la lA~ hahahs.. 8 m0nths w0rs.. happy lehs~ hahhas.. hmm.. was out at 7pm.. wenta meet dearr dearr.. hahahs.. t0day was a fun day l0rhs.. t0k on the f0ne os0 nice.. g0 out wif him os0 nice.. yippies!! t0day simply just r0cks man!! yo0 h0o~ hahahs.. things went darn well t0day.. everything simply just went the way we wan it t0 be.. except f0r.. the g0ing out part.. actuali wanna catch king arthur de.. but.. i was late.. dearr's 15 mins late.. i'm like.. cl0se t0 45mins late?? yeahs~ den neber watch l0rhs.. den went slackking ardd.. t0king.. den~ finally!! i g0t my v0n dutch bag.. dearr b0ught it f0r me.. hhahas.. s0 sweet.. yeahs.. its mainly black.. a little white at the side and pink ish the strap yeahs?? yahs~ hahahs.. was happy t0day l0rhs.. yeahs.. tis are the main things tt happen l0rhs.. yupps.. happy happy happy!! hahhas.. kkies.. i'm simply just on t0p of the w0rld n0w l0rhs.. hahahs.. kkies.. g0nna g0 lia0s.. jiejie wanna use.. g0nna slp as well~ s0 sad huhs~ hahahs.. kkies~

g0od nites.. slp tite tite.. mishh ya.. muackkies.. mishh my deaRr!! [[muackks just f0r 'y0u']]

[missed you`]
at 7/18/2004 11:27:00 PM

hApPy 8 m0ntHs aNnivErsaRy!!

wo0 la lA~ happy 8 m0nths just passed by s0 quickly.. never th0ught we wud actuali last s0 l0ng.. hhahas.. went thr0ugh s0 much ups and d0wns t0gether in that past 244 days, 8 m0nths~ i just h0pe t0 see m0re anniversaries wif u in the future years?? go0d nites dearr.. slp tite tite.. mishh ya m0re than as per n0rmal.. l0ve u owaes n that i pr0mise.. muackies muackies muacks muacks.. huggies huggies hugs hugs.. =)

[missed you`]
at 7/18/2004 12:00:00 AM

Saturday, July 17, 2004
baCkk~

y0o hoO.. hahahs.. i'm back h0me since 2200.. wenta bathe, settle my mails n s0. den came bl0g!! hahahs.. yeahs~

muA h0uSe~

cristAl came t0 mua hse aft her tuiti0n.. she reached at abt an h0ur aft she've called me.. PIG~ hahas.. den t0k t0k.. surf net.. den i wenta changed.. den we went t0 pasir ris at abt 12:15pm..

pAsir rIs~

met dearr~ he was kinda weird.. s0 din t0k much.. in case quarrel br0ke out.. hahahs.. denn he wenta buy his stuff.. den we headed straight d0wn t0 bugis l0rhs.. yeahs~

bUgiS~

the train ride seems t0 be very l0ng.. yeahs?? dearr n i didnt t0k much. cushh he asked me who i'm msging.. he was in th0se kinda easily-angry mo0d.. s0 i lied.. haiis.. but he f0und out in the end.. when we reached bugis stati0n.. haiis~ den he sh0ved mua hand away when i tried t0 explain.. but.. didnt make it.. he sh0ved mua hand away twice t0day.. s0 sad l0rhs.. haiis.. but mua fault aft all.. den wenta bugis edge, bugis street.. cristAl b0ught her v0n dutch truckers cap.. den i saw a v0n dutch racer t0p, veh nice os0.. hahhas.. pink w0rrs~ bleahs~ den i went ardd lo0king f0r mua v0n dutch bag.. didnt find it.. s0 sadd huhs~ g0t ish g0t.. but i dun like.. hahhas.. yeahs.. den wasnt t0king t0 dear until we wenta m0s burger.. we finally t0k awhile abit bit.. den fnsh eating, sent cristAl off.. she g0tta g0 f0r y0uth.. den we went off.. actuali wanna catch a m0vie de.. but he wasnt in the mo0d.. s0 in the end, we end up taking number 12 frm bugis all the way t0 tampines l0rhs.. the bus ride was l0ng, c0ld.. but m0st of all, its quiet.. we didnt t0k until we reached bed0k.. tts very l0ng.. den he put his hand on my lap.. den i held his hand.. thinking al0t thru0ut the wh0le j0urney.. den i f0und out l0tsa things yeaS?? hahahs.. den we reach tampines only, due t0 r0ad w0rks, the bus was very late.. s0 we to0k a cab d0wn t0 pasir ris beach.. was t0king things out l0rhs.. den at ardd 2115pm dearr sent me h0me.. yeahs..

c0ncLudE f0r t0dAy~

glad tt things went out well in the end.. glad we b0th gave in a lil.. and didnt reali quarrelled.. go0d thing huhs~ enj0yed myself aft things were s0rted out.. laughters n s0 were all backk.. s0 nice yeas?? its betta than when we first met.. its like.. we were b0th face blackk blackk de.. den neber t0k neber t0k lidat.. s0 ke lian h0rs?? hahhas.. haiis.. just feeling very happy n0w.. glad things went well.. dear was tirred.. ytd din slp.. was in camp d0ing l0tsa stuffs.. s0~ din slp l0rhs.. i'm just s0 glad, s0 happy tt things actuali turn out fine.. yeas~

jUst wAnNa teLl mUa deArr~

s0rry f0r being s0 n0t understanding. i pr0mise t0 change f0r the better.. just wanna let u n0e tt i reali cares f0r u al0t.. and of c0urse, u reali means al0t t0 me.. yeas?? s0.. i'm s0rry f0r wadever i've d0ne wr0ng since the day we're attached up till n0w.. s0~ s0rry dearr =(

go0d nitEs den~ slP earLi~ sLp tiTe~ misHh yA~ mUackS muAckS~ huGgiEs~ >.^

[missed you`]
at 7/17/2004 11:04:00 PM

cRistaL beK wEars sKirT!!!
[[so wad ??]] hur~

[missed you`]
at 7/17/2004 11:51:00 AM

oHaiyO gOzaimAs~

m0rning~ haiis.. s0 sians.. dearr finally messaged me last nite.. at 02:12:41am.. yeahs.. fiNalLy is the w0rd i'm emphasising on.. hahhas.. kkies.. i make it s0und s0 badd.. haiis.. f0rget it larhs.. s0metimes we must uNdeRstaNd one another.. if n0t h0w t0 be t0gether f0r l0ng l0ng time lehs?? haiis~ suan ler bahs.. hahas.. haiis.. wad a bad day f0r me huhs?? hahahas~

yeahs~ cris-aiai is on the way t0 mua hse.. hahahs.. she c0me here.. meet me first.. den later g0ing t0 bugis t0gether wif dearrie.. yeahs.. haiis.. dunn0 h0w will t0day g0.. will it be a very quiet day btween me n dearrie or will it be as per n0rmal?? haiis.. g0d n0es~ hahahs.. kkies larhs.. guess i shall st0p here.. and g0 prepare muaself lerr.. haiis.. haiis.. haiis~

take care~ mishh ya~ muackies~ [[i'm simply just s0 w0rried~ haiiS~]]

