Friday, April 30, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! i'm back again.. haax.. happy worx.. fnsh history correction and my science thingie ler.. only left maths and chinese.. hahhaz.. haiz.. sianz.. today mahz.. kinda feel happy lohz.. cos.. aft reading thru my diaries and stuffx.. i rmbered tt today dear dear and linkin is suppose to quit smoking.. 1and 1/2 hrs later or so, it'll be a brand new 'life' for them.. hope tt i wont b dissappointed tis time round bax.. i reali wudnt noe wad i'll do if i were to hear frm them tt they are to extend the time lohz.. haiz.. oh yahz.. juz now recieved a msg frm .guoqiang. saying tt he's leaving sigapore tonite.. going to genting.. will only be back on sunday.. den ask me to take care of myself, blahz blahz blahz.. haiz.. yupz.. tts abt it.. feeling tired sia.. but.. giving dear dear a call first.. kkies.. going off ler.. will blog longer sumtime when i'm free and i guessed tt will be only aft mid-yr bax.. heex.. take care worx.. muackieex.. huggieex.. (>.^)v
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4/30/2004 10:24:00 PM
k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. it looks as if its gonna rain again.. haiz.. had a tired day since ytd.. if only i can juz slp and slp wif peace for 2 days, i wud be more than happy ler.. hahahz.. haf been yawning since dunno when till now.. reali very very tired.. haiz.. got work to do.. very sianz.. haiz.. frendster's down.. nth else to do.. unless i play gunbound or juz blog lorx.. haiz.. sianz.. reali very sianz llorz.. haiz.. time is juz passing wif every min, every sec.. leaving me alone bhing time.. haiz.. how sad.. hahhaz.. kkies.. i'm rubbishing.. hahhaz... haiz.. was quiet in sch today.. cos was reali tired.. reali reali tired.. how i wish i cud juz fall aslp in t0mat0's arms again.. tts very very comfortable.. the warmth, the love, the care is there.. hahahz.. haiz.. den now i'm bginning to recover frm my illness since 2weeks ago.. but.. haiz.. having stomach cramps n stomachaches.. guessed its bcoz of my eating diet bax... i eat ler will oso pain de.. perhapz my timing not correct lorz... haiz.. sianz.. i'm suffering at tis very moment.. hahhaz... jk yah.. haiz.. feeling so so so damn tired.. hahahz.. glad tt jie jie coming home tonite.. at least i dun haf to suffer liao ler.. hahhaz.. haiz.. miss my dear alot.. dunno why.. hahhaz.. haiz.. qns haf been flooding my mind.. tears keep wanting to flow out.. but.. i didnt.. haiz.. thinking abt so many things.. making me feeling xtremely frustrated.. sumtimes.. i juz dunno wad i'm thinking abt.. my mind seems so very blank at times.. thinking abt nth, but staring all over, looking very lost abt sth... haiz.. dunnno why larhx.. i feel reali tired.. tired in both sense.. haiz... perhapz reali needa find sum time to relax myself lorx.. hahahz.. haiz.. i reali dun wanna stress myself at tis point of time.. it'll do noone good.. esp. me.. mid-yr is coming.. i cant afford to waste anytime.. neither can i afford to do wrong things now.. i reali dun wan to haf anything to affect me for the time being.. all the way till mid-yr's over.. haiz.. but my mind is juz so very occupied wif all those qns.. haiz.. wad can i do????????? *fRusTraTeD*
haiz.. gtg liao ler.. needa spend time studying.. kkies.. take care.. ciaoZ!! >.^
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4/30/2004 01:42:00 PM
Thursday, April 29, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. got a very upset news today frrm dear dear.. haiz.. dear will b enlisted on 14 june tis yr.. sad sia.. he've gotta go in for 5 and 1/2 days to tekong.. den serve the country for 2yrs frm 8am to 5pm daily lohz.. haiz.. sianz.. haiz.... *dEeP siGh* but kkies.. tts every guy's job.. so.. guess i'll juz haf to put up wif it bax.. haiz... aft sch today, i went to jeslyn's hse for awhile to wait for him.. den went to watch 50 first dates wif him,.. tt show was cool man.. i love it.. hahahz.. very sweet show.. sweeter than honey sia.. hahahz.. hmm.. den he sent me home.. but was raining.. hahhaz.. but reali felt his warmth on the bus.. *tHanKs dEaR* heex.. hmm.. kkies.. guess will blog until lidat today bax.. feeling tired.. take care frens.. miss ya lots.. muackieex huGx!! (>.^)v
