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my boy and i <3

vivian.
13 going on 14.
18 april.
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you and me. ilu*


wish list`

good relationship with him.
his birthday.
tone n slim down.
march holidays.
sun tanning.
my birthday.
nite safari.
more tops.
heels.
flip flops.
shoes.


calender`

0503. rayyan's 21st. linkin's 18th.
1203. march holidays.
1803. 16 months anniversary.
1803. wenxin's 14.
2003. school reopen.
2603. alex's 14.
0104. april fool. jamie's 15.
0204. yiling's 16.
0404. guoqiang's 18.
0904. shermain's 13.
1004. willie's 16.
1204. daryl's 14.
1304. tatfatt's 17.
1804. MY 14 birthday`
1804. 17 months anniversary =D
2404. dad's bdae. wingtong's 14.
2504. jingquan's 14.


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Monday, May 31, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. *yaWnsSs* tired nehz.. nvr slp again.. muahahhaz.. too used to not slping ler.. cool.. i like.. hahahz.. but dun slp no good.. later got eye bags den not pretty ler.. sobbies.. haiz.. anws.. i got eyebags or dun haf still as ugly.. so no point huhx.. hahahz.. kkies.. haiz.. reali bored.. dunno wanna go where die later.. [stupid linkin!! hate u lahz..] kkies.. its no link... i noe.. but there's sth i yet to settle wif him.. haiz.. so sianz.. so sad. reali sad.. but i dunno why.. sad.. sad.. sad.. think abt lotsa things last nite.. haiz.. dunno why.. but just started thinking lorx.. haiz.. so so so much to think.. haiz.. so sianz.. haiz.. fforget it.. dun think better.. haiz.. so sianz.. i kinda hate hols man.. its like.. no where to go.. and like i say in my previouss blogs.. i've no close frens whom i can often hang out wif.. so hols to me is just like living hell kkies.. haiz.. i'll either be rotting at home or just going out slacking ard tis small island call singapore.. hahahz.. haiz.. sad sehz.. hahhaz.. wad to do.. born to be lidat de.. poor thing.. hahahz.. haiz.. kkies.. going off ler lahz.. sianz lahz.. bubbuaiz..

[missed you`]
at 5/31/2004 11:40:00 AM

..wOrRieD.whErE aRe u?sTiLL noT homE?i'M woRrieD abT u.dO yoU noe?wOrRieD..

haiz.. 1 hr plus ler.. its 2 am plus in the morn ler.. dear dear ish still not home yet.. tml got exam, he's still sick, yet not home yet.. kkies.. i'm worried.. reali worried.. i dunno where ish he now.. who he's wif now.. reali very worried lorhx.. haiz.. hope to hear frm him soon lohz.. haiz.. -will be waiting for ya msg de- haiz.. kkies.. will be waiting de.. going off ler.. bubbuaiz..

[missed you`]
at 5/31/2004 02:23:00 AM

hiesS.. haiz.. finally.. went out shopping wif my mummy just now.. she sign cards and reciepts, i go on my shopping -reward- spree.. hahahz.. haiz.. bought my pants and spag finally.. waiting for my skirt lohz.. lolss.. hmm.. kkies.. wad to say nehz. yesh.. was a slping beauty for the whole aftn.. slept frm ytd 1plus den all the way till aftn 3plus den go out.. hahahz.. den now not aslp yet.. actuali wanna slp de.. but.. no mood.. got alot to think abt.. sumhow or rather, my mind, my heart isnt settled down yet.. i dunno why.. but the feeling ish just there.. i dunno why.. haiz.. not settled down.. no peaceful nites.. haiz.. but nvm.. haiz.. dear dear tml last paper.. not meeting him.. dunno where to go.. shld be rotting alone again bahz.. dunno where to go tml.. shld be by the beach alone bahz.. needa clear out my thots.. i hate to be alone.. but too bad.. no close frens.. so no one to go out wif.. i'm a very dependent person.. yet no close fren.. feeling reali sad.. and tts reali dumb.. isnt it.. hahahz.. haiz..how jealous of jeslyn and phebe.. jeslyn got her sharon.. and phebe got her jq.. den me?? hhahahz.. shldnt tok abt it man.. when i needed sum1, no one was there.. when i needed no one, so many pple are there to share only my joys.. den when they needed sumone to tok out their probs, i must be there. why man.. so unfair.. fcuk.. i hate my world.. haiz.. who to go out wif.. i no longer contacts priscilla.. so sad.. when i was sad, she's the one wif me.. thou she's unwelcome by lotsa other pple, but she still stayed by my side.. i'm reali sorry for throwing her aside bcos of sum reasons.. +sOrRy+ haiz.. and the next closest fren i haf is .guoqiang. but i hardly hang out wif him.. wad i can do ish just to msg him at nite and to tok abt my day, wad happen and so.. very happy to haf him as a fren.. the only fren who will still stay awake no matter how late it is, how tired he is just to keep me accompany.. a very nice fren.. din meet him any more since the first time i met him at delifrance.. mayb shld pop up at delifrance one day huhx.. hahahz.. haiz.. feeling kinda down at tis moment.. dunno why.. but just feel very upset.. haiz.. perhapz.. like how's linkin's stead iish feeling bahz.. insecure, no guarantees?? haiz.. kkies.. i'm basically a ger who iish easily jealous[esp. over gers matters and gers.. simply just GERS other than me lahz!!], a very independent ger, a ger who doesnt loves to make decision, a very stubborn ger, sumtimes fierce and irritating ger, sumtimes unreasonable.. i like to haf things to go my way.. aand if i makes decisions, i hate anyone, reali anyone who loves to make any changes to it.. haiz.. so sad.. so sad.. wad else.. i dunno larhx.. so far lidat only lorx.. but tell ya guys a big big secret.. when i'm jealous, i'm reali jealous over every single thing ard u.. i noe tt i'm too much.. but too bad.. i'm extremely possesive.. haiz.. i reali dun understand myself.. haiz.. so sad.. wad to do sia.. sianz.. haiz... jie jie slping ler.. left me all alone.. and er jie in the other room doing her stuff.. hmm.. shld be slping late or not slping bahz.. hahahz.. kkies.. needa do lotsa thinking.. going off ler.. bubbuaiz..

[missed you`]
at 5/31/2004 01:11:00 AM

Saturday, May 29, 2004
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html
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yeah.. tts abt the test i took just now.. hmm.. i very dependent sia.. die larhx.. not good not good.. wahahhahz.. haiz.. so sianz.. dear dear sick sia.. so sad.. du lanz.. he forever sick de nehz.. so sad.. why cant i be the one.. haiz.. he monday got paper.. so sianz.. *worried* haiz.. sianz sia.. wad to do.. bored.. still feel like slping sia.. du lanz.. slping beauty.. hahhaz.. yeah.. tts me.. so pretty.. cos i slp alot.. hahahz.. kkies.. stop the crap man.. sianz.. jie jie not at home.. how to slp.. ass.. sianz.. now crapping wif dear dear online.. hahahz. so sianz.. haiz.. think go send him a mail.. den go be my slping beauty again... muahahahz.. bubbuaiz.. nitess..

[missed you`]
at 5/29/2004 11:51:00 PM

heya.. back.. hahahz.. i mean i'm back frm my dreamland.. heex.. cool.. slept frm 3pm till 8.30.. just fnsh dinner lorx.. heez.. haiz.. so sianz.. wondering wad to do frm next monday onwards.. i haf no plans ya see.. haiz.. die larhz.. wad to do?? bored lorx.. its like.. kkies. hols got no assignment den nth to do? i can go out all i like.. but do you expect me to go out for all 30 days?? spore is so lagging?? where ya expect me to go?? one day go explore one estate arhz?? lame.. haiz.. where to go?? wad to do?? haiz.. dear dear bdae coming soon.. hahhahaz.. he celebrating earli due to the army thingie.. haiz.. still got 16 more days only sehz.. die le.. sure will missh him like fcuk de.. haiz.. so sianz.. haiz.. den still got 26 more days den ray going in... hahahz.. oh yahz.. now den i rmb tt still must find one day to meet up wif ray and love.. hahahaz.. haiyoz.. stress.. hols come oso stress.. heex.. i'm just too GOOD to be true.. hahahhahaz.. lamesssss... haiz.. so wad shld i do?? haiz.. hmm.. i'm planning to like find one of the week, the week when dear dear go in army will be my study week.. den when dear dear come out and b4 going in, accompany him.. hees.. or shld i say ask dear dear to accompany me.. muahahahz.. lame sehz.. hmm.. kkies.. every week find 2 or 3 days for excercise.. 1 day go swimming or just like dipping in the water?? den the other day go cycling or wad lorx.. hahhaz.. must lidat lahz.. must excercise to keep fit nehz.. hahahz.. must jio pple go.. hahhaz.. haiz.. so sianz.. -aiaiai- going back states in the 3rd week of june.. haiz.. so sianz sehz.. my class pple kinda lame nehz.. they surely got nowhere nice to go de.. haiz.. surely ask to go town or just hang ard areas near u see.. haiz.. so sianz.. spore ish a place i'm sianz of going lorx.. its like.. wah kaoz.. nowhere to go.. haiz.. hmm.. where do i wanna go???? where can i go?? places in spore ish sure a hundred million yes i can go.. out of country still needa bargain.. heex.. haiz.. sianz.. dear dear saying bringing me to movies and sentosa laarhx. haiz.. so sianz.. where else sia.. sianz.. think i'll reali rot at home lorx.. sianz 1/2.. wanna die le larhx.. haiz.. hols is a trouble to me nehz.. still must be stress abt it.. hahahz.. lame.. kkies.. i'll go call dear dear now.. hope he'll pick up lorx.. kkies.. bubbuaiz.. muackieexx.. =P

[missed you`]
at 5/29/2004 09:27:00 PM

k0nNicHiwA!! cool.. i just reached home.. hahahz.. din come home last nite.. was at jo's sister's chalet.. her bdae.. hahhaz.. bought her a bracelet or shld i say its a bangle thingie??.. and she loves it manz.. hahahz.. glad tt she loves it.. hmm.. not bad larhx.. her boifren was nice to mixed ard wif.. kinda tok cock king.. hahahz.. den jofri and his fren oso there last nite.. a lil bored though.. hahhaz.. but not bad laarhx.. den juanita and shawn both had a room to themself.. and dear wif me oso had a room to ourselves.. hahhaz.. was damn tired kkies.. din slept well.. hahahz.. feel like slping sia.. hahahz.. eyes cannnot open.. hahahz.. den dear went home to put stuff den i waited for him.. den aft tt, we wenta eat and den he send me home lorx.. haahaz.. haiz.. dear actuali wanna tok abt the problems tt happened recently btween us.. but din manage to tok abt it.. but things still went smoothly.. hahahaz.. yahz.. den tts abt ytd and today lorx.. wah lanz eh.. reali shag!!!!!!! cannot tahan.. wanna orh orh.. zZz.. zZz.. hahahz. kkies.. tired.. hmm.. wad shld i do? think i go bathe den go slp for awhile.. reali tired sehz.. hahahhaz.. kkies.. will update as soon de.. muackieesxsxsxsx...