[missed you`]
at 7/17/2004 11:04:00 AM

baCkk. AGAIN.

until n0w, still recieve n0 message frm him.. i'm rather w0rried.. haiis.... ish he still w0rking or ish he s0und aslp lerr?? haiis.. n0 one kn0ws.. only g0d n0es.. i sh0uld ask g0d f0r s0me help huhs?? hahahs..

take care.. bubbuaiz.. nites.. muackiees..

*sigH* waDd caN hE bE dOinG?? haiiS.. siaNs 1/2..

[missed you`]
at 7/17/2004 12:11:00 AM

Friday, July 16, 2004
baCkk.
yeahs.. hi.. was back since 2030 bahs.. actuali tOday gOt meet dearr de.. but in the end, he sOme sOrta fOrget.. sO, i stayed at sharOn's hse till 1930 den left fOr hOme.. yeahs.. actuali din plan t0 g0 out t0day de.. but dearr said he wanna meet.. s0 stepped out of my hse f0r awhile.. but wh0 kn0ws.. hahahhas.. haiis.. f0rget it larhs.. dun b0ther lia0s.. hmm.. den was at shar0n's hse since 1630.. was t0king t0king t0king abt l0tsa stuff.. yeahs..

sch0Ol.
hmm.. din n0e wad happen in scho0l t0day.. cushh i'm n0t in scho0l t0day.. s0rta p0ng larhs.. m0rning wake up headache.. den neber g0 scho0l l0rhs.. yeahs.. den neber g0 get mc os0.. haahs.. die larhs.. bleahs =PpPp

hOme.
yeahs.. h0me at 2030.. bathe lia0s.. eat lia0s.. wash dishes.. den c0me use c0m.. hahhs.. yeahs.. din t0k t0 dearr much.. called him twice in the m0rning.. b0th t0k less than 5 mins each.. haiis.. den msg msg f0r awhile while to0.. den neber meet os0.. den c0me h0me.. he n0w still w0rking.. neber t0k t0 him l0rhs.. yeahs.. feeling rather sians.. feeling rather headache n dizzy.. fr0m just n0w abt 1930.. haiis.. den nearly faint just n0w.. very dizzy.. haiis.. jialat lehs.. haiis.. dunn0 wad t0 say larhs.. tmll mayb g0ing out.. wif cristAl n dearrie.. yeshh.. haiis.. t0king t0 fatt n0w.. haiis.. yeahs.. guess g0nna g0 so0n.. nthh t0 d0 os0.. sians 1/2.. hahhas..

take care w0rrs.. go0d nites.. slp earli w0rrs.. muackss..

[missed you`]
at 7/16/2004 09:51:00 PM

Thursday, July 15, 2004
e ll o.

sch0ol.
hmm.. less0ns wasnt fun larhs.. d0wn there wanna die wanna die lidat.. had math, science, english and m0ther t0ngue.. science, went thru the cells chapter.. m0ther t0ngue was slackking.. english did editing of c0mp0? miss zhang to0k us.. miss n0rlizah was absent? yeahs.. t0day's miss zhang's last day in cvSs.. sadden.. hmm.. den math was slackking as well.. den had standardized test.. yeahs.. quite... easy larhs.. hahahs.. yeahs.. den had netball at 1500.. saw karen at 1455.. super sians.. hahas.. t0day netball.. we had a c0mpetit0n wif serango0n sec.. haiis.. juni0rs l0st.. 13:2.. seni0rs draw.. 6:6.. super sians.. hmm.. jiaha0 was rather crappy.. hahhas.. he was s0me s0rt of interested wif sSs's wA.. den wanted t0 get her number.. hahhas.. he l0st interest in the end anws.. hahahs.. yeahs.. den t0k t0 many peeps t0day.. hahhas.. didnt imagined tt we cud actuali t0k yeas? t0ked t0 cArine, jiAha0, mAnqin, amAnda, cArol, fengmiNg, wiLliam, adn a badmint0n guy.. hahhas.. t0day was kinda fun.. yeahs.. den smile smile at gerome.. hahhas.. yeahs.. n0t bad larhs.. managed t0 t0k.. at least huhs? hahhas.. yeahs.. there's l0tsa g0ssips g0ing ard when i had training.. hahahs.. funny l0rhs.. haiis.. btw.. aisehx split.. int0 4:6.. gen, mel, min and... err.. i f0rg0t wh0 ish n0 l0nger in aisehx lerr.. yeahs.. cant -clique-.. hahash.. yeahs.. l0tsa things g0t clearer aft tis training.. hahahs.. =) den aft training, met dearr at 1830 lidat.. gen saw him.. finally.. hahahs.. yeahs.. den wenta slack ardd.. den went h0me at 2030.. yeahs.. hahhas.. n0tti w0rrs.. but nebermind.. its been like.. 4 days neber see him ler.. s0bbies.. hahhas.. haiis.. waiting f0r the day t0 c0me..

h0me.
hmm.. came h0me. was asked t0 eat first.. den ate ler, wenta bathe. den c0me use c0m l0rhs.. hahhas.. was tirred.. rather tirred.. very tirred actuali.. hahahs.. haiis.. wad can i d0? i dunn0.. laterr g0t sh0w.. hahash.. can watch.. n0 h0mew0rk os0.. bleahs =PpPp yeahs yeahs.. haiis.. tirred.. guess g0nna slp so0n.. think i'm g0ing off ler larhs.. take care guys.. nites.. slep earli yahs?? nites.. mauckss..

b y e.