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4/29/2004 11:19:00 PM
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! hahahz.. happy worx.. juz change my whole blog again.. hahahz.. i so happy.. but very sad as i wasted the time.. actuali can take the time to go do work de.. haiz.. muz buck up ler.. aft tis, i cant use computer ler.. will b studying.. hahahz.. haiz.. time passes so slow worx.. now only 5.40pm.. hahahz.. haiz.. hope i'll haf enuff time lohz.. tml still got sch nehz.. haiz.. sianz.. anws.. reali happie lohz... managed to change my blog.. and the happiest of all, is tt... i get to put those words there ler.. muahahahz.. happie until pengz.. hahahz.. hmm.. later still wanna get the songs i wan nehz.. hmm.. 'dont cry frm mini and guer'.. tis song reali very nice.. hahahz.. hmm.. finding 'miracle' lehz.. the techno de.. but dunno frm who de.. haiz.. sianz... kkies kkies.. muz go ler.. if not no time den die.. if later i fnsh my work fast, i come blog again.. hahhaz.. take care worz.. muackies muackz.. huggies hugz.. >.^
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4/28/2004 05:38:00 PM
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! hahaz.. juz fnsh playing gunbound wif t0mat0.. killed him twice n killed me twice.. hahaz.. sianz... hmm.. wad to do.. sianz.. today in sch a lil fun.. but kinda bored as well.. fell aslp in one of the lesson.. reli tired.. din slp well for the past few nites.. abt 4 nites i din reli slp ler.. sianz.. haiz..... tired.. tired... tired..... sianz.. haiz... nth to blog larhx.. sianz sia... hmm.. anws.. very happy to see my dear today.. hahahax.. heeheex.. reali very happy lohz.. missed him alot worz.. hahahz.. kkies.. enuff ish enufff.. i'm being bo liaoz..
wU dInG - jaY cHoU n LaNdY wEn
jay - ban ye shui bu zhao jiao.ba xing qing heng cheng ge.zhi pao dao wu ding zhao ling yi ge meng jing.
landy - shui meng zhong bie qiao xing.wo hai shi bu que ding.zong hui you dong ren xuan lu zai dui mian de wu ding.wo qiao qiao guan shang men.dai zhe xi wang shang qu.yuan lai shi wo meng li chang chu xian de na ge ren.
jay - na ge ren bu jiu shi wo meng li na mo hu de ren.wo men you tong yang de mo li.you tian xie.
landy - you tian xie.ai cheng ai ni de xin zhong.wo0...zai wu ding chang zhe ni de ge.
jay - zai wu ding he wo ai de ren.
landy - rang xing xing dian zui cheng zhui lang man de ye wan.
both - yong bao zhe shi ke, zhe yi fen yi miao quan dou ting zhi.
jay - ai kai shi qiu jie.
landy - zai wu ding chang zhe ni de ge.
jay - zai wu ding he wo ai de ren.
jay - jiang fan feng dian shi gei zui gu du de ye.
both - yong bao zhe shi ke, zhe yi fen yi miao quan dou ting zhi.
jay - ai kai shi qiu jie.
both - wo you ni er mei.
jay - ban ye shui bu zhao jiao.ba xing qing heng cheng ge.zhi pao dao wu ding zhao ling yi ge meng jing.
landy - shui meng zhong bie qiao xing.wo hai shi bu que ding.zong hui you dong ren xuan lu zai dui mian de wu ding.wo qiao qiao guan shang men.dai zhe xi wang shang qu.yuan lai shi wo meng li chang chu xian de na ge ren.
jay - na ge ren bu jiu shi wo meng li na mo hu de ren.wo men you tong yang de mo qi.you tian xie.
landy - you tian xie.ai cheng ai ni de xin zhong.wo0...zai wu ding chang zhe ni de ge.
jay - zai wu ding he wo ai de ren.
landy - rang xing xing dian zui cheng zhui lang man de ye wan.
both - yong bao zhe shi ke, zhe yi fen yi miao quan dou ting zhi.
jay - ai kai shi qiu jie.
landy - zai wu ding chang zhe ni de ge.
jay - zai wu ding he wo ai de ren.
jay - jiang fan feng dian shi gei zui gu du de ye.
both - yong bao zhe shi ke, zhe yi fen yi miao quan dou ting zhi.
jay - ai kai shi qiu jie.
both - wo you ni er mei.
landy - rang wo ai ni shi shui.
jay - shi wo.
landy - rang ni ai wo shi shui.
jay - shi ni.
both - zong hui you dong ren xuan lu huan rao zai wo liang de shen bian.
landy - rang wo ai ni shi shui.
jay - shi wo.
landy - rang ni ai wo shi shui.
jay - shi ni.
both - yuan lai shi zhe wu ding you mei li de xie guo.
jay - zai wu ding chang zhe ni de ge.zai wu ding he wo ai de ren....