[missed you`]
at 5/29/2004 01:37:00 PM

Friday, May 28, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! just got home not long ago.. hahahz.. today las day of semester one worx.. haiz.. so sianz sia.. hmm.. just now get my report book.. hahhaz.. kumar say i very guai in class.. and wad she likes abt me is tt i'll ask if i dunno how to do any qns.. she say she's quite happy wif my results.. ask me to keep up the good work.. and she say i can do better for history and mathematics... kkies.. i think so too.. hahahz.. [enG-b3, cHinEsE-a2, maThemaTicS-b4, sCiencE-a2, geogRaphY-a1, hIsTorY-a2, lIteRatUre-b4, hOme eConS-a2, aRt-b3] den my class position is 1/40.. den level position is 5/198.. hahahhaz.. other than tis.. i've got the best conduct award for term two in class.. hahahz.. yupz.. haiz.. so tts abt it in sch today.. feeling rather down.. still feeling dwn lorx.. dunno larhx.. later meeting him.. haiz.. later will tok abt it.. ytd, everytime we tok on fone only can quarrel.. today meeting him.. things shld be worst than wad i'm expecting bahz.. there's one thing i hate alot abt our relationship.. and tt is.. kkies.. i dunno why.. but tis is fact.. our relationship is like.. one day i treat u so sweetly, u treat me so sweetly.. but the next day we can quarrel like fcuk.. tis dun happen only ytd.. it happened lotsa times.. haiz.. i dunno larhx.. later meeting him.. i dunno wad to say.. dunno wad to do.. i dun feel like toking to him abt tis.. i've no mood.. i'm in those kinda mood whereby i can cry fcuking easily today.. too many things haf been happening and has been happening.. and i guess all tis will be happening all once again in the future rites? feeling reali very sad thinking abt it.. i hate thinking abt it.. but too bad.. tis is wad i cant avoid when i get into a relationship.. both parties do gif and take.. but.. tis relationship still doesnt seems to be working.. ytd when toking to him and msging him, i've been very cold to him and tt i admit.. i wont deny it.. i wont.. wad for i deny it. i noe it very clearly tt i was cold to him last nite.. all msges i sent to him has no words like 'love, dear, muackz'.. etc.. the msges i sent him were all like so stranger kinda feeling?? the way i tok to him last nite was worst than how i msg clement, etc.. haiz.. cried too much.. so much tt eyes were a lil swollen.. hahhaz.. very tired as well.. din slp last nite.. was thinking thinking very hard.. and at last.. wad i can say is tt i'm very very tired of those quarrels n so.. cried for more than 3 times in tis relationship.. gif all i can gif.. put in my best to make him smile, to make him his day.. but i noe tt i'm the worst gerfren u can ever find on earth.. i noe i'm not sweet as other gers.. and i noe it very clearly tt i didnt share wif u my problems like how liwen and mertice did.. i noe they told ya their secrets which even their own boifrens doesnt noe.. i noe tt i'm being far too much cos even some frens out there u didnt even see b4 can share their problems their secrets wif u yet ur own gerfren cant.. i noe and i simply noe tt they cud make a better gerfren den i do.. but wad i can say right at tis very moment is tt, if u think tt there is no point carrying on wif tis relationship, den leave. i noe tis hurts alot.. but there's no other way rites.. i hates to be hurt and i hates to hurt others.. but i noe tis isnt the first time i'm doing all tis.. perhapz toking is oreadi no use in btween us.. i dunno wad else can be done to our relationship.. i'm reali lost tis time.. lost in a world call love.........
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yI sHi dE meI haO - aNgela cHanG sHao HaN..
hai de si nian mian yan bu jue.
zhong yu he tian zai di ping xian jiao hui.
ai ru guo zou de guo yuan.
ying gai ye hui gen xing fu xiang jian.

__*cHorUs
cheng nuo chang chang hen xiang hu die.
mei li de fei pan xuan ran hou bu jian.
dan wo xiang xin ni gei wo de shi yan.
jiu xiang yi ding hui lai de chun tian.

*wo shi zhong dai zhe ni ai de wei xiao.
yi lu shang xun zhao wo yi shi de mei hao.
bu xiao xin dang lei hua guo zhui jiao.
jiu yong ni wo guo de shou mo diao.

*zai duo de feng jing ye cong bu ting kao.
zhi yi xin xun zhao wo yi shi de mei hao.
you de ren shuo bu qing na li hao.
dan jiu shi shui dou ti dai bu liao.

[repeat cHorUs]

zai zhui kai shi de na yi miao.
you xie shi zao yi jing zhu ding yao dao lao.
sui ran ming yun ai kai wan xiao.
zhen xin hui he zhen xin yu dao.

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yeah.. end of song.. haiz.. kkies.. going out soon.. so i go prepare first.. so.. anything i blog again tonite or tml lorx.. take care.. muackkies.. misS ya guys!!! >.^

[missed you`]
at 5/28/2004 12:07:00 PM

Thursday, May 27, 2004
back.. just quarrelled wif him again.. nvr thot tt i wud quarrel wif him AGAIN.. reali haf no idea when den we can stop all these.. perhapz like wad he said.. its all my fault.. haiz.. i'm not a perfect gerfren.. i noe it very clearly myself.. guys owaes tend to haf -da nan ren zhu yi, da nan ren pi qi-... and tts sth i cant avoid when i stead wif sum1 at tis age.. i admit tt i'm too stubborn.. stubborn abt everything.. but tts me.. i cant possibly change tis rites.. i've been so so so stubborn since i'm young.. like in one of the letters i've wrote to him.. [i find it hard to understand only you.. perhapz its the age gap causing problems like tis or mayb its just bcos of our different perspectives of life and of cos, tis 'life' we're toking abt here includes love..] haiz.. perhapz its bcos of tis bahz.. haiz.. still rmb the 1 and a half mths at the bginning.. things then were so sweet, so true.. nth is causing any problems for us.. its all until mid of our 2nd mth till now, those problems nvr seems to stop haunting our relationship.. it just seems tt the problems wud owaes be there.. and will nvr fade away.. needing sum1 so much to be here right now, to lend me his or hers shoulder to cry on.. but no one's here.. everytime.. things owaes go in the way i dun wan it to be.. when i need sum1 so very much, my life is just as empty as an empty eggshell.. when i needed no one, my life is just so full of nonsense.. things owaes come at the wrong time.. i feel very upset, very heart-broken.. when i needed sum1, there's noone.. not a single soul.. there was once i rmbered very clearly.. i was feeling very down.. so i went out all alone.. walk in the malls alone, seeing how happy are the others, whether they are in grps of close frens or even couples.. then at the very moment, deep down in my heart is full of nth but jealousness.. aft the malls, i went to the beach.. i sat by the sea all alone.. thinking why will all those things happen to me.. looking at those couples who fork out some time to spent some time wif their love ones walking in the park, by the sea side.. do u noe how jealous i was at the very moment?? looking at those grps of frens having bbq(s), cycling together, having fun together just gave me as much as sadness as those couples do.. sumtimes.. i'm reali jealous.. in my life of 2003 and 2004.. my mind has been thinking of nth but why are my frens there when they only needed me?? why arent they forking out some time to be wif me when i needed them?? i dun ask for much.. even if only one of all my frens were to spare me tt 1/2 hr to let out all my sorrows, to let me cry when knowing tt at least sumone was there for me, i wud be more than happy.. reali.. aft all those little little things, quarrels tt i had wif both my love and my frens, i've learnt alot.. learn tt life is a journey tt is nvr smooth.. things nvr go the way u wan it to be unless u put in tt effort.. i reali dun ask for much.. wad i wan is only a reliable close fren who will be more than willing to spend tt 1/2hr wif me to allow me to haf the chance to let out all my sorrows, to cry out all those disheartening moments.. one wud be more than enuff for me.. i dunno why life is so fucked up for me.. and i nvr expect tt.. as for my love life.. i seriously noe tt i'm not a good stead.. i noe tt i'm not a perfect gerfren.. but in love.. wad i asked for is only the love, care, trust frm tt special guy.. i noe i'm being too naive.. but i seriously blief in those relationships whereby both cud live in a world of no quarrels, no fights and happily ever aft... i noe and i seriously noe i'm being far too naive.. there's no such thing and there nvr will.. i'm reali disappointed in the vivian i am now.. my life has only tt one word tt survives and tt word is -sadness-.. why cant i be the vivian i used to be whereby her life has only -happiness-.. i agrees tt changes do take part in life.. but doesnt everything has a cycle?? just like the plants, the animals?? frm egg bcums a baby den bcums a teen den finally an adult?? arent everything suppose to be lidat?? i guess i'm too naive.. too naive tt when things go wrong, i still think tt its alrite.. haiz..
[i noe tt u're greatly disappointed to haf a gerfren like me.and i noe tt u're jealous of others' relationships.i noe tt u're reali upset cos u cant get the relationship u once haf.and i'm equally upset as u.in life, one has choices.there's owaes a good and bad.it owaes depends on how u wan it to start, how u wan the process to be and how u wan it to end.love hurts more than it gif one happiness.i'm sorry i cant be perfect.if i can be perfect, i wud wan to be tt only perfect ger in ur life.i noe tt there are many other much much better gers out there.and i'm jealous of them.i'm basically a very possesive ger.wad's mine is mine.there's no way u can take it away frm me unless the thing or the person chose to leave.otherwise, i'll nvr let others to snatch away my belongings.i noe tt i'm a very easily jealous ger.i can even get jealous over tt 35yr old auntie, do u think tt i'm not a easily jealous ger?i simply hates pple esp. gers who trys so hard to get so damn close wif my love ones.i dun care whether they are simply just not more than frens or sth more than tt.i simply hates it.no gers wud tolerent their guys to haf ger-frens so close outside.and tt is one factor tt i cant trust.i'm sorry to say all those, but tts exactly how i felt.u guys can all call me an extreme petty ger tt u can nvr find one who is much much more possesive, more petty ger than i do.cos i noe tt myself.i am those kind tt is real possesive.reali.sorry i cant be a little open.and i noe tt wad guys wan is for the gerfren to be open.but sorry i cant be.i am who i am and i blief tt i shldnt change for anyone.one will love the other for who they are and not who they wan them to be.so i blief i'm right wif being my petty little self.i haf lotsa limitations than my strengths.n i noe tt very clearly.i'm reali sorry tt i cant be ur perfect ger, ur perfect valentine.i'm reali sorry and i'm owaes disappointed in myself.wadever the ending is, i wanna tell u tt 'i'M sOrRy, pLs fOrgiF mE.pLs bLieF mE tT i nVr haF onCe waN thE pRocEsS tO bE lIdaT.sOrRy fOr beinG sO iMpeRfeCt.i'M wOrkinG rEaLi haRd.i'M reaLi aM.soRrY foR tHosE niTes wHerEbY i cAusE u tO bE sO uPseT.i rEaLi nvR meaN iT.anD laSt oF aLL, pLs bLieF tIs.i'Ve tRustEd u aT thE veRy bGinNinG.tHou tHoSe sTufFs maDe uS lOsT tRusT iN oNe aNothEr, buT pLs bLieF tT thE tRusT foR u iN mE haS rEgaIneD biT bY biT.waD i neEd noW iS onLy timE tO hEaL mY sCaRs sO tT thE tRusT i onCe aLL haD iN u wiLL bE baCk iN mE aGaIn.i'Ve tRusTed u aT thE bGinNinG, i'M tRusTinG u nOw aNd i wUd lyK tO tRusT u tiLL tHe DaY i LiE dWn on mY dEatH beD.i'M rEaLi vErY sOrRy dEaR....']
perhapz tis is just myself bahz.. i wudnt noe wad i wanna say oreadi.. cos i just noe tt i've let it all out ler.........