[missed you`]
at 7/15/2004 10:00:00 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004
hApPy biRthdAy pRisciLla!!!

k0nNicHiwA!!

scho0l.
err.. lemme recall.. hahahs.. kkies.. hmm.. had mass excercise t0day.. n0t bad larhs.. was d0ing all the stretching excercises l0rhs.. yeps.. den had past0ral care aft tt.. but kumaR wasnt here t0day.. it seems like m0st of the wednesdays she w0nt be here.. ish her c0urse still on?? hahhas.. hmm.. had english aft tt.. didnt d0 much.. first half an h0ur was slacking.. den next 20 mins or s0 was d0ing tt c0mp0 thingy.. yeahs.. quite relaxing.. hmm.. den c0me recess.. aft recess was science.. yeahs.. oh my g0d.. we expected lizard w0ng t0 be absent due t0 the sec 3 adventure camp at jalan bahtera.. haiis.. den science ish like.. b0rred.. i nearly fall aslp.. but nebermind.. science less0n only last f0r abt 40mins?? den i managed t0 t0k her out of the idea of teaching a new chapter when she's left wif only 5 mins?? yeahs... hahhas.. den hadd... err.. wads tt?? oh yeahs.. hist0ry!! hahhas.. kkies.. mrs chew wasnt here as we expected tt to0.. cushh.. she's in-charge of a sec 3 class to0.. yippee!! den we just did w0rksheets on the recent chapter we've learnt.. quite an easy w0rksheet larhs.. hehehes.. den we had lunch break.. den was.. literature.. hahahs.. kkies.. was rather enthu t0 see miss ye0w.. but she wasnt here?? she's m0st pr0bably sick bahs.. her f0rm class ish a sec2 class.. n0 chances of her g0ing t0 the sec 3 camp.. and summ0re t0day ish the last day?? yeahs.. s0, she shld be sick.. yeahs.. den was slackking.. slackking.. hahhas.. den c0mes t0 the last subject of the day.. m0ther t0ngue.. oh my g0d.. i'm being punished f0r n0t bringing text.. tts lame l0rhs.. haiiyers.. den must write 100 lines.. du lans.. but nebermind.. just write write l0rhs.. hehehs.. haiis.. den she's like s0 fierce t0day.. keep sc0lding my class.. finally, she sh0w her p0wer as a tcher.. =PpPp hahhas.. den i fell aslp in m0ther t0ngue class.. hhahas.. guess wad?? she caught me and sh0uted my name.. s0 i wake up l0rhs.. haiiyers.. my beauty sleep g0ne.. hahahs.. den aft scho0l, we g0 t0 mr k0h's it ro0m.. had t0 d0 a survey f0r him yeahs? haiis.. den d0 lia0s, i g0 h0me ler l0rhs..

haiis.. den tt stupid s0fia f0rever dia0 one lehs.. see os0 sians.. den i dia0 back, she c0mplain samantha.. c0mplain all she like.. i dun wanna change, even if samantha c0mplain t0 dearr, os0 n0 use de l0rhs.. hahas.. stupid s0fia.. useless piece of crap.. den t0day aisehx mia in t0ilet walk past me bang abit.. den tell me wad.. 'dun think ur name vivian i scarred..' hahahs.. okies.. i dun expect them t0 be scarred of my name.. wad's s0 scary abt my name?? can my name eat them up?? hahhas.. yeahs.. they're just s0me very lamee pple in scho0l d0ing s0me very lamee things.. s0.. anything happen t0 me, i guess i just haf t0 wait and see g0od sh0w l0rhs.. yeahs.. hahhas.. 'dun think ur name vivian i scarred.' i w0nt f0rget tis.. =)

h0me.
hahhs.. these few days very guai w0rrs.. after scho0l only c0me h0me.. hehehs.. must listen t0 my dearr de.. ask me c0me h0me earli, i c0me h0me earli l0rhs.. hhahas.. kkies.. den was using c0mp.. den was l0oking f0r fo0d all ardd.. was hungry?? hahhas.. yeahs.. den mummy say dinner's earli t0nite.. s0 i just munch on s0me chips and ch0c0s? yeahs.. den did a little of my math.. fell aslp while d0ing it.. hahahs.. was shagged.. dunn0 why.. i just fell aslp in class every n0w and then.. haiis.. den c0me h0me, d0 h0mew0rk d0 until slp.. hhahas.. haiis.. jialat jialat.. hehehs.. den w0ke up at 1850.. den wenta bathe.. den eat while d0ing w0rk.. hahhas.. den fnsh math lerr.. still needa edit c0mp0.. but i dunn0 h0w t0.. s0 dun wan d0 lerr.. hehhes.. yeahs.. den lidat l0rhs.. haiis.. laterr calling dearr.. dunn0 wad he d0ing n0w os0.. haiis.. nebermind.. ask him laterr.. bleahs =PpPp yeahs.. den fnsh my w0rk lerr l0rhs.. haiis.. must help priscilla wif one of the questi0n she d0esnt n0e.. hahahs.. yeahs.. g0tta think real hard.. cushh i f0rg0t h0w t0 d0.. hahas.. kkies larhs.. g0nna g0 lerr.. help her d0 tt questi0n den i see i can d0 wadd.. muahahhas..

take care guys.. anything i'll update again.. mishh ya guys.. muackiees.. sleep earli if i dun bl0g again laterr yahs?? nites!!

[missed you`]
at 7/14/2004 08:10:00 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!!

sch0ol.
haiyers.. sians until wanna die l0rhs.. i slept f0r cl0se t0 half h0ur in m0ther t0ngue class.. but mdm t0h didnt catch me.. hahhas.. she's lenient wif me.. nebermind.. go0d f0r me den.. bleahSs =PpPp kkies.. den in kumaR's less0n os0 fell aslp.. but the m0ment i lie d0wn she call my name.. sibeii sians sia.. hahahs.. kies.. den aft scho0l, wenta 77th street wif aiai t0 check out the v0n dutch bag.. and t0 check out her truckers cap.. yeahs.. den were making plans t0 g0 t0 bugis t0gether.. yeas? den i came h0me after that.. i'm guai.. yeas?? hahahs..

h0me.
was damn shag.. was trying t0 find a new template.. but cudnt find one i reali like.. but still settled d0wn wif tis.. hahhas.. the previ0us one were c0l0rless.. see till b0rred? hahhas.. yeps.. den was online and s0.. den fell aslp on the bed at 4.30pm.. den w0ke up at 1830.. den g0 eat.. den called dearr.. den t0k wif him quite l0ng l0rhs.. hahash.. hanged up at 2230.. hahhas.. den wenta bathe.. den d0 c0mpo l0rhs.. haben fnsh yet.. but.. dun care.. haf n0 idea wad t0 write.. s0 c0me bl0g first.. =pPpP hais.. just n0e tt i'm damn shagged.. yeas?? wan m0re rest.. hahahs.. haiis..

i'M feeLinG.
err.. dunn0.. quite l0vedd?? hahhas.. dearr mahs.. t0k t0 him.. den he was saying tis and tt.. making me s0 paiseh.. hahhas.. but nebermind.. he made my day.. hahhas.. able t0 slp nice nice, sweet sweet lerr.. den tmll giving him m0rning call.. muahahahs.. co0l.. haiis.. dearr in tek0ng n0w.. dunn0 he aslp ler mahs.. nebermind.. i msgg or call him in awhile.. haiis..

kkies.. g0nna g0 lerr.. shld haf great dreams t0nite.. hahahs.. s0 l0vedd.. l0ve dearr!! hahahs.. go0d nite frens.. take care.. keep urself warm yeas?? mishh ya dear!! muacks..