haiz.. go off ler lahz.. sianz... bubbuaiz... take care.. muackz.. >.^
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4/27/2004 10:09:00 PM
Monday, April 26, 2004
k0nbaNwA!! haiz.. sianz 1/2.. hmm.. big news worz.. ***cRisTaL beK aT mY hsE!!n0 woNdeR mY hsE iS iN a mEsS..waHaHaz*** haiz.. sianz 1/2.. wad to do.. hmm.. haf been eating chocolate.. den she say i cook instant noodles very nice worz.. mind u!!! instant noodles nehz.. not as if wad lidat!!! cockster!! hahahahz.. haiz.. sianz sianz sianz... [[cristal - stop sian-ing can..irritating bitch!!!]] [[ vivi - i wanna sian sian sianz oso not ur problemo.. cock cock cock!!! bleahX =PpPp]] [[cristal - i complain to MY joseph,then youi know wors..urmph..leon osho can...ae..still got neh..whoe gang wors...urmph!!!]] [[vivi - lame fark.. whole gang big fark.. i got MY... listen to me.. iTs MY!! MY!!! MY johan!!! actuali is my TOMATO lahz.. hahahz..]] [[cristal - tomato..wo hai tommy neh..chicken maniac!!]] [[vivi - is chicken MAC NUGGET can!!! lamer.. dunno how to swim say dunno how to swim.. dun say swimming trunks too big!!! bleaHx =P]] [[cristal - what dont know howta swim!?i know horx..-ben xiao jie- pro okie..i train that singapore ger national swimmer de horx..whatever's her name larhx..fark it off..SIA..where's MY joseph!!!????i want MY joseph!!!chao tao yan de neh...urmph..]] [[vivi - okies.. fark it.. stop disturbing me.. u b.i.t.c.h!!! hahahhaz.. kkies.. stop tt nonsense.. xiao zarbor.. hahahz..]] haiz.. she forgot take medicine lahz.. needa send her off soon.. if not i suffer whole nite.. wahahhaz.. kkies.. she's cocking again.. kekez.. hmm.. guess gotta send her off ler lahz.. come back later or tml lohz.. [[I WANT MY JOSEPH!!!!]] kkies.. tts frm HER??!?! hahahz.. lame... kkies.. buaiz.. take care!! >.^
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4/26/2004 06:37:00 PM
Sunday, April 25, 2004
konnichiwa!! hahaz.. glad everything's over.. got back wif him.. hahahz.. but yet.. feeling very different.. hope tt tis different feeling wud lead us to a better future.. heez.. haiz.. jiejie go overseas till next friday.. noone accompany me slp.. sobz sobz.. haiz.. sad sia.. haiz.. wad to do.. wad to do.. haiz.. sianz.. anws.. juz blog to let u guys noe tt everything's fine.. juz hope tt there wont b anymore of tis kinda nonsense lohz.. kkies.. gotta go bathe den do hw ler lahz.. tml got sch sia.. sianz.. take care yah.. muack!!
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4/25/2004 09:23:00 PM
konnichiwa... life's change... i've change... and everyone else haf oso changed... life for me now no longer seems to haf any meaning bhind it.. neither is it now worth for me to live for someone's sake le... dunno why.. i've think over alot of stuffz for the past of ytd's nite... thinking very hard... thinking xtremely hard.. i dun seems to understand anyone ler.. neither do i think tt anyone else understands me... noone exactly noes wad i'm reali thinking abt... noone noes how i'm feeling at the very moment... no one noes.. feeling so lost, so upset.... i've no idea if i cud continue to trust, and to live anot.. right now at tis very moment... my mind is all at a blank.... i dunno wad i've been doing.. neither do i noe how's life for me.. i reali seems to b following, doing everything blindly.. watching 'huan zhu ge ge' now..juz now.. very touching worz.. 'xiao yanzi' and 'wu ah ge' quarrel.. 'wu ah ge' so jealous of 'xiao jian' den pick fight wif 'xiao yanzi'... haiz.. so poor thing.. den tt 'xiao yanzi' oso.. haiz.. gif attitude.. but in the end, both gif in.. den 'wu ah ge' hug 'xiao yanzi' so tightly.. hahhaz.. so jealous worz... reali very envy of 'em.. hahaz.. so sweet couple.. hahaz... jealous worz... very very jEaLoUs!!! hahahz.. haiz.. u might say tt wad for i jealous.. but.. hahahz.. i'm juz jealous.. haiz.. feeling very very tired.. tired of so many things.. ytd had a quarrel wif him.. since 10plus quarrel till 2am.. haiz... reali dunno wad's the problem wif me........ its all my fault.. reali all my fault.. i've nth to say... if i'm given one wish now tt wud definitely come true, tt wish will be i'll nvr wanna get to noe him... speaking frankly.. aft we've been together, i've nvr once bring him no troubles, no worries.. everyday, i've been giving him troubles.. reali hate to hurt him.. to see him so hurt.. to see and to know tt he's feeling very insecure... i reali hate myself for treating my love one like tis.. however....................... i reali hate to noe the truth.. i reali hate to noe the truth.. i juz simply HATE my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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4/25/2004 11:37:00 AM
Saturday, April 24, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. as the day time is turning into nite sky.. i'm starting to feel very lost.. very lonely w/o him by me.. feel as if i blongs to noone but myself.. i hate the nite time.. and i'll juz hate it till the day we meet again.. hate tis feeling.. i hate tis moment.. tis very moment.. haiz.................