[missed you`]
at 5/27/2004 07:17:00 PM

--> iN a fReaKinG .pIsSeD,sIaNz,iRriTatEd,fRusTraTinG. moOd

k0nnicHiwA!! haiz.. just got home.. whole stomach full of 'qi'!! pissed.. kkies.. forget it.. anws.. ytd din get to blog.. da jie use net to find job till 3 plus.. haiz.. den kkies.. ytd went to kukup, jb.. den was like.. haiz.. when come in spore custom, zisheng kena caught for his bubblegums.. wah kaoz.. sad lorx.. den waited for him quite long.. but knew tt mrs sally lum was pissed.. very pissed.. den got back sch.. miss lee ask mrs lum to let him off, but the mrs lum brought zisheng into the g.o. den miss chan get to noe the whole thingie.. then zisheng kena scolded sia.. so sad.. haiz.. den today so many tchers heard abt it, all noe their students smuggle gums in oso.. but they nvr do anything.. den alot of tchers took turn to tok to zisheng.. lanz eh.. sad sia.. haiz.. so poor thing.. all of us smuggled gums in, but only zisheng kena.. very jialat lorx.. den we nvr go tell tcher we smuggle gums in oso.. den its like.. leave him in the lurch lidat lorx.. feeling very sad, very guilty lorx.. haiz.. so sianz.. kkies.. den today went for service learning.. went to collect newspaper in the sengkang neighbourhood.. den went to block 142 lorx.. den frm 16 storey go every lvl to collect newspaper.. so sianz.. so heavy sia.. take until my hand got blisters ler... idiot lorx.. haiz.. tml take results ler.. quite happy anws.. heard tt i've got the 'best conduct award' den i oso very happy cos in the whole sec one lvl express only, i got 5th out of all 198 students.. hehehs.. happy kkies... muahahhahaz.. haiz.. so wad.. so wad i get all these.. my overall results not very good oso.. i think i deleted my results in my fone.. so when tml get back report book i blog again.. haiz.. but only noe i only got one a1 bahz.. sad lorx.. so irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pissed.. haiz.. very sianz.. very sianz.. haiz.. wad to do.. haiz........ sianz..
haiz.. he say tml bringing me to his sister's bdae party.. haiz.. die.. tml aft sch only i piah go home change den go out buy present ler.. hahahaz.. haiz.. sianz 1/2.. haiz.. den just now quarrel wif him on the bus.. hahahz.. the working kind auntie who sat bside me moved place when i started toking to johan.. hahhaz.. cos i sounded so darn pissed.. hehehs.. so power sehz.. haiz.. pissed man.. everytime quarrel.. haiz.. pissed!!! my fault my fault.......... +sOrRy+ haiz.. wadever larhz.. dun feel lyk blogging ler.. go tok to my diary better.. can say more.. muahahahaz.. here very the limited.. no privacy.. muahhahaz.. haiz.. kkies.. going off ler bahz.. muackies.. will blog again as soon as possible de.. hees... =P

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at 5/27/2004 05:41:00 PM

Tuesday, May 25, 2004
listening to 'yi shi de mei hao'.. haiz.. i'm back again.. feeling reali down, reali upset.. wanna cry those kinda mood.. haiz.. was very pissed too.. haiz.. haiz.. dear dear de mummy find out i how old ler.. den was like.. haiz.. get dear dear into trouble.. he've got all those scoldings and stuffs.. haiz.. +sOrRy dEaR tO geT u iNtO tHeSe uNnEcEsSarY tRoubLes+ haiz.. reali feeling very bad and sad.. if only.. there are just too many 'if only(s)' in my head, my mind.. too many for me.. i'm reali close to breaking down.. perhapz my problem is back again.. shldnt think so much.. but.. haiz.. i'm reali feeling very bad for everything i've done.. whether its good or bad, i still feel bad.. wad i most pissed abt myself is still getting dear into all these unnecessary scoldings.. sorry dear, but.. tis is fact.. my dear has all rights to find a ger whose age gap is never so big, he oso haf the rights to find sum1 better than me.. but he's tied down wif me.. sometimes i do feel lyk i'm his burden.. a very heavy one.. he've gotta hide it all frm his mom whom he loves so dearly.. but yet he didnt wanna gif me up.. [if there's reali a day whereby i needa gif up on u so tt i can make some others whom u loves so dearly, i'll gif u up de.. so sorry.. i noe tis is hurting.. but i dun wan ur mother to worry so much for ya..] there are just too many problems for a prsn tt requires a very tough choice in btween 2 things.. for me, if i haf to choose btween my happiness and urs, i'll choose urs.. like wad i used to say.. [wHeN u LovE sUm1, u waN thE pErsOn tO bE haPpY nO maTtEr hOw mUcH iT hUrTs ur heaRt] haiz.. reali very sad to see all these happening.. but i've long ago expecting tis.. its only a matter of time and nth else.. i noe there is one very day whereby i needa face all tis.. reali larhx.. i reali dunno wad else can i do.. feeling reali terrible now.. haiz... kkies.. going off ler.. haiz.. bubbuaiz..

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at 5/25/2004 09:06:00 PM

taTa yOunG - i beLievE

I feel the heat around me
I feel the beat surrounds me
Could this be for real, I wonder
No need for hesitation
It’s time for celebration
Will this be the night I’ve waited for

When angels fall in love
Heaven knows, does it show, oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

(Chorus)
I believe, I believe in love
And like the stars above
They shine, let it shine over me
Set me free I believe in you
And that our love is true
Oh I believe, I believe

I see that people dancing
Boys and girls romancing
They want this to last forever

Cause underneath the moonlight
Everything is alright
We’re reaching our hands up in the air

To where the souls alive
Heaven knows, that it shows oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

(Chorus)

How could I doubt, what was meant to be
Everything I needed was in front of me
Your healing touch, will lift me up in the sky, so high

(Chorus)

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at 5/25/2004 07:06:00 PM

hiLarY dUfF - cOmE cLeaN

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy

CHORUS:
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Than always staying in
Feel the wind

Chorus

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming clean

Chorus

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

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at 5/25/2004 07:05:00 PM

k0nNicHiwA!! haiyoz.. waiting for dear dear's msg.. haiz.. he say he doing sth seriosu.. he very busy.. sho sad nehz.. haiz.. forget it.. du lanz sia.. now having terrible headache.. think not enuff slp barhx.. cos for the past 3 days or so, i've been slping 2 plus 3.. hahahaz.. haiz.. tml going kukup.. so sianz sia.. going till abt 6.30pm.. sad.. hahahz.. haiz.. so sianz.. haiz.. today missed the chance of meeting.. haiz.. so sad.. haiz.. now listening to 'beauty and the beast'... ...ever just the same.... hahahhaz... yeah.. ever just the same.. but nth can be the same as b4.. haiz.. sobzzzz.. kkies.. feeling reali dwn today.. dunno why.. frm the start of the day till now.. reali feeling damn bad.. damn sad.. haiz.. got alot of things to take into consideration tt will or might affect my life.. haiz.. hahahz.. sianz.. kkies.. today wenta [mac ritchie].. kkies.. was like.. woke up so darn earli.. but catch the bus at abt 6.15am.. den reach [there] at abt 7.15 bahz.. hahahz.. went [there] together wif cris and minmin.. so sianz sia.. was complaining on the bus since i board till i alight.. hahahz.. power bahx.. listening to 'sometimes when we touch'.. ...sometimes when we touch, the honesty's too much, and i haf to close my eyes and hide, i wanna hold u till i die, till we both break dwn and cry, i wanna hold u till the fear in me subsides... ...at times i think we've drifted... hahahz.. tts 2 main parts which i love most in tis song.. hahahz.. nice song huhx?? hahhaz.. love tis song.. haiz.. listening to all tis sentimentals, reali allow me to think of the past, to reflect on my wrong doings and the good deeds tt i've done, to recall how much haf i sufferered how much happiness haf i gain.. some times, my tears just cant be controlled and they just flow so freely frm my eyes all the way dwn the cheeks and off my face.. hahhaz.. perhapz needa break bahz.. reali very stressed up sia.. hahhahaz.. haiz.. oh yah.. back to today.. hmm.. aft [mac ritchie], me and cris wenta tm to take neoprints.. hahahz.. we eat too full, nth to do.. hahahz.. den walk walk ard.. den she come my hse eat lorx.. cooked maggie mee for her.. hahahz.. she loves it sia.. [she say one larhx..] hahahz.. den in my room, tok tok and bitch abt others for awhile den she went home to accompany her mom and shanice[sp??]?? haiz.. ...hold me now, touch me now, i dun wanna live without u.nth's gonna change my love for u, u wanna noe by now how much i love u, one thing u can be sure of, i'll nvr ask for more than ur love.... [nth's gonna change my love for u] hahhahaz.. yeah.. hahahz.. cool song huhx?? haiz.. so sianz.. life's so sianz for me.. haiz.. haiyoz.. so faN!!!!! my head bursting ler lahz.. totally frustrated!!! my life now sucks!!! haiz.. pissed... ...when i need u, i just close my eyes and i feel u.and all tt i so wanna gif u, its only a heart beat away.when i need love, i pour out my hands and i touch love.nvr knew there was so much love, keep wif me walk night and day.miles miles of empty spaces btween us, a telephone can take the place of ur smile.... haiz.. so sad song sia.. du lanz.. kekes.. haiz.. stilll waiting.. i'm still waiting.. hahhaz.. [all out of love by air supply]...doesnt reali noe.i'm all out of love.i'm so lost without u.i noe u were right.believing for so long.i'm all out of love.why am i without u.i cant be too late.to say tt i was so wrong... haiyoz.. wait till i kinda pissed ler.. hahahz.. so siaanz... haiz..
yeah kkies.. gonna post some lyrics dwn.. so go off ler lahz.. ciaoz!! *feElinG rEaL saD tiLL thE daY thE sTaRs sHinE aGaiN foR mE* [exaGgEraTeD/???!?!?!] bLeaHx =P

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at 5/25/2004 06:23:00 PM

Monday, May 24, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. so darn pissed kkies.. haiz.. so sianz.. haiz.. just fnshed a battle.. hahahz.. won it.. finally.. kekekz... lame sia.. haiz.. dear now meet fatt fatt ler.. go study.. scared he study till very late larhx!! haiz.. du lanz.. anws.. dun trust them to b together.. hahahaz.. GAYS!! muahahhaz.. kkies.. ta ma ma de... so frustrated abt tml's trip to mei li ji[mac ritchie].. haiz.. dunno whether chrystle's mum letting us to take free ride or we taking bus 156 there.. haiz.. close to a 1hr trip nehz.. fcuk lorx.. it'll be like.. fcuk.. who'll take bus sho earli.. na bei.. sianz.. wanna die ler larhx.. it'll be like freaking earli lorx.. sianz.. 5.15 latest needa wake up.. prepare till abt 5.30am.. den get going latest by 5.45 den take bus frm sengkang interchange.. haiz.. stressed.. stress.. stupid sch sehz.. got bus to takeE us to kuKup but no transport to mei li ji.. lame lorx.. lanz.. pissed.. hahahz.. haiz.. sho sianz.. fatt fatt was wearing pink today.. cool.. pink is reali fashion now sehz.. hahahaz.. haiz.. sianz sia.. no one to entertain me.. sianz......... wad to do??? haiz.. tml aft cross country, shld be going out wif cris for awhiles.. hhahahz.. she wanna take pics again.. hahahz.. so sianz.. needa take pic wif lotsa peeps.. so the sianz.. haiz.. listening to 'nOw anD fOrevEr bY rIchaRd marxXx'.. so class worx.. hahhahaz.. kkkieesS.. noe tts lame.. but i'm just too bore.d. my mom haf been chasing me to go to bed since dunno wad time.. cos she down there saying tt tml must wake up sho earli.. den down there kbkp.. so sianz.. haiyox.. wondering when can see dear dear again.. so miss him worx.. thou met him today.. surprisingly, he's here to fetch me frm sch ya noe.. hahahz.. its been ages since he last fetch me.. not like the bginning of the year, fetch me omost everyday.. tt was like so sweet.. but i noe larhz.. he's having exams.. den no time... yeah.. neither do i wan him to retain.. so kkies.. gotta bear wif it for awhile while more lorx.. haiz.. kkies.. its only another 21 days b4 dear dear go into army lorx.. sad nehz.. sho fast.. haiz... but luckily, he's only in for 5&1/2 days.. but very scared he'll get enlisted for 2yrs service very soon.. so wad if his service ish only frm 8am to 5pm.. den he'll be taking nite classes.. den we wont be able to meet in the aftn. den so scared tt his camp will be very far.. den we'll haf lesser time to meet u noe.. haiz.. stressed...... sianz 1/2.. kkies.. bo bianz... all guys haf to go thru tis.. but din expect mine to be sho fast u see.. hahahz..so sad so sad.. anws.. tis ish wad i've to face whether i like it or nots.. so.. kkies.. u noe larhx.. haiz.. kkies.. anws.. i'm going off ler.. feeling very bored and pissed abt tml's matter.. hahhaz.. kies. going to watch tv.. since no homework no nth to keep me busy.. hahhaz.. kkies.. cIaoX!!! take care.. muackieeexxXX..

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at 5/24/2004 07:18:00 PM

Sunday, May 23, 2004
k0nNicHiwa!! haiyoz.. sho tired nehz.. ytd go swimming den tired frm ytd till now.. ahhahz.. hmm.. wenta compass pt wif da jie today.. go there kia kia and mum mum.. den wah sehx.. today and ytd super super shag nehz... its lyk.. kaoz.. i slept 1plus last nite.. den woke up 11 today morn.. den slept again at 3plus.. den woke up at 6 den go bathe den went to compass point lorz.. den think i slping earli tonites.. hahahz.. totally sHaG!!!! hahahaz.. kkies.. so shagged aft a few hours of swimming.. hahahz.. wEaK!! hmm.. how can i say myself weak.. lame!! bleahz =P kkies.. anws.. din reali tok to dear today.. kinda miss him.. but.. haiz.. forget it.. kkies.. i'm calling him soon.. go first.. tok to him for a while while den go orh orh.. hahahz.. kkies.. bubbuaiz.. muackieeez.. nites.. slp earli yah... hUgGieSssS!!