[missed you`]
at 7/13/2004 11:43:00 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004
yeahs.

just w0ndering wad's bugging dearr.. it's been like.. cl0se t0 an h0ur? haiis..

sians.. f0rget it??

[missed you`]
at 7/12/2004 10:22:00 PM

hi guys. i'm damn shag. =PpPp

sch0ol.
time passes f0r me kinda fast larhs. hahhas.. w0ng w0ei ling and ang sing yee wasnt in sch0ol t0day.. n0pes.. i'm wr0ng.. ang wasnt in sch0ol. but lizard ish. she just went f0r the sec 3 camp. yeas? kkies. didnt had mo0d t0 play al0ng in sch0ol t0day. was feeling sick and tirred of it ler. everyday g0tta see th0se sickening bitches. den os0 tirred of faking a smile ler. i just wanna be wh0 i am. yeas?

h0me.
g0t h0me at 3.30pm bahs. wenta bathe. g0t changed and everything. den headed d0wn t0 c0mpass p0int. ALONE. yeahs.

c0mpass p0int.
hahhas. reached there at 5 i guessed. saw man qin, amanda and fengming. yeahs.. den i was al0ne. return bo0ks f0r my er-jie. den walked ardd.. l0oking at stuffs? yeahs.. was rather frustrated aft l0oking ardd.. ahhash.. if i can g0 back in time, i wudnt wanna g0 out l0rhs. hhhas.. haiis.. den at abt 1830 den i went h0me.. dearr asked me t0 g0 h0me earli.. yeas? hahahs.. yepss..

h0me.
did my w0rk. ate dinner. d0 h0mew0rk again. den slackk.. feeling very shag. yeahs? haiis.. just wanna die.. hahhas.. kkies.. dunn0 wad t0 d0 larhs.. weird weird feelings? hais. pmS?? hhahs.. lamee..

i'm feeLing.
weird.. weird.. darn weird.. hahhas.. yeahs.. just weird.. nth special abt it.. pple do feel weird at times.. dun they?? hahahs.. kkies.. these 2 s0ngs simply just describe h0w i feels n0w.. [g0nna write out their ch0rus, n0 time f0r 2 l0ng s0ngs ehs?]

__wU tia0 jiaN wEi nI ` wu tiao jian wei ni bu gu ming tian de an wen.
wei ni bian jian qiang xiang xing li de yan shen.
bu gan xiang bu gan wen. you yi tian huai de ke neng.
wu tiao jian wei ni fang qi dan du de lu cheng.
wei ni jian qiang jiu bu pa xi sheng.
wo de ling hun. ru ci fei teng. wei wo ai de ren.*]]

__y0ng qI ` ai zhen de xu yao yong qi. lai mian dui liu yan fei yu. zhi yao ni yi ge yan shen ken ding. wo de ai jiu you yi yi. wo men dou xu yao yong qi. qu xiang xing hui zai yi qi. ren chao yong ji wo neng gan jue ni fang zai wo shou xin. ni de zhen xin.*]]

yeahs.. tis 2 parts, actuali. tis 2 songs just describe h0w i feel at tis very m0ment. willing t0 gif anything up just f0r u. l0ve need tt c0urage, tt trust, and tt blief.. hahahs.. yeahs.. s0 sians huhs??

bef0re i end..

How to make a .viviAn

Ingredients:

1 part pride

1 part crazyiness

5 parts beauty

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lovability

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

t0 end.
i just wanna wish every0ne go0d nite. sleep earli dears. sleep tite tite. n0 matter, wad, just wanna let u guys n0e tt, whenever u guys need a sh0ulder t0 cry on, or a listening ear, call me, sms me or tag me, i'll owaes be there f0r u de. the feeling of n0t having a cl0se fren t0 share all ur probs wif ish neber go0d. i've been thr0ugh tt. and i'm g0ing thru it n0w. and i guess i'll be g0ing thr0ugh it owaes. if i had a fren wh0 cares f0r me s0 much, guessed i didnt had t0 sh0p al0ne bahs. hahas. take care guys. muackss.. see ya!!

[missed you`]
at 7/12/2004 09:55:00 PM

Sunday, July 11, 2004
hieSs. backk at abt 40 mins ag0?? hahas.

t0day.
hmm. went out at abt 3pm. wenta peishan's hse t0 get my mag, actuali. but. n0 one opened the do0r. pissed.. hahas.. kkies.. s0 went off.. it was cl0se t0 4pm. s0 gave dearr a call. met him under his bl0ck. den headed off t0 tampines, wanted t0 catch a m0vie. but. dunn0 why. we ended up bo0king tickets at plaza singapura. s0 yeahs. den we bo0ked 1830 de. den it was kinda earli. s0 we went f0r a drink at the bubble tea sh0p? had red pearl milk tea.. my favee!! den dearr had ice blended m0cha. den ate chicken to0.. hahahs. tt part was kinda lamee.. hahahs.. math was inv0lved when eating chicken.. hahahs.. lamee.. hmm.. den when we reached plaza singapura was oreadi 1830.. den faster piah g0 up.. den watched spiderman 2.. hahahs.. nice sh0w.. yeahs.. den aft watching, g0 walk walkk ardd.. help jie jie buy things.. den c0me h0me l0rhs.. hahahs.. yeahs..

*yawns* tirred lehs.. didnt slp much ytd.. hmm.. think g0nna g0 orh orh lerr.. nites guys.. muackss..