its been kinda tiring worz.. haf been facing nth but books and books and juz books for the whole aftn.. haiz.. feeling very tired.. if only my sch is not so kiasu horz, my work load will be lighter and i shld haf long ago fnsh my revision le lohz.. haiz.. stupid sch.. haiz.. miss my dear alot worz.. din reali contact him lohz.. since morn till now, only receive 4 msges frm him.. 2 in the morn, and the other 2 was only juz.. haiz.. din reali tok much.. only remind me to eat blah blah blah.. yupz.. tts abt it.. haiz.. wonder if i can pull myself thru tis 2wks plus not.. hahhaz.. haiz.. kinda sad worz.. ray juz recieve his army enlist notification.. he's gonna b enlist on 24th of june.. haiz.. tts exactly 2 mths frm now.. wonder how will peirong pull herself thru tt 2 1/2 yrs.. hahahz.. haiz.. feeling sad for both of em.. haiz.. dunno why.. but my heart juz seems so numb since ytd.. feeling very numb.. i cud hardly feel anything.. its lyk.. haiz.. feeling very upset abt it.. wondering wad i'm thinking actuali.. seriously, i've no idea wad has been going on for the past wks or even mths..it juz seems lyk i'm doing everything so blindly tt i feel nth when there are things tt wud juz hurt me so god damn much the last time.. haiz.. reali dunno wad haf been going on.. everything seems so fake to me.. and tts how i feel now.. feeling so lost.. i'm reali lost.. not knowing wad to do.. i guessed i've juz do everything blindly.. no matter its right or wrong, black or white.. haiz.. needed sum1 to b there wif me so much now.. but all by me was noone but me.. needed a shoulder for me to cry on now.. but i see no one's shoulders but only mine.. needed sum1 to lend me their listening ears now.. but i see noone but me and only me.. i'm living in a world of only me, myself and i.. i cud see noone.. i cud feel noone's existance.. it juz seems lyk i'm all alone now.. there r so many decisions i muz make.. but all are so very tough.. haf been wondering all day and nite, nite and day.. but i juz see no answer, hear no answer and i cudnt make any decisions.. wondering wad am i suppose to do.. perhapz.. lyk wad they say.. live life alone happily.. rather than to coop urself in tis small lil cage.. hahaz.. haiz.. dunno lahz.. i'm thinking.. and juz thinking.. hoping tt the answer wud juz drop down frm the sky.. gtg ler.. needa ctn wif my revision.. take care.. muackz..
^t0 La0g0nG..reaLi miSs u aLoT..iTs onLy a daY, noT evEn a niTe..i oReaDi fEeL s0 loSt w/o u bY mY siDe..rEaLi duNno waD i'LL d0 iF i weRe t0 losE u onE daY..i n0e tT aLL tHis dEciSioNs maDe arE noT waD wE caN aVoiD..iT juS seEms tT iTs a muSt tT wE muSt bE aPaRt foR tIs feW wKs..i uNdeRsTanD..n i bLamE n0onE abT iT..aNws..d0 taKe caRe oF uRselF..rMb t0 eaT..miSs u LoTs..mUacKs..^
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4/24/2004 05:26:00 PM
k0nNicHiwA!! haiz.. sianz.. today is my dad's bdae.. as well as its the day i start my revision for mid-yr.. ytd was the last time i went out wif jo.. and shld b the last time i will b going out wif him till mid-yr's over.. haiz.. feeling so sad.. very upset.. wont be meeting him for abt 3wks bax.. he's exams are coming oso.. and so are mine.. so.. planned not to meet so tt we'll haf the time to revise lohz.. haiz.. dunno wad will happen in btween tis 3wks or so.. haiz.. guess the feeling will be like.... very lonely bax.. hahhaz.. haiz.. i din reali plan how to study lohz.. aand i dunno which subject shld i revise first.. haiz.. its kinda ridiculous bax.. wanna study but din make any plan abt it.. hahhaz.. haiz.. perhapz later den start planning bax.. hahhaz.. haiz... reali miss him alot lohz.. when we part ytd nite, lotsa qns flooded my mind.. and water fillled my eyes.. the feeling was terrible.. it juz feel the same when u wanna cry but the tears juz wont flow.. haiz.. i'm thinking.. how can i.. how can i survive thru tis few wks.. perhapz.. aft 1 wk or so, i'll get used to it bax.. everything takes time to adapt to it.. isnt it?? so.. perhapz.. aft tis 3wks of not meeting each other, i wud haf no problem wif not meeting him for 3mths aft he gets in for ns training bax.. hahahz.. haiz.. going steady wif a guy who has not gone for ns yet, but haf to go in for training and stuff pretty soon, u'll haf to bear wif all tis.. isnt it?? time is all it takes.. time passes, so by counting every sec, every min, i guess it'll be soon tt i'm able to see him lohz.. haiz.. kkies.. shldnt say anymore.. dun feel lyk dropping any tears today.. suppose to study mahz.. so.. kkies.. going off le lahz.. bubbuaiz.. miss ya.. muacks..