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at 5/23/2004 09:49:00 PM

k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. got home abt 45 mins ago barhx.. haiz.. kinda frustrating today.. hmm.. wenta jurong swimming complex today wif dear, carolyn, terrence and fatt fatt.. haiz.. fatt fatt poor thing sia.. yanling.. haiz.. forget it.. dear now is at fatt's area toking him abt it.. hope they wud haf a good tok lohz.. hmm.. den me and dear had a short tok.. cos 2 got big big problems.. we din tok thru out the whole journey frm outram park till punggol station.. we both act as if we din noe any of us.. so was lyk.. kkies.. .tOtaL sTranGeRs. haiz.. -oPeN uP uRseLf aNd leMmE unDersTanD u moRe iF u ReaLi loVe mE, rEaLi tRusT mE. cOs i nVr wUd waNna bEaR thE tHoT oF lOsinG u- haiz.. yeah.. den just got home lorx.. had quite a good anf fun time over at jurong.. finally, i picked up the courage to drink green tea.. the yuckiest tea on eearth i once thot it was.. but u might find it surprising why i wud drink it since i hate it to the core.. kkies.. its all bcos of me myself and i.. i've gotta maintain a nice body size, weight and figure.. den i must not go on diet just bcos to lose weight.. if not lotsa acidic reactions will happen and den u'll haf stomach ulcer.. haiz.. so i've been eating less, doing more sit-ups n exercises, and at the same time, i'm eating.. haiz.. stress sia.. hahahz.. acnnot be stressed over tis.. dear will kill me de.. hahahz.. anws.. i think i'm going off ler.. only hoping to haf the best for all i do if i've put in my effort.. if i've nvr put in any efort, i'll nvr ask forr more.. so.. hope god wud bless me.. slp earli to those who are still awake.. take care.. nites nites.. muackies.. >.^

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at 5/23/2004 12:28:00 AM

Friday, May 21, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! hahahz.. kinda happy but not very happy oso.. hahahz.. hmm.. yeah.. score quite well din fail any subjects yet.. hahahz.. hmm.. top 3 subjects in my whole class.. top english, geography and history.. hahaz.. my english got 85 - a1 ler.. my geography got 81/100 - a1 ler oso.. and history get 69 - b3 nia.. haiz.. sad.. sobz.. sobz.. den.. chinese got 71 - a1 lohz.. science got 75, 3rd in class den tt is a1.. hahhaz.. still waiting for my math total, literature and home econs.. haiz.. hope i wont fail any.. haiz.. stressed sia.. haiz.. its lyk.. oh my.. so scared i'll fail.. cos so so so many pple failed lorx.. all subjects sure got at least 4 failures.. haiz.. den i'm now freaking worried lorx.. haiz.. literature sure got pple fail one lorx.. haiz.. sianz sia.. haiz.. home econs oso.. haiz.. sianz.. kkies.. yupz.. den met dear just now.. early morn super du lanz de.. but.. things got better.. +sOrRy foR mY poOr aTtItuDe jUsT noW..rEaLi noT veRy haPpY..sOrRy dEaR+ haiz.. yupz.. den went to watch shrek 2.. hahahz.. cool show.. still waiting to watch TrOy n tHe daY aFt tmL.. hahahz.. hmm.. waiting for tt.. reali waiting for tt.. tml shld be going out wif dear again bahz.. hahahz.. reali wished to spent as much time wif him b4 he go in army.. hahahz.. kkies.. hope tt we'll haf our picture taken asap.. mis ya owaes.. muackieeexXx.. >.^ niTes.

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at 5/21/2004 10:39:00 PM

Thursday, May 20, 2004
k0nNicHiwA-- haiz. not feeling very happy today.. lotsa things changed nehz.. hahahz.. haiz.. its lyk.. wah.. total sianz lorx.. haiz.. actuali today got meet dear de.. but sum things crop up.. haiz.. so .qI daI. to meet him de.. but.. okies-- haiz.. den he say friday wanna meet.. go watch movie.. but.. i think he've totally forgot abt it bahz.. tml friday.. den he tot tml thurs.. hahahz.. haiz.. totally .dIsaPpoiNteD. sehz.. hahahz.. forget it lahz.. think tml aft sch, i'm going home and slp.. instead of reminding him tt tml is fri.. hahahz.. haiz.. i think i remind him oso no point.. cos he oreadi say tt he's going sch in the morn, doing tHinGs in the aftn and meeting his freNs in the evening or nite to study.. hahhz.. so.. since his schedule is oreadi so packed, den okies.. dun bother much lorx.. let him go barhx.. ahhahz.. haiz.. totally lost now.. feeling all alone, all lost once again.. haiz.. dunno wad to do.. haiz.. if only i've the choice btween death and life.. i wud choose death.. and i reali will.......
haiz.. den today at white sands saw mrs teo.. hhahaz.. stomach big worx.. den asked me abt the .bgR. thingie again.. haiz.. haiz.. den its lyk.. so sianz.. so sianz.. wenta pasir ris beach aft i left white sands.. need time to be alonne.. dunno why.. but i just needed to be alone for the past days.. haf too much to worrieE.. too much to thinKk abt.. haiz.. too bad larhx.. my life lidat.. wad can i do rites?? hahahz.. haiz.. fcukEd uP.........................
hmm.. den in school today kinda fun.. had checking of papers in the morn.. i top the class for english.. and chinese oso extreme close to the highest.. den dunno ish me or vivian chin get highest for geography.. hahhaz.. den my math paper one pathetic lorx.. 26/50.. hahahz.. guessed its quite good barhx.. cos lotsa pple failed tt in my class.. hahahz.. haiz.. lame.. waiting to see my results tml.. hahahz.. den today got roller blading course.. din noe i can balance and skate actuali.. but aft i picked up the courage, had more confidence den things went not bad lahz.. hahahz.. den tml got another session of distribution of flyers nehz.. so pissed.. hahahz.. if tis time go far far, i reali going to die ler.. hahahz.. haiz.. tml fnsh sch at 1.30.. wah laoz.. tml friday lorx... lame sch.. irRriTatiNg!!! fcUkinG heLL.. haiz.. pissed.. forget it larhx.. i'm going off soon.. needa continue wif my thinkings and worries.. reali cant put them down.. hahhaz.. haiz.. hope i die faster.. at least got not much stress.. ahhahz... kkies..
going off ler.. bubbuaiz.. take care.. muackieeeexxx...

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at 5/20/2004 09:20:00 PM

Wednesday, May 19, 2004
yeah.. just fnshed playing gb wif dear and dear's fren and my fren.. hahahz.. tis guy horx.. power nehz.. .pRacTicE. wif him so many times, he everytime kill me.. hahahz.. he's now my fren.. next time go on gb go find him.. hahahz.. haiz.. tis fren quite funny lahz.. cant blief tt he actuali said tt i'm HIS when johan is in the same room, same game.. hahahz.. tts super manz.. hahahz.. kkies.. feeling kinda pissed at the very moment.. reali lorx.. haiz.. forget it.. not interested to say.. since no one bothers mahz.. hahahz.. forget it.. i'm living in a world tt only has me and me and just me.. get tt.. kkies.. going off ler.. bubbuaiz... slp earli yah.. take care worx.. muackkieeex...

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at 5/19/2004 09:11:00 PM

k0nNicHiwA!! hahaz.. oh manz.. i'm reali tired lorx.. hahahz.. haben reali been slping well during the exam period.. and finally, the exams end ler.. just ended today.. hahahz.. had home econs paper.. quite easy.. dunno wads the point of studying so hard nehz.. hahahz.. den frm 9am lidat.. we went out of sch.. sam was asking me to go out wif her lorx.. den was like.. she had no where to go.. den.. haiz.. so pissed.. den we both wenta chinatown first.. but no shops were open.. hahahz.. den we were complaining lorx.. den walked ard.. den finally, we came to a stop at the chinatown's mrt station.. we both sat at one corner chit chat n read magazine lorz.. den by the time we fnshing reading, its 11.05am.. den we went up to the wherever again.. but the shop i wan is not open. uRmpHx....... den we left.. we wenta plaza singapura.. actuali wan go action city take neoprints de.. but.. not open.. pissed.. hahahz.. den aft tt.. we went out of p.s... den at mrt station saw terrence.. hahhaz.. he going to work.. hahhaz.. den went to cine.. to take neoprints.. hahahz... den took 2 neoprints worx.. hahahz.. the second time we took ish nicer.. hahahz.. bHb.. hmm.. den aft tt.. we walked ard.. frm cine walked to heeren.. den walk rounds and rounds.. den stop at the highest lvl to rest.. hahhaz.. when we having a nice view.. oh my.. guess who we saw?? hahahz.. LiM zI roNg.. cvSs head counsellor last yr.. hahaz.. den he was like.. oh my.. i was shocked lorz.. hahahz.. diaoz.. den i start to think of his tt stern look when scolding pple in sch.. den he was like laughing and smiling to me and sam.. hahhaz.. den he say no lahz.. wont catch de.. hahhz.. den tok tok for awhile lorz.. den aft tt.. me and sam went off.. took train back to punggol lorx.. hahhaz.. haiz.. den fell aslp on bus on the way home.. hahahz.. reali tired kkies.. hahhaz.. yeah.. anws.. reali happy tt exams are all over.. tml got roller blading session n the checking of exam script lohz.. sianz 1/2.. surely die jialat jialat de.. sobbies.. haiz.. kkies.. miss dear dear alot.. and tts wad i only noe for now.. hahahz.. kkies bax.. think i go rest ler.. go catch a quick nap.. hahahz.. sHaG!!! miss my love, dear, laogong!! hahahz.. hope to see ya soon love.. muackieeexXx..

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at 5/19/2004 03:15:00 PM

Tuesday, May 18, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haHaz.. still got 5 more mins b4 my 6th mth anniversary ends.. hahhaz.. hmm.. was out frm abt 12 plus bax.. wif phebe and jeslyn.. wenta town.. took neoprints.. cool lorx.. hahahz.. den bought for dear dear famous amos cookies.. he loves tt kkies.. ahahahz.. but dun dare to buy him tt everytime.. he've got asmathic(sp!!!!) lorz.. sad sia.. haiz.. den aft tt... we slack all ard.. saw tze yan many many times.. den saw xue ru n love, sinni n love, ellycia n joleen at heeren oso.. hahahz.. den haiz.. when out of heeren, at 7-eleven tt time, saw sandy and co.. oh my.. she's wearing spag., mind u.. hahahz.. den so straight lorz.. washing board.. hahahz.. yupz.. den went to tampines wif pehbe and jeslyn.. met dear dear at abt 5 plus bax.. den went to the arcade.. keep seeing alot of .aquas. reali aquas lorx.. dots dots dots.. hahahz.. den.. frm arcade.. we went to toys 'r' us.. played a fool there.. make a din there too.. hahahz.. cant stand it.. den... we sat outside the shop, thinking where to go.. den we took bus down to pasir ris, go eat and blahz blahz.. den me n dear dear went to the beach again.. haiz.. the sky is like.. too bright to see any stars.. but aft sum time, its too 'red' to see any.. hahahz.. it looks as if its gonna rain.. ahahz.. den dear dear sent me to fatt fatt's hse tt bus stop, den i went home myself lorx.. hahahz.. hahahz.. jie jie on the same bus as me i oso dunno worx.. kekezx.. den when reach hse bus stop, everyone was there.. just reached home oso.. hahahz.. funny sia.. my family .xin you ling xi yi dian tong. hhaahhaz.. haiz.. tml wont b meeting dear.. neither will i be going out wif frens bax.. i think.. den thurs i oso dunno got sch notz.. if got i oso dunno got training notx.. den only friday den can meet dear dear again.. hahahz.. guessed everything will be fine bax.. hehex.. hmm.. lyk wad many says.. -it is not advisable for couples to meet everyday. if not, they will haf nth to say- hahhaz.. kkies.. perhapz bax.. and i shld let things go in the way he lyks bax.. holding on to things for too long.. taking too much control ler bax.. thou he dun feel so, but i still feel tt way.. hahahz.. so.. hahahz.. but if i let things a lil looser, only hope tt he wont do anything to .shock. me lorx.. in another words.. DISAPPOINT me.. hahahz.. kkies lahz.. needa go study home econs ler lahz.. just simply flip thru tts all.. muahahhaz... kkz.. take care frens.. may my angels look over all of ya tonite and forever.. nites.. sweet dreams.. muackieeex... huGgies... (>.^)v pEacE oUtz!!