[missed you`]
at 7/11/2004 11:54:00 PM

hihi. *yawns*

haiis.. last nite didnt reali slp.. was t0king t0 gu0qiang thru sms?? hahas.. tt idi0t.. n'levels c0ming lia0s, still g0 chi0ng.. jialat sia.. hahhas.. kkies.. cant slp sia.. dunn0 why.. but nebermind.. slept at 4.30am.. den w0ke up at 8 lidat.. hahahs.. i p0wer bahs.. kekes.. i n0e i am.. hahhas.. kkies.. fnsh my j0urnal ler.. still g0t my wad ish tt call?? oh yahs.. dnt c0ver page.. sians 1/2.. hahhas.. nebermind.. write a few w0rds f0r her can lia0s.. hahahs.. hmm.. den later meeting dearr at 4pm.. g0ing watch m0vie.. hahhas.. yeahs.. but bef0re tt, i'm meeting peishan t0 get my magazine.. hahahs.. yeahs.. tts abt it bahs?? hahas.. kkies lohs.. g0nna g0 get change lia0s.. take care guys.. will update wad happen de.. hahahs..

muackss..

[missed you`]
at 7/11/2004 02:25:00 PM

go0d m0rning??

hehes.. haiis.. jialat larhs.. g0ing t0 4am lerr.. i still haben slp lehs.. just n0w at east c0ast d0wn there wanna slp wanna slp th0se kind.. n0w s0 energetic.. hahahs.. jialat.. dunn0 wad t0 d0 lehs.. cant get t0 slp.. hahhas.. hmm.. shld i g0 d0 my h0mew0rk?? sians sia.. hahahs.. hmm.. dunn0 wad t0 d0 lehs..

feeling weird weird lehs.. sians 1/2. f0rever feeling weird de.. hahhas.. haiis.. wad t0 d0.. t0k t0 many peeps still like tis.. can g0 die larhs.. sians.. haiis..

kkies.. think i try t0 g0 slp.. take care w0rrs.. muackss..

go0d nitess??

[missed you`]
at 7/11/2004 03:52:00 AM

Saturday, July 10, 2004
HapPy biRthDay, gRandPapA!

y0o ho0.. backk h0me.. hahahs..

t0day.
went out at ardd 2.30pm. wenta c0mpass p0int t0 meet dearr. yeahs.. met him, he gave me a tatty keychain.. hahhas.. s0 cute.. thanks dearr.. [[muackss]] hmm.. den wenta my hse area, t0k t0k l0rhhs.. yeahs.. den ardd 4.30pm he send me backk h0me.. cushh i needed g0 out wif family at 4.30pm.. hahhas.. den he wenta play basketball l0rhs.. at my hse there.. den 5pm den g0 h0me.. yeahs..

reach h0me ler, had a quick sh0wer. change int0 new set of cl0thes. den g0 out lia0s.. wenta tampines first, t0 fetch er-jie. den wenta bed0k t0 fetch grandpa n grandma.. yeahs.. den headed straight d0wn t0 still r0ad tt area t0 eat dinner.. had all vegetarian fo0d.. cushh my grandparents are vegetarians.. s0.. th0ugh n0 fish n0 n0thing. but the fo0d quite nice.. hahhas.. kkies.. first time in my life i said tt vegetarian fo0d are nice?? hahhas.. kkies.. fnsh eating lia0s.. walked ardd f0r a while while.. den went d0wn t0 east c0ast park..

tt place rawks man!! its been a c0uple of m0nths since i've been there.. hahahs.. went there.. walked ardd.. den daddy set up the picnic mat and everything.. den sit d0wn, t0k t0k.. den daddy, mummy, grandparents drank red wine.. tasted a bit bit.. yuckies!! tis one d0esnt taste nice at all.. s0 yuckies de.. hmm.. den g0 back t0 wad i owaes drink.. lem0n tea.. hahhas.. den munch on chips, den at 9 lidat ate cake!! hahahs.. die larhs.. t0day eat s0 much.. sure g0nna be a fat pig pigg one.. haiy0s.. must start my diet again.. hahahs.. hmm.. fnsh eating cake, cleared up everything.. den wenta parkway parade walk walk.. den walk f0r an h0ur lidat, den c0me h0me ler l0rhs.. but g0t send grandparents h0me first larhs.. hahahs.. yeahs..

n0t badd a day.. hahhas.. hmm.. dunn0 wad t0 d0 n0w.. veh sians.. hmm.. wad t0 d0 nehs?? i dunn0.. guess dear dear oreadi aslp lia0s.. came out frm camp t0day.. he shld be super shag.. cushh haf been injured.. a metal cupb0ard fell on him.. den has cuts on him.. haf l0tsa blue-blackss.. yeahs.. haiis.. ask him take care, in the end he's m0re hurt.. haiis.. s0 sadd lehs.. hmm.. heart pain pain.. hahhas.. hmm.. kkies.. dunn0 wad t0 d0 larhs.. sians 1/2.. errr.. perhaps i shld g0 d0 h0mew0rk?? a lil of it os0 go0d? hahahs. since my hair ish wet, i cant slp os0.. haiis.. kkies l0rhs.. den i g0 off lia0s..

go0d nites every0ne.. sleep earli t0 th0se wh0 haben slp.. and sleep tite t0 th0se wh0 are aslp, esp dearr and th0se wh0 will be slping.. sweet dreams t0 every0ne.. but sugarr dreams t0 dearr.. hahahs.. take care w0rss.. muackss.. =)

[missed you`]
at 7/10/2004 11:48:00 PM

hi guys. sibeii sians w0rs. nth t0 d0. sians sia. hmm.. n0 mo0d t0 d0 h0mew0rk os0.. hehes.. kkies.. g0nna update new lyrics. =)

alL or n0thing.
i n0e when he's been on y0ur mind.
that distant l0ok is in y0ur eyes.
i th0ught wif time y0u'd realize its over, over.
it's n0t the way i ch0ose t0 live.
and s0mething s0mewhere's g0t t0 give.
as sharing tis relati0nship gets older, older.

y0u n0e i'd fight f0r y0u.
but h0w can i fight f0r s0me0ne wh0 isnt even there?
i've had the rest of y0u n0w i want the best of y0u.
i d0nt care if tat's n0t fair.

cause i wan it all.
or n0thing at all.
there's n0where left t0 fall.
when y0u reach the b0tt0m its n0w or never.
is it all or are we just frens.
is tis h0w it ends wif a simple teleph0ne call.
y0u leave me here wif n0thing at all.

there are times it seems t0 me.
i'm sharing y0u wif mem0ries.
i feel it in my heart but i d0nt sh0w it, sh0w it.
and then there's times y0u lo0k at me.
as th0ugh i'm all that y0u can see.
th0se times i d0nt believe its right i n0e it, n0e it.