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4/24/2004 11:50:00 AM
Thursday, April 22, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! hmm.. today had netball training.. lotsa things happened as well.. calla and sofia were found btraying all of us all the time.. and its all of us.. including the sec2s as well as me and cris.. haiz.. den deardear was suppose to fetch me today.. and he planned to come.. but i found out tt he was sick, so din let him come over.. let him stay at home and rest lohz.. kkies.. tts roughly wad happened today.. haiz.. however.. netball training today was kinda fun.. thou i dreaded to go at the bginning.. alicia haf quit netball.. kies........ hmm.. today when we started playing game wif the seniors.. den it started drizzling.. den was lyk.. aft styop drizzling den we continued.. but guess wad?? jiahao and another guy joiined in the game.. hahahz.. fun sia.. jiahao was lyk so monkey yet so gong.. hhahahz... den both were complaining tt netball very difficult to play.. hahhaz..jiahao n i, carol blahz blahz same team.. den the other guy and kaly n co. same team.. den jiahao pass ball very power de nehz.. hahhahz.. not bad lahz.. managed to tok to him.. hahhaz.. he sound very cute as well.. hahhaz.. den he was toking toking toking.. acting aqua.. den making the whole team laugh until pengz.. hahhaz.. not bad guy actuali.. hahahz.. hmm.. tts abt it lohz.. tml going out wid deardear aft the giving leaflets thingie.. haiz.. lame sia.. hahahz.. cant blief i'm doing tt anws.. hahahz.. kkies lahz.. gtg liaoz le.. take care worz... muacks..
t0 La0gOnG..d0 taKe xTrA,xTreMe,ultRa,uLtiMaTeLy go0d caRe oF uRseLf pLeaSe..miSs u aLoT..LovInG u aS owAeS dE La0pO wiLL b heRe tHrU aLL tHicK n tHinS dE.. leT mE, uR la0pO sHoweR u wiF mY swTesT kIsSes n waRmesT hUgGieS n h0pinG tT tHeY wuD laSt anD sTaY wiF u tHrU uR liFe..mUacKz!!! >.^
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4/22/2004 08:17:00 PM
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
k0nNicHiwA!! haIz.. sianz 1/2.. today nth much happen lohz.. bored sia.. keep coughing.. haiz.. sianz.. today whole day nvr see my dear.. sianz u noe.. +La0goNg!! i mIsS y0u!! rEaLi miSs u aLoT laRhx.. haIx.. wHeN dEn caN sEe u aGaIn???!?! haIx..+ miss him alot lohz.. haiz.. and yah.. sianz.. tml got netball again.. sianz sianz... dying le still needa go.. hahahz.. haiz.. oh yah.. today at compass point super funnie.. was toking abt jasmine and huiling, yao kiat(sp??!?) and pple.. den knew lotsa things lohz.. hahhaz.. yupz.. tts abt it lohz.. all i wanna say is juz...:
'dEaR, l0vE, swThEaRt, La0goNg!! uR la0pO miSsEs u aLoT..h0pE t0 sEe u s0oN.. rEaLi rEaLi miSs u s0 muCh.. s0 mUcH tT i fEeL s0 tErRibLe.. miSs u.. mUacKz.. '
yupz.. tts all.. gtg ler.. take care.. buai buaiz.. muackz..