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at 5/18/2004 11:55:00 PM

k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. just come home lohz.. today got math paper 2 exam.. haiyoz.. lost 6 markz ler.. sobz sobz.. hahahz.. haiz.. later going out.. so sianz.. dunno go where nehz.. sianz sianz.. haiz.. dear dear fnsh sch at 7pm.. 8-5 is lesson.. den 5-7 is mock exam or sth lidat.. so sianz.. but later giving him surprise.. buy him his favourites and meet him near his sch there at 7pm.. hahahz.. hmm.. today 6 mths anniversary.. so must be good ger ger.. haahhz.. haiz.. so sianz.. hmm.. den.. tml is ainsly and zhining's 6 mths anniversary.. hahahz.. den.. horz.. sihong and her dear quarrelled ytd.. haiz.. sihong cry sia.. so sad.. so jialat... haiz.. sobbies sobz.. haiz.. sianz.. haiz.. tml last paper.. home economics.. sianz.. haiz.. haben study yetz.. hahahahz.. later still going out.. haiz.. sobzzzzzzzzz.......... sianz.. kkies.. going off ler.. see at nite got time to blog again notz.. bubbuaiz.. muackieeezzzz.........

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at 5/18/2004 10:26:00 AM

Monday, May 17, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! today got lit exam.. not bad larhx.. haiz.. bored sia.. dear playing gb... no one entertaining me.. wanna go out but dunno wanna go where.. clement jio me out.. but dunno wanna go out wif him nots.. so sianz.. so sianz.. rather haf lesson lorx.. den at least i got thing to do.. better than got exams.. everytime come back dunno do wad.. no plans = no life.. hahaz.. haiz.. shld i go out wif clement.. since dear playing gb.. den he having diarrohea again.. den cannot come out.. haiz.. sianz 1/2.. ya lorx.. lyk wad others say.. couples shldnt meet everyday.. hahahz.. sianz 1/2.. haiz.. so where shld i go now? i can owaes go out wif myself.. and i can owaes go out wif clement.. but wont tt be like a lil.. haiz.. dunno lahz.. du lanz kkies.. i'm reali pissed.. hahahz.. haiz.. bored lyk hell.. reali bored.. fark manz.. haiz.. wanna cry ler.. only hope tt i'll haf sumwhere to go wif sumone soon.. haiz.. +n0 pOinT+ take care frens.. bbubbuaiz..

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at 5/17/2004 01:23:00 PM

Sunday, May 16, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. sho sianz.. sunday everytime lidat de.. haiz.. god trying to piss me off rites.. wahahahz.. haiz.. so sianz.. now chatting wif sihong online.. hahahz.. funny sia.. asked her abt tt stupid loyang sec ger's thingie.. oh.. so her name is cherlyn.. sec 1 only worx.. all her korx in sch is all sihong noe de.. den in sch very act big.. hahhaz.. haiz.. nth to say.. sec 1 only in sch oreadi so many tai ji.. go outside still lidat.. tt time at white sands still so guai lan.. act so big oso.. den at staircase there most funny sia.. actuali i alone den they 3 pple so they eat me lorx.. den when jo come out, they 5 pple including jo's bro n fren plus cherlyn and 2 other frens scared of johan one person.. lanz eh.. WEAK!!! hahahhz.. cant wait to go down to white sands again.. den see they still so 'zhuai' or not.. anything i just let them say lorx.. den i record down.. den let dear dear hear. hahahz.. weak weak weak.. reali horx.. cannot tahan.. haiz.. so sianz.. haiz.. reali horx.. i think abt tt matter i reali laugh until pengx.. reali pengz arhz.. wahahhaz.. happy sia.. i reali thinking very hard lehz.. wad will they do the next time i see them at white sands.. hmm.. will they ignore me or will they still continue to bitch abt me?? haiyoz.. +fRusTraTeD+ hahahz.. i reali make non-relevant things as my problems.. den i bcum super frustrated.. hahahz.. now i understand how jo feels.. hahahz.. oh yahz.. summore horx.. she exp.. haiyoz.. cant blief it.. si hong down there keep cursing her to drop to normal sia.. hahahz.. haiz... i muz try all my ways to get her number sia.. wahahahz.. haiz.. den she siyun's god-sis.. du lanz.. haiz.. she no hope.. still wan drag others into the water.. she.. gonecase.. no hope.. hopeless.. useless!!! haiz.. tok abt her make me feel so funny... wahahahhaz.. hahahz.. kkies.. i go off ler lahz.. later i bitch abt her until very not nice to hear den i kena frm some pple.. hahahz.. kkies.. go off ler.. bbubbuaiz.. muacckkieees.

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at 5/16/2004 03:17:00 PM

Saturday, May 15, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! hahax.. haiz.. juz got home not long huhx.. hahahz.. was out wif chung yin, kenneth, kenny and victor at downtown east xbox area.. den met dear.. hhahz.. den actuali was bored like hell.. den aft tt.. we went to beach and relac.. hahahz.. den.. at nite, we lie down on the sand, toking so on and so for.. hahahz.. u shld noe huhx?? hhahahz... hmm.. den just now slack ard my hse area.. den he send me home lorx.. hahahz.. not bad.. quite an enjoyable day thou its boring when we first met.. hahahz.. den walked in the small drizzle at the beach just now.. hahahz.. hmm.. tml wont be meeting him ler.. needa revise for my exams and he needa do his work as well.. as his exams are nearing too.. hahahz.. hmm.. in another 3 days time, we gonna celebrate 6mths anniversary.. hahhaz.. 6 mths ler dear!! 1/2 a year!! hhahahz.. cant blief tt lohz.. i had no confidence in lasting at the beginning.. but.. hahhaz.. perhapz... hahahz.. hmm.. confidence do build up as time pass by mahz.. hahahz.. hmm.. reali happy lohz.. den dear dear was like saying tt he'll be waiting for our 3rd year anniversary.. hahahz.. hope it will come true... hahhaz.. yupz.. tts abt wad has happened today.. hahhaz.. as for ytd, i was wif dear dear too.. spent the whole day wif him.. hahahz.. den thursday mahz.. hmm.. i've forgotten.. hahahz.. but shld be wif him lahz.. muahahhaz.. hmm.. anws.. in another 1mth minus 1 day time, dear will be going in soon.. sobbies.. haiz.. so sad.. haiz.. so sianz sia.. hahahz.. oh yah.. ytd got tai ji wif jiahui and co. at white sands arcade.. was down there diao-ing each other.. i power worz.. i one person diao one whole grp.. den they were shouting 'diao si mi diao..' den i still diao back.. hahahz.. cant blief it.. i kena diao 4 times in a row b4 i took action... hhahahz.. den aft they said tt, me and dear went out of arcade.. actuali planning to go beach relac de.. den.. when we planning to take lift, at they staircase area saw dear's brother smoking inside wif his fren.. den dear go in gan.. hahaz.. den i outside alone mahz.. den the head of tt gang, one loyang sec zarbor, small size de, walk past me and say i xialan.. den aft johan come out, i told him.. den tt ger and another of her gina went in to find johan's brother.. den johan cheong in and asked tt ger 'u point my gerfren izzit??' hahhaz.. tt ger horzz.. funnie sia.. the face straight away turned like timid rat lidat.. say wad.. 'no lahz.. where got.. i only walk past her and go to the toilet only.. i nvr say anything..' hahahz.. wah.. she scared like hell lohz.. muahahhaz.. den i think jo's brother got tell them dun disturb me bax.. hahahz.. funny lohz.. starting very 'power' de.. hahahz.. den her gina oso another xialan one.. keep diao like hell.. she horx.. better b careful.. useless bitch.. hahahz.. like wad me and jo owaes bitch abt the gangs.. when one person, the balls dunno where.. when one big group, they only add up to 2 balls.. hahhaz.. kkies.. tts funnie.. cant wait to see tt ger again.. see how she'll react.. if next time i at white sands or pasir ris alone waiting for frens or dear and they one big group come find trouble wif me, i surely dun return hand de.. wait till i get bruises den they dun need kena frm me.. hahahz.. wait till dear dear only.. hahhaz.. kkies.. reali cant wait to go down lorx.. muahahhaz.. kkies.. take care.. gonna slp ler.. promise dear dear slp earli de.. hahhaz.. cos got eye bags ler.. muz take care of my face.. if not, not pretty ler.. hahhaz.. so ger ger worx.. kekes.. kkies.. going off ler.. bbubbuaiz.. muackkiesss... niTes worx..

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at 5/15/2004 11:37:00 PM

Thursday, May 13, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! just got home not long ago.. haiz.. today had my maths paper 1 and history exam.. hahaz.. haiz.. kkies.. first was math.. oh my.. i've got stuck at the very first qns.. haiz.. think i can fail ler lorx.. left abt 3 qns blank.. each qns is abt 1 or 2 marks only lorx.. haiz.. but if i reali fail by tt 1 or 2 marks only, i sure go long pia lorx!! touch wood touch wood.. better not fail.. haiz.. luackily i managed to fnsh it.. hahahz.. den hahhaz.. my whole class all down there complaining tt the paper was hard.. lame lorx.. hahhaz..1g nehz.. 3rd best klass got BIG prob wif the paper.. hahahz.. lame.. reali very lame nehx.. hahahz.. den during break, me and cris scared ler. so we take the history textbk and study.. wah.. cant blief it lorx.. we will study de worx.. hahahz.. den.. kkies.. go back to examination room.. hahahz.. den take history.. wah lan.. got a few qns nvr study.. but got help frm chrystle.. hahhaz.. not bad lahz.. for source-based qns, i wrote one whole big chunk of words.. hahhaz.. write until i feel as if my arm dropping off lorx.. hahahz.. reali very tired.. den when i do the structured qns.. wah lanz.. super sia.. i left 20 mins to do only.. hahhaz.. i pia all the way sia.. hahahz.. fun.. but pheW!! enuff time to fnsh the whole paper.. whole class complain difficult lohz.. but i find it kinda okies lehz.. not very difficult oso.. hahahz.. yupz..tts abt sch today lorx.. hahhaz.. hmm.. tml got science and geog.. science i not so scared.. i more worried for my geog.. scared fail lahz.. my sch if u in exp, u fail one sub u prepare to spent another year in sec1 lohz.. haiz.. sianz 1/2... lame school!!! LAME!!! haiz... today nvr see dear dear oso.. haiz.. he've got sch n exam.. i oso haf.. no time to meet.. hahahz.. time now is reali tight for both of us lohz.. haiz.. hmm.. den.. aft mid-yr, when sch start lesson again, me, huimin n chrystle n perhapz sum1 else is going to form a stupid grp and start revision frm the head to the toe.. u see mid-yr aready lidat, end of year surely more jialat de.. can predict de lorz.. haiz.. i den dun wanna spent an extra yr in cvss, neither do i wanna drop to normal.. haiz.. i'm reali stressed up now!!! haiz. ya.. back to the topic.. yah.. aft mid-yr got revision grp.. den shld be we one week revise 2 times bax.. den the time i meet dear dear will oso cut down lohz.. but i guess dear aft he graduate, shld be serving ns for 2yrs frm 8am to 5pm bax.. den he say once he get in, he wanna go for nite class.. aiyo!! got lotsa zarbor de worx!!! haiz.. sobz sobz.. hahahz.. kkies.. den oso not much time to meet him lohz.. haiz.. so sad.. so so sad.. haiz... but.. i guess it'll be better tis way bax.. perhapz bax... always look on the bright side of life.. shldnt things be like tis?? hahhaz.. perhapz lorz...... haiz.. kkies.. think i going off ler lahz.. its like.. hahhaz.. dunno how to say.. but wad's more impt, dear i miss ya alotx!! hope to see ya soon!! and i do mean it horx!!
kkies.. take care frens.. bbubbuaiz..