d0nt make me pr0mises.
baby u never did n0e h0w t0 keep them well.
i've had the rest of y0u n0w i wan the best of y0u.
its time t0 sh0w and tell.

cause i wan it all.
or n0thing at all.
there's n0where left t0 fall.
when y0u reach the b0tt0m its n0w or never.
is it all or are we just frens.
is tis h0w it ends wif a simple teleph0ne call.
y0u leave me here wif n0thing..

cause y0u and i.
c0uld l0se it all if y0u've g0t n0 m0re ro0m.
n0 ro0m inside f0r me in y0ur life.

cause i wan it all or n0thing at all.
there's n0where left t0 fall it's n0w or never.

is it all or n0thing at all.
there's n0where left t0 fall.
when y0u reach the b0tt0m.
its n0w or never.
is it all or are we just frens.
is tis h0w it ends wif a simple teleph0ne call.
y0u leave me here wif n0thing at all.
or n0thing at all.
there's n0where left t0 fall.
when y0u reach the b0tt0m its n0w or never.
is it all or are we just frens.
is tis h0w it ends wif a simple teleph0ne call.
y0u leave me here wif n0thing at all.....

yeahs. wanted t0 update s0mem0re. but. guess i g0tta start on my h0mew0rk. hahhas. take care frens.

[missed you`]
at 7/10/2004 01:11:00 PM

hihi.

yeahs. backk again. not aslp yet. super sians. didnt call dear. hahhas. hais. so sians. yeahs. dunno wad to do now. to rot or to rot? hahhas. kkies. kk larhs. come here just to see and to tell u guys these matters?? hhahas.. nites.. muackss..

muackss..

[missed you`]
at 7/10/2004 12:47:00 AM

Friday, July 09, 2004
hi guys.

sch0ol.
haiy0s.. cant c0ncentrate in class t0day.. n0t only f0r math. but all subjects!! haiis.. g0ne.. haiis.. kkies.. din n0e why i dunn haf the mo0d t0 study.. g0t l0ts t0 think of yea? haiis.. den in class sibeii sians.. dunn0 wad t0 d0 os0.. den d0wn there sians sians de.. hahas.. den aft sch0ol ling came t0 my h0use.. yupss..

h0me.
reached h0me at abt 1pm?? g0t changed. den left my h0use at 1.30pm lidat. on the way t0 meet min and chrystle.. yeass..

oUtside.
meet them lia0s. went d0wn t0 bugis. wenta walk ard at the bugis edge. new place.. n0!! open quite l0ng lia0s.. but.. i din n0e.. cannt blame.. its been ages since i g0 there.. okiess!! kkies.. den wenta m0s burger t0 had sth t0 munch on. den headed d0wn t0 cineleisure.. to0k ne0s. to0k twice. hhahas.. veh nice nice l0rhs.. den headed d0wn t0 far east aft tt.. den t0ok ne0 again.. den i went t0 strawberry gallery t0 buy a skirt.. cushh g0t offer offer lehs.. hahahs.. den headed back h0me l0rhs..

h0me.
haiis. sians 1/2.. dunn0 wad t0 d0 l0rhs. feel weird weird de.. haiis.. sibeii sians.. i reali dunn0 wad i'm feeling n0w.. haf been rather quiet the wh0le day. n0 mo0d f0r anything.. didnt played much wif zisheng n nich0las os0.. its like.. very weird.. i'm n0t myself t0day. th0ugh i went sh0pping, i still feel the same.. life seems t0 suck huhs? haiis.. i dunn0 why.. haiis.. just n0w call dearr.. t0k f0r less than 5 mins, he wanted t0 hung up. cushh of my attitude? haiis.. i dun understand.. i reali dun.. feeling very tirred.. i wann a rest.. a l0ng rest.. n0 mo0d f0r anything yeas? n0t even studies.. hahs.. haiis.. why am i feeling like tis? i dunn0.. i haf n0 ideas.. i reali haf n0 ideas.. t0 get me int0 a mo0d like tis, u needa d0 sth tt hurts me physically cum verbally.. haiis.. wh0's the one?? i dunn0.. i've g0t n0 mo0d.

bubbuaizz..

[missed you`]
at 7/09/2004 09:00:00 PM

Thursday, July 08, 2004
hi guys. g0t h0me at abt 1/2 h0ur ag0.

sch0ol.
sians. just tis w0rd t0 describe the day in sch0ol ish m0re than enuff. haiis.. sians. sians. sians. kena caught f0r ankle s0cks many many times t0day.. s0 lame.. 0readi n0e tt its ankle s0cks.. still ask me t0 pull up.. lamerr.. kkies.. den g0t standardized test l0rhs.. wr0te abt 400 odd w0rds in t0tal.. yeahs.. ish c0mp0.. tts why write s0 much.. dun think i s0ts one 0kies!! haiis.. yeahs.. den assembly os0 sux l0rhs.. s0 lame.. teach wadd dance?? i os0 f0rg0t.. n0t impt things i w0nt b0ther t0 rmb de.. hhhas.. kkies.. den went 0ff l0rhs..

0utside.
hmm.. wenta bugis wif jeslyn, phebe and yen ching. walked ardd.. den at 6pm i went 0ff al0ne.. they g0ing t0 fareast.. den i g0 t0 pasir ris meet dearr.. mishh him l0ts w0rss.. 3 days neber see him lehs.. haiis.. den meet dearr lia0s.. g0 west plaza meet fatt.. den g0 h0me ler.. hmm.. t0k l0tsa things wib dearr.. actuali plan t0 g0 0ut 0n tis sat de.. but cann0t g0 lia0s.. grandpapa's bdae.. haiis.. why s0 sway de.. haiis.. sians sia.. den os0 dunn0 h0w lia0s.. sians until can l0rhs.. wahs sehs.. wanna die lia0 larhs.. sians 1/2..

h0me.
haiis.. den g0t h0me at 9pm l0rhs.. was t0king and s0.. haiis.. c0me h0me only use c0m.. i jialat larhs.. hehes.. haiis.. sians l0rhs.. mishh dearr l0ts.. th0ugh i just left him in less than an h0ur's time.. b0 bian larhs.. ish lidat de.. aft th0se quarrels, and th0se big big fights, u will den n0e h0w t0 treasure the 0nes u l0ve.. u will den n0e h0w much u need them, h0w much they mean t0 u. haiis.. th0ugh things are fine btween us, but i'm still regreting.. up till n0w, i'm still regretting.. i dunn0 why.. perhapss.. haiis.. things turn 0ut t0 be like tis, shld be the c0nsequences 0f wad i've d0ne wr0ng bahs.. hais.. but i seri0usly never wanna l0se him.. n0 one can ever understand h0w exactly i feel right at tis very m0ment.. i'm feeling terrible.. i need him n0w..

haiis. take care. g0nna g0 c0mplete my math h0mew0rk den i g0 0rh 0rh lia0s.. feeling real shag. haiis.. den i'm missing dear s0 much n0w.. g0nna g0 crazy s0on.. haiis.. miss ya dearr.. muackss.. dun w0rry.. frm n0w till f0rever, my heart, my s0ul bel0ngs t0 n0 one, but y0u.. rmb tt w0rrs.. i l0ve y0u. muacks.

muackss..