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4/21/2004 08:19:00 PM
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
k0nNicHiwA.. i'm back.. hahahz.. hmm.. had netball training today.. sianz u noe.. actuali sini and me dun wan go de.. but.. haiz.. no choice.. seniors saw us.. dun go will kena complain de.. haiz.. den its lyk.. training frm 3.30 to 5 lohz.. actuali to 4.55 onli.. kekez.. haiz.. seniors everytime eat sec ones de.. so dreaded to go training.. understand?? hahahz.. hmm... i join netball is to learn skills de.. but they cheat, wad can i learn frm all the unfair treatment?? haiz.. sianz.. it seems no point to join oso.. hmm.. and yupz.. was kinda happy today.. dear came to fetch me frm sch today.. hahhaz... hmm.. den.. hmm.. had lotsa fun.. hahhaz.. hmm... he arx.. gonecase.. dunno wad to say.. hmm.. actuali netball today was kinda fun lohz.. got kaly arx.. sini arx.. xue ru arx.. blarhx blarhx blarhx.. den was toking toking toking.. so not bad lahz.. hahhz.. hmm.. den heard frm cristal.. eunice frm 1c go diao sofia n co.. den ask cristal to help her settle lohz.. haiz.. now the cristal oso.. haiz.. everytime lyk finding taiji one lorz.. haiz.. she eat too full nth to do.. hahhaz.. haiz.. sianz 1/2.. hmm.. kkies.. gotx work to do.. go bathe first den go do homework.. den call dear dear... take care yahz.. miss ya lots.. muackies n huggies.!!
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4/20/2004 07:56:00 PM
Monday, April 19, 2004
k0nNicHiwA.. haHaz.. very hapi wif my frenster.. having more frens.. kekeks.. den got lotsa testi(s).. hahahz.. all of em kinda protective worz.. say if boiboi ever bully me den he'll get it.. hahahz.. but i noe he wont.. even if he has the world's boldest heart, he oso wont dare to bully me de.. ritez dear?? hahahhz.. actuali not dun dare lahz.. is he too very good tt he cant bully me.. tts all.. hahhaz.. hmm.. guessed he was hapi today too.. i bought him his favourites.. famous amos cookies.. hahhaz.. he ate it bit by bit.. still counting the chocolate bits in the cookie.. he's so cute.. isnt he.. hahahz.. looking at him smiling is juz so heavenly man.. hahhaz.. his smile, his laughters juz brightened my day.. =) den everytime see him eat only will see his smily face.. dunno why.. but he told me tt he juz feel so damn hapi juz by eating lorz.. hhahaz.. cute lil boi i haf here wif me owaes.. hahahz.. hmm.. feeling tired.. hahahz.. but was very hapi.. get to see him today.. but we'll b meeting less soon.. cos both of us got exam... he needa study and i needa study as well.. haiz... sobbies sobz.. haiz.. oh yah.. today was kinda sway day for me too.. sianz u noe.. its lyk.. xtra xtreme ultra ultimately sway lorz.. cos its lyk.. we taking 89 frm outside downtown east tt busstop mahz.. den saw my pr6 chi tcher.. mdm low pheck swan.. liu lao shi kkies.. den i din saw her at first.. only i until i heard her saying my name... my chinese name.. den when i turned, she was lyk staring xtreme hard lohz.. cos i was sitting on boiboi's lap.. den she stared for quite a time den she asked me go over.. den she was lyk asking tis, asking tt.. very sianz u noe.. haiz.. why so sway.. will meet until her.. sianz 1/2.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. kkies.. den at compass pt.. saw tt few sec2s couples.. sini n love, sum others i dunno de.. and wads her name arx......... tt one... my netball de larhz.. haiz... yahz.. xue ru and love.. hahahz.. hmm.. den when they saw me and boiboi they was lyk... kkies.. hahhaz.. den alicia still wan intro nehz.. funny sia.. hahahhz.. den boiboi was lyk paiseh until lyk tomato lorz.. kekekz.. haiz.. hmm... tts roughly wad happened today.. nth much.. anw... gtg liaoz lahz.. go do homework.. den go bathe.. den call love.. hahahz.. take care frens.. miss ya lotz.. muackies n huggies..