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at 5/13/2004 12:39:00 PM

Wednesday, May 12, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! hmm.. just got home not long ago arx.. reali not long worz.. hahahz.. hmm.. was out wif phips, jes at yens hse.. hahahz.. yeah.. actuali at phips hse first.. was toking abt lotsa things.. her rm now is juz like the whole hse except there's no toilet n basin in her room.. hahahz.. hmm.. she've got a fridge n food inside her room.. so its like.. wah.. hahhaz.. now still got tv worx.. hahahz.. advance!! hahahz.. hmm.. den ard 6.30 went off.. needa go meet joclyn mahz.. den walked frm bball court there lohz.. den saw willie, chung yin n another guy.. hahhaz.. kenneth is suppose to be there.. but he's home slping.. hahhaz.. lazy piG!! wahahahz.. hmm.. den walked wif em to watsons den take bus frm white sands there.. den when reach punggol.. took 82 to joclyn's area.. wah sehz.. her area scary sia.. so many blangadeshies.. so scary sia.. reali lohz.. i board the bus to her area tt time, its like wah.. almost all pple on bus were blangadeshies.. only abt 3-5 pple were chinese.. sianz lorz.. den when reach her area, the bus stop was lyk.. wah.. again almost all blangadeshies.. so sianz.. den on the way back oso same.. hahahz... haiz.. xia sway.. hahahz.. haiz.. tired worz.. tml math paper 1 n history.. 11.30 den fnsh sch.. sianz 1/2.. den got pple jio me go swimming.. sianz sianz sianz.. but got geog on fri.. so i'm not going.. scared fail lahz.. my geog weak okies kies.. ahhahz.. haiz.. dear dear now in dreams mode.. hahhaz.. good larhx.. at least he's slping.. better than he down there play gb.. at least he gets to rest.. wasso worried tt he'll fall sick lohz.. haiz.. he cant be weak at tis point of time.. he've gotta build up strong body nehz.. going in army soon.. another 1 mth and 2 days.. haiz.. yupz.. haiz.. kkies.. guess gotta go bathe ler.. feeling very slpy yah.. hahhaz.. take care yah.. slp earli.. bubbuaiz.. muackkkieeeeeeEEeesss.. >.^ pEacE oUtz..

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at 5/12/2004 08:33:00 PM

Tuesday, May 11, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! hahax.. hmm.. added mIsS lYdiA taN in frenster.. wondering if she'll accept or not.. hahahz.. if not, perhapz i noe why bax.. cos she only teach my side of home econs for 1 lesson.. hhahaz.. other than tt, no more ler.. hahhaz.. den saw the pics and her stuffz.. ooHh.. she've got a boifren worx.. hahahz.. hmm.. actuali still okies wad.. she quite good looking lohz.. so got a boifren nth shocking.. hahaz.. hmm.. den.. saw miss yap's picture too.. hahhaz.. perhapz.. perhapz.. miss yap oso got frenster huhx?? hahahz.. aft ms lydia add me ler den i go add ms yap.. muahahhaz.. making use worx.. hahahz.. hmm... den today in sch kinda sianz lehz.. art tt time very bored.. but pe was rather funnie.. walk catwalk while playing badminton.. hahahz... den miss the shuttle cock dunno how many times.. hahahz.. so lame.. den lingx and min min were laughing till pengz lorz.. den me sit on the floor and roll sia.. muahahhaz.. den was lyk.. hahaz.. funny lorz.. kkies.. aft art.. was home econs.. home econs is the last lesson le lorx.. ms yap leaving for uni.. haiz.. hmm.. den aft home econs is mt.. wah.. today mt lesson super noisy sia.. cannot tahan.. hahahz.. kkies.. last lesson of the day.. english.. wah lao eh.. tis one reali funny until pengz.. kkies. shaun n sabastian wento the toilet.. haiya.. actuali is shaun and dunno who lahz.. not very sure.. kkies.. den was like.. they went to the toilet.. the other guy's pass was dry.. btu shaun wet the pass he took.. den when he come back.. ms norlizah was like measuring the length blahz blahz.. den ask shaun izzit the pass too long for him tts why he wet the pass?? den nvr aim properly tts why wet it.. hhahz.. wah i tell u.. tt moment, my class was lyk laughing until pengz lorz.. reali pengz lorz.. hahhaz.. cannot tahan.. reali cannot tahan sia.. hahhaz.. den shaun was lyk so super paiseh.. wah lao.. reali horz.. hahahz.. even ms norlizah oso say until lidat.. hahhaz.. wads tis world is coming to manz?? hahahz.. kkies.. den today aft sch went to pasir ris.. cos no homework mahz.. den was like dunno go where slack.. so wenta pasir ris lohz.. den met dear aft some time lohz.. hahaz.. den dear's sis was like 'dear, haf u eaten? dear, i miss u..' hahahz.. wah.. reali pengz arx.. hahahz.. hmm.. den slack ard.. den aft tt he send me home lorz.. hahhaz.. yupz.. tts abt today lohz.. sianz rites.. hahhaz.. kkies.. tml got eng and mt paper 2.. must go study ler.. muahahahz.. kkies. take care yah.. miss ya.. lurve ya.. muackkkieeeeeeeez.. >.^ pEaCe oUtz..

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at 5/11/2004 09:17:00 PM

Monday, May 10, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! hmm.. tis is the 2nd time i blog today lohz.. haiz.. finally fnsh all my work.. den now fork out some of my resting time to blog lohz.. hahhaz.. haiz.. today very sianz.. din reali tok to dear much.. neither did i recieve any msg frm him.. haiz.. kkies.. i was worried sick.. but didnt noe if he knew it or not.. haiz.. forget it lahz.. haiz... feeling very bored lohz.. haiz.. juz now tok to dear for abt 10 mins only.. thruout the whole day, we only tok for 10 mins.. haiz.. den.. he said tt his hp line kena cut off.. tts why wasnt able to contact me.. haiz.. sianz.. den dear dear oso sick today.. haiz.. forever one sia.. haiz.. nvr smoke only lidat.. reali dunno wad to do wif him.. haiz..... sianz.. reali very sianz.. haiz.. den.. haiz.. feeling reali tired lohz.. haiz.. but haf no mood to go rest.. haiz.. too much to think abt.. hahaz.. haiz.. sianz.. haiz.. feeling very weird.. reali feeling very weird.. but dunno wads so weird abt it.. haiz.. i guess i needa haf a tok wif my diary lohz.. hahahz.. reali feeling very weird sia. haiz.. like my msn nick lohz.. hahhz.. ^where are u when i needed u most^ yeah.. hahahz.. kkies.. perhapz there's a need for me to let the rope a lil looser bax.. i cant b possibly controling his life rites? aft all, we're not officially husband n wife.. so.. perhapz.. needa gif in more, haf more patience n let everything a lil looser.. perhapz the way i look and handle things are a lil too conservative horz.. haiz.. needa be a lil loose lohz.. hhhaz.. but scared i cant make it n quarrels will all come back once again.. haiz.. perhapz shld keep everythng to myself lohz.. mayb tts the way to let tis relationship to carry on bax.. cos.. speaking frankly.. i dun wanna lose him...
nites.. slp earli.. slp tite.. take care worx.. muackkkieeeex..

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at 5/10/2004 09:31:00 PM

kOnbaNwA!! haiz.. sianz 1/2.. so sianz.. today sch so sianz sia.. so sianz lohz.. just fnsh reading thru my past blogs.. kinda sad worx. haiz.. haben hear frm dear since morn.. dunno wad's wrong.. perhapz he's busy bax.. thing better not disturb him lohz. haiz.. sianz.. haben do hw sia.. got chinese and art cover page and wad else?? hmMmMmM.. dun think haf ler bax.. hahhaz.. haiz.. die.. tis wed mid yr eng and chinese paper 2.. s.T.r.e.S.s haiz.. hmm.. i say i stress.. but still got the time to blog.. hahahz.. lame arx me?? muahahhz.. haiz.. hmm.. wait.. lemme do some counting.. today 10 may.. dear going in june 14.. still left 1 mths 4 days.. haiz. sad sia.. who's gonna entertain me?? sure gonna miss him like hell de.. haiz.. sianz 1/2.. haiz.. 'i dun wanna noe. shi qu ni duo me tong.' hahahz.. one of the most meaningful line in chen wei's song.. hahhaz.. haiz.. love tis song.. love hai tun wan lian ren too.. tis show reali touching lohz.. haiz.. sobbies.. haiz.. yeah.. think tts abt it. gtg do work ler.. if not at nite cheong like hell only.. hahahz.. kkies.. free den blog again bax.. take care yah.. muackiees.. >.^

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at 5/10/2004 06:04:00 PM

Sunday, May 09, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! miss my blog worx.. its been 2 days since i blog.. sorry yah.. din find the time to blog.. my time n schedule is very uptight.. heex.. sorrie.. kkies.. 2 days back things finally got well btween my love n i.. i'm very happy.. things went well btween me and him ytd too.. reali glad lohz.. kkies.. on friday, we went to watch VanHellsing in the aftn.. den since evening, we've been slacking till nites lohz.. hahax.. kkies.. den ytd.. i was out in the morn abt 11am lohz.. den was all alone till abt 2plus, den i felt reali bored den called terrence.. den went up to his hse.. den frm his living room the window can see dear's hse worx.. hahahz.. so funny.. very very cute worx.. hahahz.. den aft tt, dear came up to terrence hse oso.. den kkies lohz.. ard 4 we went to tamp to make terrence's specs.. den they wento play bball.. hahaz.. den.. slack ard wif dear alone for awhile lohz.. den okies lohz.. den dear sent home.. hahaz.. yeah.. reali quite enjoyable for the past 2 days.. hahhaz.. hmm.. actuali today suppose to go malaysia de.. but in the end, i din go.. not feeling very well.. so stay at home be guard dog.. hahahz.. haiz.. stupid manz.. my msn broke down.. haiz.. cannot chat online.. sianz 1/2.. think... i'll die soon.. hahhaz.. kkies.. needa go do lotsa things ler.. needa prepare dear's 6 mths anni pressie.. den mid-yr coming in another 2-3 days time.. fuck man.. sianz.. haiz.. kkies.. going off ler.. take care yah.. miss ya lotz.. muackieeees.. >.^ peaCe oUtz

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at 5/09/2004 01:40:00 PM

Friday, May 07, 2004
k0nNcHiwA!! haax.. juz got home not long ago.. at abt 11pm den reach home.. hahax.. went out wif dear dear.. hahax.. but din reali go anywhere.. just slack ard pasir ris.. hahaz.. not bad larhx.. quite an enjoyable day too.. hahax.. den in the aftn, we went to watch Van Hellsing.. yeah.. quite a nice show.. haax.. yupz.. tts roughly wad happen lohz.. finally.. reali FINALLY, things are getting better btween me n him lohz.. reali much better.. hahax.. happy worx.. haiz.. kkies.. continue tml.. muz tok him into his slp.. hahax.. take care.. muaxkz.. nites.. >.^

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at 5/07/2004 11:38:00 PM

Thursday, May 06, 2004
konnichiwa.. haiz.. kkies.. tis shld be the 2nd time i blog today.. tis piece mahz.. might be a lil different lohz.. haiz.. ytd bax.. we quarreled again.. but as evening is falling, things got better btween us.. but.. haiz.. today.. or shld i say.. juz not long ago.. tt few mins only.. he was on the fone wif me.. he told me tt he've lose trust in me.. he find it all so fake of wadever i've said.. perhapz.. shld i say tt.. time is some how or rather's up?? mayb.. we shld say good bye here huhx?? all along, i've been the one having problems and thinking too much.. tis is the very first time he's telling me tt he dun blief wad i say.. wadever i've heard frm him, has seriously gave me a total disblief cum shocked.. can nvr blief tt.. but yes.. i wasnt wrong abt it.. its him who's telling me or all those words tt hurt me so very deeply again.. juz as i tot things got better, we will b able to stop all the quarrels and stuffz, all tis happened out of nowhere.. wad can i do?? i reali haf no idea.. i reali haf no idea.. its so hurting.. but.. yeah.. there's seems to be nth for me to do but to accept tis truth.. isnt it?? avoids, quarrels, problems haf owaes been happening btween me and him.. if there's reali a day whereby there's no other way but to part so tt he'll be happier, no matter how much its gonna hurt me, i'll let him go.. i will.. for the sake of his happiness, i'm willing to gif all i haf........ sorry.. but the tears cant stop.. reali cant.. the qns cant seems to stop flooding my mind too.. i'm reali sorry.... sorry if i ever needa let u go.. i reali dun wish to.. but if there's a need, i will.. sorry my love......