[missed you`]
at 7/08/2004 09:31:00 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004
y0sHh.. backk again?? hhahas.. kkies.. super duper sians sia.. nthh to do de.. t0day s0 sians.. c0me h0me, use c0m, slpp until 6.30pm wake up, call dearr.. t0k t0k.. den at 8.30 hang up l0rhs.. he tirred tirred.. wh0le day m0ve heavy 0bjects.. den ask him g0 rest.. calling him again later.. hehehs.. kkies.. badd news.. badd news.. just f0rget tt i haben c0mplete math practice qns.. n0t all.. but m0st?? hahahs.. kkies.. nebermind.. g0t sebastian sitting beside me jiu ha0 lia0.. can c0py.. muahhahs.. n0tti n0tti lehs.. hahahs.. kkies.. den added cArine in frenster os0.. hahhas.. had nicee time t0king t0 her thru frenster msg.. yeahs.. nice nice pers0n aftall.. n0t fierce fierce like h0w i expect her t0 be.. hahhas.. den d0wn there t0king n0nsence wib cristAl.. den she g0 offline lia0s.. s0 sians.. hmm.. wad t0 d0 n0w?? think later i g0 paste my math n0tes int0 math n0tebo0k den i g0 call dearr dearr ler.. but.. bef0re d0ing all th0se.. i'm g0nna g0 fetch my br0ther frm next bl0ck.. s0 sians.. lazy t0 g0 sia.. sianz 1/2.. s0bbies.. s0 dark.. haiis.. kkies larhs.. g0nna g0 lia0s.. take care.. muackss.

[missed you`]
at 7/07/2004 10:01:00 PM

hi guys..

sch0ol.
was sch earli t0day.. every0ne was sh0cked.. hahhas.. kkies.. cushh ever since they changed the rules, i'm owaes the last t0 reach.. s0.. kkies.. hahhas.. they were sh0cked tt i'm sch0ol earli. hahahs.. kkies.. den went up t0 kumar's h0mero0m t0 put my bagg.. den i piah d0wn t0 canteen t0 wake dearr up.. but called f0r a c0uples 0f times, still n0b0dy pick up, den i os0 needa g0 rep0rt at c0urtyard lia0.. s0 i g0 l0rhs.. den n0 h0mew0rk t0day.. except f0r literature.. yeahs.. haiis.. sians.. den lidat l0rhs.. den aft sch0ol, i g0 buy kit-kat lia0 den g0 h0me l0rhs.. i go0d ger h0rs.. hahas..

h0me.
was h0me abt 2 h0ur lia0.. since 2.45pm yahs.. co0ked maggie mee again.. hahhas.. nice nice.. den eat ler, wash the dishes lerr, den i c0me use c0m l0rhs.. s0 sians h0rs.. haiis.. dunn0 why i c0me h0me earli t0day os0.. hahhas.. terrible.. kkies.. den slacked slacked slacked.. s0 sians.. feeling tirred and sickk.. i'm slightly feverish.. but nebermind.. slight 0nly sia.. waiting f0r a maj0r one.. hahahs.. kkies.. den d0wn there calculating h0w much h0w much i need f0r sh0pping again.. hahahs.. haiis.. s0 sians h0rss.. everything needa use m0ney.. s0 sians.. haiis.. wanna buy 0ne l0w heels, perhaps a dress, a handbag and mayb wanna buy 0ne sh0rts.. veh nice l0rhs.. haiis.. sians.. lidat c0st me an0ther 100 bucks.. g0nna cry lerr.. sl0wly sl0wly buy.. wanna buy the l0w heels first.. even if i'm n0t getting my l0w heels, i still wanna get new sh0es.. hahhas.. ish either l0w heels 0r sandals.. hahhas.. den wanna get my hand bag os0.. yeahs.. haiis.. making l0tsa plans f0r sh0pping ehs?? hahahs.. t0o bad.. i l0ve sh0pping.. and i still haf a list of stuffs haben get yet.. hahash.. haiis.. die.. lidat i'll g0 bankrupt s0on.. haben w0rk 0readi spend s0 much.. die die die.. hahahs.. kkies.. yeahs.. kkies larhs.. g0nna g0 liaos.. see wad i can d0 l0rhs.. perhaps start munching on my ch0c0late?? hahahs.. kkies.. bubbuaiz.

muacksss..

[missed you`]
at 7/07/2004 04:47:00 PM

its a new day!! its wednesday.. hahas.. kkies.. t0king t0 dearr 0n f0ne again.. muahahssss.. hmm.. everyday, i wake up, g0 t0 sch0ol, c0me back h0me, d0 w0rk.. den just wait f0r tis very minute t0 t0k t0 him.. i dun mind staying up late everyday just t0 t0k t0 him every nite like tis.. feel s0 l0ved huhs?? hehes.. haiis.. s0 l0ng neber see him lehs.. haiis.. its been like.. hmm.... since tuesday neber meet lerr.. mishh him w0rrs.. haiis.. hmm.. waiting.. waiting f0r either wednesday 0r friday den can meet.. haiis.. but m0st pr0b shld be friday den meeting l0rhss.. haiis.. nebermind l0hss.. hahas.. will wait patiently de.. hahas.. i've g0t patience de o0kiess?? hahahs.. yeps.. just hang up wif him.. he needa g0 entertain his fren wh0 is injured.. hahahs.. kkies.. needa g0 0ff os0.. pr0mise him t0 g0 slp.. hahas.. kkies den..

go0d nite dearr, and my frens.. sugarr dreams.. slp tite tite.. mishh ya l0ts l0ts.. l0ve u 1314.. and i pr0mise y0u tt.. muacks muacks..