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4/19/2004 07:45:00 PM
Sunday, April 18, 2004
koNnicHiwA!! hmm.. juz came home not long ago in the morn at abt 11.. tired nehz.. din had a good nite ytd.. was outside at pasir ris beach wif jo,linkin,terrence,deshun,jeslyn and phebe.. celebrating my bdae.. hahahz.. yupz.. haiz.. kinda funny lorhz.. we met at ard 3plus 4.. den was lyk.. kies... went to the beach.. cake lahz.. food lahz.. all laid out ler.. hahhaz.. den.. they were lyk singing the bdae song, asking me to blow off the candles how many times lohz.. den.. aft cutting the cake.. i sway.. all take cake and aim me.. chicken.. den my hair lahz, face larhz, shirt lahz.. all tio.. kns.. den.. actuali all aim me oni.. den dunno terrence arx.. started playing wif jo.. den in the end, everyone tio.. den everyone was smelling of cream lohz.. so disgusting sia.. den down there tok tok, play play.. until today lorhz.. si bei funnie sia.. hahahz... haiz.. hmm.. was quite an enjoyable one.. but.. haiz.. i kena bluff.. all bluff me say cannot make it.. but in the end all got go.. hahhaz.. den ton at pasir ris beach.. den me and jo took the tent.. the rest outside.. hahahz.. poor thing.. hahahz.. den was lyk.. kies.. did haf fun larhz.. hmm.. officially grown older ler.. muahahhaz.. hmm.. liked all their pressies.. tie ren and carol gave me a tatty thingie.. fatt fatt gave me one big big mug.. jeslyn gave me a bracelet.. hmm.. yet to collect my dear dear's gift.. hahhaz.. dunno wad he'll gif nehz.. hahhaz.. curious.. *cuRioUsiTy* hahahz.. hmm.. sianz.. still got lots and lots of pple owe me pressies nehz.. kekekz.. hahahz.. but sum others receive ler.. e.g frm my pri sch de.. and so on and so for.. kinda fun one.. did enjoy myself.. but was a very tired one.. now feel lyk slping nehz.. feel tt the farking time passing reali damn slow lorhz.. du lanz.. hmm.. guessed my dear dear now slping ler.. he tonite still haf to do project.. hmm.. dun disturb him ler.. let him slp.. hahhaz.. good baz.. kekekz.. jk.. hmm.. kinda hapi oso.. my bdae is actuali my fren's sister and her boifren 1yr anni.. hhhahaz.. *haPi oNe yR aNniveRsaRy t0 kiMbeRlY n LovE* hahhaz.. hmm.. sianz.. wad to do.. totally lost mood.. feeling very lost.. kekeks.. haiz... sianz.. wad to do.. write alot of pple's testi ler.. sianz u noe.. haiz.. kkies.. think i going off ler.. take care frens.. stay hapi owaes.. muackies muackz.. *haPi bDaE t0 mE woRz >.^*
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4/18/2004 02:35:00 PM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
konnichiwa.. haiz.. sianz.. today will b a short one.. haiz.. tml guessed wont be going to sch baz.. haiz.. needa go to doc again.. it seems like the polyclinic is now my second home huhx?? hahhaz.. haiz.. sianz.. juz now sum sort of quarrelled wif boiboi.. haiz.. sianz nehz.. haiz.. tt is inconvenient to say so i shall tok to my diary later.. haiz.. sianz.. haf been toking to my diary for very long ler.. everything juz seems so fake.. seriously.. haiz... den even cheryl chew oso complain tt i've been moody lately.. asking me wads troubling me.. ask me not to keep things to myself.. will affect my studies de.. haiz.. sianz 1/2... haiz.. haiz.. throat super pain sia.. drink water oso pain.. haiz.. cant tok too much.. hahaz.. kkies.. going off ler lahz.. needa do homework.. paiseh arhx.. bubbuaiz...... >_<"
.losT iN evEryThinG.LosT iN h0pEs.LosT iN lovE.anD i'M loSt iN yoU.
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4/15/2004 08:33:00 PM
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
ohayo gozaimas!! hehez. haiz.. sianz sia. at home again. bored until wan die liaoz. haiz. hmm. how sia? wad to do? hmm.. meeting huimin and co. later. sianz. erm. haiz. 'tok' to my diary last nite. feel very sad lahz. dunno why lohz. sianz sia. haiz. wad to do? wad to do? sianz 1/2. no one seems to understand me. not even one. haiz. sumtimes i juz feel so invisible, so lonely. feel as if i'm lyk a new born child w/o frens, w/o love. haiz. reali dun understand. reali dun understand wads going on now. haiz. so many of em told me tt promises are meant to b broken. is tt true? if it is, i dun dare to hope for so much and i wont dare to ask for so much in everything i do. esp. in the relationship i'm in now. haiz. sumtimes, i'm juz worrying tt.. worrying tt everything will burst lyk a bubble and end so suddenly lyk a dream. burst lyk a bubble and end as a dream.. will tt ever happen in my life? hope it wont.. reali very afraid tt everything was a lie. everything was juz my illusion. if tt ever happens, i wudnt noe wad i'm gonna do.. perhapz juz let my life juz drift off bax.. nvr had so much of worries b4. neither do i haf so much of problems to think abt b4.. everything started all bcoz of me.. i'm the one who is making all decisions.. guess i'm the 1 i shld blame.. and no one else shld b blamed.. isnt tt wad its suppose to be?? no one's there for me. no one's there to be wif me thru all the ups and downs.. life is juz a game and nth else.. aft u fnsh tis level, u'll jolly well promote if u win or juz die if u lose.. it applies to the same thing.. aft ur relationship wif tis particular guy ends, u'll either haf a new love or juz stay alone for quite sum time.. isnt it?? it juz simply applies to omost everything in life.. haiz.. i some sort of belief tt everything is a lie.. nth is ever true.. everyone is lying.. everyone is fake.. its juz my illusion.... i'm juz dreaming all the time.. am i correct? *soBz* life juz sux for me.. wad can i do to go abt it?? haiz.. *s0bbiEs s0bz
bored sia. haiz. kkies. going off ler. go prepare ler.. wanna go out in abt another hr plus time lohz. byee. take care. muackz. hugz.