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at 5/06/2004 10:28:00 PM

k0nNicHiwA!!! haiz.. thou things btween me and dear are getting better liao le.. but.. haiz.. sch's now another problem.. perhapz like wad de shun says.. dun get too close wif anyone in my sch.. haiz.. hmm.. anws.. feeling reali bored.. reali reali bored.. i'm not out today.. but will be out tml or saturday bax.. muz fnsh up everything within tml and saturday.. cos sunday i'm going malaysia.. frm morn till nites.. so.. muz fnsh up my art cum homework within tis 3 days including today lohz.. haiz.. sianz... wad to do.. wad to do?? haiz.. sianz 1/2.. life kinda sucks.. huhx??

Ta Hai Shi Bu Dong - S.h.E

yao yong shen me. bei zi dou yi jing kong le. bi shang yan jing xin li xia qi da xue. tian han you di dong. shi bu shi dao le. ai qing jie zhang de shi hou. zhi sheng xia ge zi mai dan de ji mo. wei shen me dang wo tui kai men. ta mei you lai la zhu wo. ta hai bu dong. hai shi bu dong. li kai shi xiang yao bei wan liu. ru guo kai kou na zhi shi. wo yao lai de wen rou. ta hai bu dong. yong yuan bu dong. yi ge yong bao neng dai ti suo you. ai jue dui neng gou dong yao wo.
yao yong shen me. rong hua zhi yi pian chen mo. zai si zhou de leng kong qi li tan xi. hua chen yan piao zou. guo qu de zhong zhong. zai xin li gun chen xue qiu. pa hai mei shuo hua lei jiu hui xian liu. ai bu shi ta gei de bu duo. shi bu zhi dao wo yao shen me. ta hai bu dong. hai shi bu dong. li kai shi xiang yao bei wan liu. ru guo kai kou na zhi shi. wo yao lai de wen rou. ta hai bu dong. yong yuan bu dong. yi ge yong bao neng dai ti suo you. ai jue dui neng gou dong yao wo.
dou shi bei le tai duo de xin yuan. liu xing cai hui die de na me zhong. ai yao duo xin ye you. zui hui de shi hou. ta hai bu dong. hai shi bu dong. li kai shi xiang yao bei wan liu. ru guo kai kou na zhi shi. wo yao lai de wen rou. ta hai bu dong. yong yuan bu dong. yi ge yong bao neng dai ti suo you. ai jue dui neng gou dong yao wo. zai di yi shi jian zhen jiu wo..

love tis song man.. ohh yeah!! hahahz.. yupz.. tts abt it.. haiz.. feeling so sianz worz.. hahahz.. wait till got more lyrics den come blog again lohz.. wahahahz.. hahahz.. kkies.. go off ler.. go find lyrics ler.. bbubbuaiz... take care worx.. muacKieeEeeEeeEx!! >.^ pEacE oUt!!

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at 5/06/2004 04:28:00 PM

Wednesday, May 05, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. back again.. sianz 1/2.. hmm.. anws.. went out today again.. wento return library books for my second sis as well as to go out and slack.. met dear dear.. haiz.. actuali things went quite well at the bginning.. but we still end up quarreling.. haiz.. sianz lorz.. den.. haiz.. aft tt.. we went to tok and settle everything lorx.. den was lyk.. kkies.. settle lorx.. tok lorx.. den things goes better lorx.. not bad lahz.. haiz.. things owaes lidat de lorx.. everytime lidat de.. but reali hate the quarrels lorx.. sianz 1/2.. haiz.. den was toking abt .jac. tt matter again lorz.. finally settle tt problem.. haiz.. FINALLY.. haax.. kinda happy.. haiz.. so.. haiz.. kkies.. for now.. i only hope tt nth will go wrong anymore.. reali hope tt nth will go wrong anymore.. haiz.. kkies.. guess i gtg again.. go watch show lohz... muahahhaz.. kkies.. take care yah frens.. miss ya.. muackieex.. ^oYasUmI naSaI^

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at 5/05/2004 10:46:00 PM

yeah.. listening to 陶吉吉's - 流沙.. haax.. nice song huhx?? next one is Ai Hen Jian Dan n then Ji Mo De Ji Jie.. haax.. haiz.. listen until wanna cry.. haax.. kkies.. today got exam.. tts y home so earli.. hahahz.. today gif me a feeling of primary sch lohz.. lolz.. hhaaz.. kkies.. ytd was reali damn pissed.. today got exam so some sort of put it aside lohz.. haiz.. cant afford to fail my exam bcos of tis one person whom i'm not hapi wif rites? haiz.. last nite.. tired... but.. didnt went to slp.. haax.. sms wif dear dear.. den later he ended the conversation den chatted wif willie lohz.. chat awhile too.. den watch hai tun wan lian ren.. the show very touching.. sad sia.. its like.. lanz eh.. super romantic lohz.. haiz.. zerya n xiao ping gai.. hahhaz.. so cutes lorz.. haiz.. so sad the show.. haiz.. den guessed i slept at abt 2plus in the morn bax.. haahaz.. haiz.. tired sia.. juz now write compo write until fall aslp.. luckily raining.. the noise wake me up.. hahahz.. not bad worx.. haax.. haiz.. sianz.. ytd nite run fever again.. sianz sia.. scared tonite oso lidat den i reali die.. dun need to slp ler.. haiz.. later going out worx.. needa help jie return books.. as well as to like come out 'san san xin'.. hahhaz.. reali feel very troubled lorx.. so.. 'ou er' take a break is good de.. haax.. haiz.. kkies.. go bathe ler.. bubbuaiz.. >.^

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at 5/05/2004 01:27:00 PM

Tuesday, May 04, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haax.. back finally.. haiz.. +God bless tt the internet wont gif me any problem when i blogs.. thanks!+ haiz.. internet's having problem.. my life's is in a total mess??? haiz.. sianz 1/2.. ytd mahz.. went to pasir ris thou dear wasnt able to meet me.. feeling very confused.. needed pple to clear my doubts, so.. i've called de shun n linkin out.. we met at 3pm.. and fnsh our conversation at 6pm.. was asking them things abt .natasha. n seeking opinions n advices frm em abt .jac.. kkies.. our conversation din started off well.. i was sumhow stuttering.. but.. as time passes, i feel more relaxed aft toking den qns i wanna ask, things i wanna get clear off simply jus flow out of my mouth like how tap water runs out frm the tap.. haiz.. i sumhow got clear the whole idea of wad haf been happening all the while.. since the time when he's wif .natasha., till the period of time when he was close wif .jac... for .natasha. tt matter, like wad i've owaes said.. -the past is the past.. if u can nvr let go of ur past, u can nvr grab hold of the future..- so.. abt .natasha., i've let it go.. since i dunno her n i dunno him at tt period of time.. so.. let it b lahz.. haax.. *i very good de kkies.. i'm not reali tt SMALL CHICKEN!!* hhax..
but aft all.. i'm still a lil worried over the other matter.. its like.. i reali cant get it clear.. and cant get it out of my head.. still rmb it very very xtremely clear.. the day when jac was wif me to meet dear, they were so quiet off when they met.. its like.. i'm doing all entertaining lorx.. but.. wad.. u guess.. close to a week or 2 later, they can actuali go out together alone n they sum how enjoyed being together.. and how i get to noe tis.. was bcos.. my fren working at tamp mall the toy shop?? and got another fren working at ice lemon tee lohz.. so was like.. kkies.. they saw them together and ask me lohz.. so was like.. haiz.. din expected it lohz.. frm wad i heard frm both of em was .jac. was upset or depressed or dunno wad bcos of calvin's matter den ask dear out de.. den can u imagine tt?? they dunno each other well.. and summore.. why cant SHE call her frens to tok abt it.. why MUST it be dear?? correct?? doesnt tt make any sense??!! perhapz i've look at the matter and HER too easily.. like wad i've been advice, -nvr to trust somebody completely when just noe him or her- but i just din heed the advice.. kinda regret now.. haiz.. but.. frm wad i feel.. there's surely got to b a reason bhind all tis tt SHE did it all.. analysis it properly, u guys wud noe de.. haiz.. den.. pple who loves HER so god damn much was telling me frm his own mouth tt she's going ard telling pple tt me and my dear haf broke up.. haiz.. wad's the reason bhind all tis?? i reali dun understand.. first, she was LYING to me and almost everyone tt she's going out wif her frens or primary school frens when she actuali ASKED dear out.. just dun understand why does SHE likes to seduce or shld i put it in a more soothing way to say tt she's actuali GOING OUT WIF HER FRENS, and lemme EMPHASIS on TIS.. she's going out wif HER OWN FRENS' BOIFREN.. who else can she blame but herself for letting things to end up all tis way?? who else can she blame, i ask u?? second, she was ONCE AGAIN LYING tt she's fren of peggy, meiting, mel mel and co.. haiz.. i dun understand her.. and lastly.. she's now BACK ON STRIKE.. telling everyone tt i've broken up wif dear dear.. kkies.. tis JOKE of HERS is far TOO MUCH ler.. things btween me n dear dear arent going on very well.. so.. pls.. pls STOP ALL THOSE NONSENSE OF URS!! seriously arx.. wad does she gain frm doing all these?? she'll gain nth but HATREDS frm her frens aft all tis haf ended.. or perhapx she did all tis just for the sake of ATTENTION?? i dun deny tt there are pple doing all tis just for the sake of ATTENTION.. so.. haiz.. perhapz she's one of those pple huhx? who noes anw.. hahhaz.. haiz.. things U're facing now, is just the CONSEQUENCES of wad U've done to others.. so.. if U're waiting for a MIRACLE to happen, i guess U'll just haf to WAIT.. if not, i JUST HOPE tt U will stop all tis NONSENSE.. aftall, the pple whom U haf to blame is just only 3 people n no one else.. and lemme tell U who are they.. the 3 pple are 'u', 'urself' and JUST 'U'!! got it??
kkies.. i'm aready pissed enuff.. so.. guess i've gotta stop here.. below is the msn conversation history of me and zhong hua..
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| Session Start: 02 May 2004 |
| Participants: |
| ...eN | nEeDeD u tHe m0sT?fOrgEt |t.* (myst3ry1804@hotmail.com) |
| ???,???,?????...???1314 (chenzhonghua_hero@hotmail.com) |
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[15:43:52] ???,???,????: halo
[15:44:05] *p|gp|g // o: yeah
[15:44:09] *p|gp|g // o: no mood to tok today
[15:44:10] *p|gp|g // o: kkies
[15:44:17] *p|gp|g // o: eeee
[15:44:21] *p|gp|g // o: who's tt
[15:44:22] *p|gp|g // o: ?
[15:44:35] *p|gp|g // o: oi
[15:44:36] *p|gp|g // o: oi
[15:44:37] *p|gp|g // o: oi
[15:44:43] *p|gp|g // o: zhong hua
[15:44:44] *p|gp|g // o: !!!
[15:44:49] ???,???,????: whats up
[15:44:57] *p|gp|g // o: ur display pic who?
[15:45:01] *p|gp|g // o: jacqueline arx?
[15:45:07] ???,???,????: jac, my dear
[15:45:13] *p|gp|g // o: huhx?
[15:45:15] *p|gp|g // o: ur deae?
[15:45:18] *p|gp|g // o: *dear
[15:45:24] *p|gp|g // o: u all stead mehz?
[15:45:42] ???,???,????: no lah , she gt stead already
[15:45:48] *p|gp|g // o: cheys
[15:45:49] *p|gp|g // o: fine
[15:45:51] *p|gp|g // o: tts all
[15:45:52] *p|gp|g // o: kkies
[15:45:53] *p|gp|g // o: buaiz
[15:46:08] ???,???,????: so fast
[15:46:24] *p|gp|g // o: no mood to tok lahz
[15:46:30] *p|gp|g // o: go tok to ur dear jac
[15:46:50] ???,???,????: she is nw in her dream
[15:46:56] ???,???,????: sleeping
[15:46:56] *p|gp|g // o: kies
[15:46:57] *p|gp|g // o: wadever
[15:47:05] *p|gp|g // o: none of my buisness
[15:47:26] ???,???,????: SIA LA
[15:47:31] *p|gp|g // o: wad
[15:47:42] *p|gp|g // o: wadever she do is NONE OF MY BUISNESS
[15:47:43] ???,???,????: SIA LA
[15:47:47] *p|gp|g // o: pls get tt clear
[15:47:48] *p|gp|g // o: thx
[15:48:08] ???,???,????: U dunn like her
[15:48:20] *p|gp|g // o: alrites arx
[15:48:22] *p|gp|g // o: okies
[15:48:27] *p|gp|g // o: to make it simple
[15:48:32] *p|gp|g // o: she hates me and i hates her too
[15:48:54] ???,???,????: why she hate u so much
[15:49:12] *p|gp|g // o: dunno
[15:49:15] *p|gp|g // o: u go ask her
[15:49:18] *p|gp|g // o: why ask me
[15:49:21] *p|gp|g // o: she sux kkies
[15:53:46] ???,???,????: WALAU
[15:53:57] *p|gp|g // o: wad
[15:53:58] *p|gp|g // o: pla
[15:54:04] ???,???,????: how can u like tat sad her
[15:54:15] *p|gp|g // o: if i reali hate sum1, i'll hate him or her to
the core..
[15:54:23] *p|gp|g // o: and i guess u understand wad i writing ritex
[15:54:59] ???,???,????: SIA A
[15:55:25] ???,???,????: wwww.flashw.com
[15:55:48] ???,???,????: www.flashw.com
[15:55:58] *p|gp|g // o: for wad go there
[15:56:00] *p|gp|g // o: i no mood
[15:56:45] ???,???,????: u go there , u will have mood already
[15:57:03] ???,???,????: really, it is very fun
[15:57:11] *p|gp|g // o: nopes
[15:57:13] *p|gp|g // o: no mood
[15:57:19] *p|gp|g // o: i now headache arx
[15:57:28] *p|gp|g // o: see her picture see until i headach
[15:57:52] ???,???,????: i thought u break with ur boyfriend
[15:58:01] *p|gp|g // o: no
[15:58:03] *p|gp|g // o: since when?
[15:58:26] *p|gp|g // o: and yah
[15:58:42] *p|gp|g // o: who's tt biggie fishie mouth said tt??
[15:58:43] ???,???,????: really mah
[15:58:54] ???,???,????: u break with him
[15:59:00] *p|gp|g // o: yayayz
[15:59:03] *p|gp|g // o: ya ya ya
[15:59:05] *p|gp|g // o: wadever
[15:59:07] *p|gp|g // o: up to u kkies
[15:59:11] *p|gp|g // o: i broke up wif him
[15:59:14] *p|gp|g // o: i broke up wif him
[15:59:41] ???,???,????: hahaa
[15:59:54] ???,???,????: relax
[16:00:19] ???,???,????: but anyway do urreally break
[16:00:23] ???,???,????: jac, my dear tell me
[16:00:27] *p|gp|g // o: oohz.. break ler
[16:00:29] *p|gp|g // o: break ler
[16:00:31] *p|gp|g // o: kkies
[16:00:37] *p|gp|g // o: wadever u say is correct
[16:00:42] *p|gp|g // o: so dun bother to ask me anything
[16:01:12] ???,???,????: sorry, forgive me pls
[16:01:24] ???,???,????: dunn angry with me
[16:01:35] *p|gp|g // o: no
[16:01:39] *p|gp|g // o: since when i angry
[16:01:51] ???,???,????: thats gd
[16:02:50] ???,???,????: u go the website already
[16:03:36] *p|gp|g // o: no
[16:03:51] ???,???,????: why leh
[16:05:40] *p|gp|g // o: no mood
[16:05:47] *p|gp|g // o: ask UR jac go larhx
[16:06:11] ???,???,????: i tell u , she nw sleeping
[16:06:18] *p|gp|g // o: kies wadever
[16:06:20] *p|gp|g // o: kies
[16:06:25] *p|gp|g // o: dun bother telling me anything abt her
[16:06:28] *p|gp|g // o: kkies
[16:06:33] ???,???,????: ok
[16:06:44] *p|gp|g // o: there's nth i wanna be involved wif her
[16:07:07] ???,???,????: i think it is better 4 me to change the pic
[16:07:42] *p|gp|g // o: yah
[16:07:44] *p|gp|g // o: u better do
[16:08:17] ???,???,????: hpy nw
[16:08:49] *p|gp|g // o: yeah
[16:11:42] ???,???,????: faster
[16:11:51] You have declined the invitation to start Hexic.
[16:11:58] *p|gp|g // o: no mood larhx
[16:12:07] *p|gp|g // o: dun ask me to do things i dun lyk when i not
in the mood
[16:12:10] ???,???,????: walau
[16:12:47] ???,???,????: oic, then i dunn disturb u anymore
[16:12:50] ???,???,????: buaiz
[16:12:58] *p|gp|g // o: buaiz
yeah.. the conversation end lidat.. so.. belief it or not.. up to u guys.. take care yah.. bubbuaiz..