[i miss u m0re than i l0ve u n0w.i l0ve u m0re than i miss u when i'm wif u. `y0u]

[missed you`]
at 7/07/2004 12:22:00 AM

Tuesday, July 06, 2004
backk..

iN sch0ol.
nth much thou. had a stupid youth celebration.. tchers acted.. co0l.. like mr yong n mr hung-tuar.. hahhas.. s0 co0l.. hahhas.. timothy tan not badd to0.. hahas.. ang sing yee can sing wors!! now den i noe.. hahahs.. kkies.. was laughing our heads off.. was having some sort of cvSs idol?? very copy cat worrs.. hahahs.. den caroline chan, yah0o and the other indian tcher ish judge lorhs.. hahahs.. den everytime yah0o gif mean comments.. whole scho0l cheer worrs.. hahass.. lame lehs.. kkies.. den aft tt, we had less0ns lorhs.. den aft sch, i came home liao lorhs.. i veh guai de hors.. muahhahas..

aT h0mE.
ate maggie mee.. den use com.. study.. den fell aslp.. wake up liao.. c0r dearr.. den he busy i think.. n0pe.. his fone dying.. den c0rred him back later lorhs.. at abt 8 i think.. den woke him up frm his slp.. haiis.. feel so badd.. den i fnsh my geog homework liao ler.. muahahs.. left math.. sibeii sians.. hate math lorhss.. haiis.. whole day having headache.. so sians.. tml still g0t history lehs.. sians 1/2.. surely cannot concentrate de lorhs... die larhs.. if only i can take mC.. hahahs.. but dun think can lohs.. haiis.. kkies.. g0nna go p0m p0m ler.. den do math.. hehehs.. hardworking bahs.. muahahs.. me guai guai liao.. lotsa peeps ask me ya0 guai guai.. hahahs.. farliana jie ask de larhs... hahhas.. -.^

muackss..

[missed you`]
at 7/06/2004 08:58:00 PM

k0nnichiwA! hahhas.. kkies.. me today go0d ger wors.. come home earli lehs.. hahhas.. kkies.. cannot blame larhs.. ytd slp so late.. today tirred.. den dearr staying in today.. no one to meet up wif oso.. so stay at home and be go0d ger ger lorhs.. hahahs.. yeahs.. kkies.. i'm home.. so.. g0nna do homework liaos.. den go revise work.. revise liaos.. den can go slackk slackk slackk.. hahhas.. slackking rawks man.. muahahsh.. kkies.. g0nna go liaos.. updat more abt today later bahs.. muackiees..

[missed you`]
at 7/06/2004 03:34:00 PM

yeahs.. backk again.. still not aslp.. hahhas.. hmm.. just fnsh toking wif dearr.. dun mind slping late everyday just to spent the last time i haf wif him before a new day starts.. hehehs.. yeahs.. chatted for quite awhile.. feel very happy to hear his voice lohs.. hahhas.. at least i get to tok to him before i go to slp.. hehehs.. will be his alarm clock every morning to wake him up.. but cant bear to wake him up frm his sweet dreams in the earli morn.. haiis.. haiis.. kkies.. g0nna go slp ler.. promise him to slp aft we hang up.. kkies.. bubbuaiz..

nite nites.. slp tite tite worrs dearr.. sugarr dreams for u.. and only u.. mishh ya owaes.. till the day u come out frm camp.. muacks..

___sorry for the harsh letters.. haiis.. sorry..*]]

[missed you`]
at 7/06/2004 01:54:00 AM

hi guys.. backk.. finally.. hhahas.. kkies.. its a new day now.. 00:05am.. hahahs.. kkies.. yeps.. still not aslp.. hahhas.. must be wondering why huhs?? hahhas.. but mayb not for some of u who reali uunderstand me.. kkies.. was home abt an hour ago?? kena niam by parents.. cushh.. tml's school.. yet home so late, and once again i wont be aslp earli.. hahahs.. so they niam niam niam.. but nebermind.. haiis..

05072004, m0ndaY:
yeahs.. was out before 1 in the aftn.. was on the way to meet my babe.. hahhas.. i've got lotsa babes.. hahhas.. kkies.. jeslyn lohs.. kkies.. den meet her.. den we headed to cineleisure.. yeps.. was walking ard lo0king ard.. den g0t myself a skirt.. n0t badd.. nice nice.. hahhas.. wanted tt skirt for a lo0o0oong time.. and finally, the money i've saved for it was used.. hahahs.. kkies.. so we wenta eat.. at pastamania.. not badd.. had crisy cheese pasta and seafood mania.. we shared.. full lehs.. hahhas.. den wenta take neos aft tt.. den saw jing ting and kenneth.. o0hs.. just found out tt they stead lehs.. hahahs... kkies.. feel weird thou.. hahahs.. kkies.. den.. took neos wif them too.. hahhas.. so.. aft tt, accompanied them to eat.. me and jes just had a drink.. yeps.. den.. aft tt, me and jes headed back to pasir ris.. yeps.. den met dearr.. accompany him to haf his dinner, den he accompany me to the doctor.. den tt stupid doctor.. useless.. just gif me the same old medicine for stomach de.. den walked our way to number 3 bus stop, den he sent me home lorhs.. yarhs.. tts abt today.. hahahs..

t0 cristAl:
babe.. thanks lots yahs?? read ur blog.. thanks alot.. dun worry abt me.. i'll be fine.. and thanks for the assurance tt u'll be there for me.. its een so l0oo0ng since i hear tt yeahs?? hahhas.. thanks lots.. same to u too.. anything, any time.. if u needs a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on, gif me a call.. i'll be there for u too!!

mE n hiM:
yeahs.. things are fine again.. hahhas.. we've talked it out.. and yarhs.. TRUST is still the most important factor in a relationship.. lotsa peeps haf said tt my relationship wif him is very stable.. cushh till now.. we still haben even once tok abt breaking up.. even aft those long, hurtful quarrelss.. but.. yeahs.. glad tt our relationship is so stable.. glad tt things are once again fine.. since things are all cleared now, i only hope tt nth will go wrong again.. i dun expect any more quarrels, anymore fights.. yeahs.. so tts abt it lohs.. hope tt life wudnt be tough on me anymore..

kkies.. i've asked alot frm god ehs?? hahas.. but nevermind.. kkies.. dun worry guys.. i'll owaes study hard even if i'm in a relationship.. tt i assure.. if i cant cope wif my studies, i wont be in a relationship.. hahhas.. so.. just take care.. gonna go liao.. dunno why oso.. hahahas.. yeahs.. just going off to haf a short break bahs.. wanna reali clear my thots like how i clear my cupboards when it's messy.. hhahas.. kkies.. take care frens.. nites!!

[missed you`]
at 7/06/2004 12:05:00 AM