[missed you`]
at 5/04/2004 04:08:00 PM

Sunday, May 02, 2004
oH yaH.. i'm back.. in a TERRIBLE mood.. so decided to blog AGAIN.. since there's nth i can do to entertain myself.. and since there's no possibility for sum1 to haf NTH to do at all.. kkies.. pls get tis clear.. haiz.. kkies.. i'm in terrible mood.. real terrible mood.. my diary today oso all abt upset stuffx.. so was lyk.. kkies.. i'm in a real TERRIBLE moood... haiz.. fine.. forget it.. no one cares abt me anws.. so kkies.. let me shut tis nonsense up.. reali bad mood.. now got another biggie fishie mouth going ard telling pple i broke up wif jo.. oh.. okies.. yeah.. i broke up wif him huhx.. break lohz.. hhahaz.. haax.. kkies.. and... yups.. to those idiots, read wad's below.. jus for u.. and only u!!! YOU!!
[t0 sUm pPlE wHoM i haTe..wHeN u sEe tIs bLoG..pLs geT stH cLeaR..waDeveR u eNjoY doinG juSt g0 aHeaD anD d0..i woNt saY anyThinG, neIthEr wUd i d0 anyThinG..i'vE giVeN uP oN evEryThinG..s0 if u'rE tHinKinG t0 d0 sTh baD, jUsT g0 aHeaD..i wOnT sToP u..kKiEs..bItcH!!kKieS..u bItcH..i haTe u t0 tHe cOrE..anD pLs geT tiS iNt0 uR bLo0dY bRaIn tT i haTe u!!sTupId bLo0dY bItcH.]
yeah.. haiz.. juz type all those words tt are not soothing to the ear to sum bitches out there who haf been pissing me off all times.. doing things so very bloody obvious yet in turn telling me the opposite.. hahhaz.. bitch huhx??
kkies.. and yeah.. life sucks.. with or without a stead, life still sucks for me.. tts how i feel.. things changed.. pple changed... and bcos of tt, lemme tell ya.. life sucks for me.. sheesh.. things are now getting frm bad to worst.. kkies.. and yah.. its getting frm bad to worst.. reali getting frm bad to worst.. hahhahz.. kkies.. cannot blame lahz.. when time's up, things simply dun go the way we wan it to be.. so.. kkies.. its heaven will.. too bad larhx.. who ask me to haf a fucked up life.. and in my fucked up life, i meet fucked up pple.. and there goes my mood.. hahhaz.. kkiees.. today is juz not my day.. i'm simply pissed over lotsa things.. and wad hurts me most is still nth but.. u noe.. haiz.. since things btween us arent going well.. guessed i'll be hurt.. owaes be hurt.. and i guess he dunno abt it bax.. dun think he noe abt it.. and i dun think he'll EVER noe abt it.. kkies.. haax.. no one has ever understand me.. NO ONE.. kkies.. needa be alone for the time being.. gonna cry out all my sorrows.. gonna shout out all my pains.. and while doing all tis.. i'm all ALONE.. alone.. wadever he've ever once said, seems so fake.. to be wif me thru all ups and downs, lending me a listening ear, and a shoulder to cry on, he will owaes be there.. yeah.. owaes be there.. owaes huhx.. haiz.. its all simply just lies.. am i correct?? hahahz.. guess i am.. utterly disppoinnted.. freaking upset..
bye..

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at 5/02/2004 03:53:00 PM

k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. sianz 1/2.. another sunday.. i hate sundays.. sundays juz simply sux for me kkies.. its lyk.. bored until cannot bored ler.. reali arx.. sianz lehz.. haiz.. fnshed all my homework ler.. den i'm once AGAIN revising my history.. too bored to do anything larhx.. so i go revise AGAIN.. tis's the 3rd time i'm revising for history lorx.. hahahz.. dun need to scared i fail history ler.. muahahahz.. kkies.. i'm being very lame.. reali lame.. hahahz.. haiz.. sianz.. wad can i do?? i think sooner or later i'm gonna download games or join some lame activities to keep me occupied.. haf been reali sianz lorx.. my life is like no longer a life.. wad i've been doing is just like.. kkies.. going out wif dear.. den got sch go sch.. got cca den go for training.. if not i'll juz be at home slacking.. tts all.. lame bax... oh yah.. still got one more.. use the computer.. hahahz.. lame horx.. wahahahz.. kkies.. kinda hate to be tied down now.. need to gif and take.. need to bear wif things as well as having quarrels frm time to time.. and.. there are times u wud be hurt.. so its like.. kkies.. haiz.. actuali i see no difference btween a relationship and a frenship.. both needa gif and take, bear wif things as well as having quarrels.. wad a relationship haf and a frenship dun haf.. is actuali the hurting part.. a fren cant hurt u so as deeply much as ur love ones hurt u.. isnt it?? haiz.. so its like.. kkies.. being tied down haf too many things to take into consideration.. as well as too many things to worry abt.. so.. as for those who are not in a relationship, wad i've gotta say is tt.. u guys are just so lucky.. not all the times tt one wud be only happy when they are in a relationship.. it oso doesnt mean tt u needa partner to keep u accompany.. a fren oso can.. isnt it.. hahhaz.. kkies.. dunno wad's my intention of saying all these today.. perhapz.. reali tired of alot of things ler bax.. haiz.. seriously arx.. very tired worx.. *yawNs* see... see.. i'm yawning ler.. muahahahz.. kkies.. tts lame.. hahhaz.. kkies.. i'm going off ler.. wanna go back to my dream land ler.. didnt slp well for the past week.. hoping tt i will juz slp and nvr wake up again.. hahhaz.. kkies.. take care frens.. muackieex.. >.^ sIaNxXxXx =X

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at 5/02/2004 03:00:00 PM

Saturday, May 01, 2004
konnichiwa!! hahahz.. juz got home not long ago.. haax.. was out wif dear dear since 3plus till not long lohz.. aftn sux for us today.. but.. everything went well aft tt.. hahhaz.. kkies.. we went to the airport.. den went to pasir ris beach aft tt.. hahahz.. den slowly walked out of the beach.. den headed back to punggol.. den on the way home, wah.. we were super noisy on bus.. hahhaz.. den aft tt.. we went to meet terrence lohx.. den they play 1 on 2, 5 balls.. so was lyk.. kkies.. i watched.. dear power worx.. shot 3 balls at one shot.. hahhaz.. den aft he fnshed the game.. he said he send me home.. but went ard to slack again... hahhaz.. things owaes end up lidat.. hahhaz.. everytime say send me home, it'll be at least a 15mins later thing.. hahhaz.. and tts at least lohx.. hahhaz. still rmb there was once he was lyk saying send me home.. but dragged till abt an hr later den go home.. hahahz.. hmm... den he was lyk.. my dear dear is WEAK!! hahhaz.. cos... cos.. cos... kkies.. gave him kisses n huggies.. so he was lyk... *aHeM* kkies.. he said tt he was HIGH.. hahhaz.. HIGH aft all those kissing n stuffx.. oh man.. hahhaz.. he's reaction was lyk 'oH mY goD'.. hahhahaz.. oh my.. hahahz.. cant blief tt he can b HIGH juz by kissing and stuffx.. kkies man.. he's WEAK.. hahahz.. j0kiNg loVe.. hahhaz.. joking joking.. hahhaz.. yupz.. tonite was kinda enjoyable.. hahhaaz.. kkies.. going off ler.. gonna call him ler.. kkies.. take care worx.. muackies.. huggies... (>.^)v oYasUmi naSaI.. sUgaR dReaMs.. sLp tItE.. mUsT dReaM oF mE dE!! heEx..

[missed you`]
at 5/01/2004 11:42:00 PM