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4/14/2004 11:29:00 AM
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
konnichiwa!! haiz.. sianz sia.. one doc say i've got intestine prob.. the other say i've gastric.. so is it gastric or is it intestine?? or is it both?? haiz.. irritating.. haiz.. so sianz...
.: i will owaes love u :.
juz a gentle whisper.told me tt u're gone.
leaving only memories.where did we go wrong.
i cudnt find the words then. so let me say em now.i'm still in love wif u.
tell me tt u love me.tell me tt u care.
tell me tt u need me and i'll be there.i'll be there waiting.
i will owaes love u.i will owaes stay true.
there's no one who loves u lyk i do.come to me now.
i will nvr leave u.i will stay here wif u.
thru the good and bad i will stand true.i'm in love wif u.
now we've here together.ytd has past.
life is juz bginning.close to u at last.
and i promise to u.i will owaes b there.i gif my all to u.
living life w/o u is more than i can bear.
hold me close forever.and i'll be there.i'll be there for u.
i will owaes love u.i will owaes stay true.
there's no one who loves u lyk i do.tis i promise.
i will nvr leave u.i will stay here wif u.
thru the good and bad i will stand true.hold me closer.
our love is forever.holding us together.
nth in tis world can stop us now.
love has found.love has found a way.
i'm in love.i'm so in love.i'm in love.yes,i'm in love.
i'm so in love wif u.
yupz.. love tis song man.. hahahz.. haiz.. sianz nehz.. haiz.. think i dun think too much ler lahz.. very upset nehz.. haiz.. anws.. shld b happy.. tml going out to celebrate bdae wif huimin and co.. hmm.. might be a fun one?? hahhaz.. hope so lahz.. might be going to ms?? or mayb sentosa.. hahahz.. haiz.. see first lahz.. i oso dunno em.. let em decide baz.. kekekz.. haiz.. k lahz.. going off ler.. buaiz buaiz.. take care nehz.. muackies muackz.. huggies hugz.. =P
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4/13/2004 06:17:00 PM
konnichiwa!! hmm.. not in sch AGAIN.. i'm sick.. it seems lyk i'm very weak huhx.. haf been falling sick quite alot of times within march to now nehz.. haiz.. hmm.. perhapz my time is up.. hahahhahz.. kkiez.. hmm.. dunno why lohz.. i've got fever last nite.. a very sudden one.. haiz.. den kkiez.. actuali tot only fever.. so no big deal... so told mum den wenta rest.. nvr take any medicine.. at tt point of time, rmb i wenta take my temperature.. its aready 38.2degrees.. k lahz.. so i tot slp slp den no prob liaoz.. den woke up suddenly at 2plus in the morn.. having terrible headache.. den feel extremely hot.. den i tot its a normal symptom lohz.. so i went back to slp.. but no matter wad, i cant fall aslp.. den having terrible headache.. kkiez lorz.. den told my da jie.. cos she still doing her work den mahz.. den she touch touch my forehead.. she say very hot.. den she say muz take temperature.. den take lohz.. guess how much.. hahahz.. 41.7degrees nehz.. hahahz.. kkiez.. i'm mad.. hmm.. den she faster stuff me 2adult panadols(sp??), 1 flu medicine and 2 adult sore throat pills.. take ler.. but still hot hot de.. den she gave me ice to put on my forehead lohz.. den she off the air con.. den down there say why i not feeling well den nvr tell her.. haiz.. den she say i hot until my face turn red ler.. hahhaz.. guessed tis's the worst fever i've ever got bax.. but still no use lehz.. aft i put the ice for abt half an hr.. i went up to my bed.. trying to slp.. but cudnt fall aslp.. haiz.. den time to time she see if my temperature still the same not.. but no mater wad, the temperature still rose back close to 41degrees.. den she say i shld try to slp.. den today go see doc.. hmm.. ya lohz.. today go see doc.. later.. haiz.. sianz sia.. having fever is reali terrible.. hmm.. den its lyk.. i cant get back to slp for the whole nite.. so... i juz stare at the ceiling and think abt alot of stuffz.. guess i'm trying to sort out every single thing tt is troubling me baz.. den dunno why.. think think think.. think until tears flow lohz.. haiz.. juz feeling very sad.. very lost.. i juz feel tt i'm in the wrong world.. in a world tt doesnt blongs to me.. i'm not the real me.. there's another face of every thing.. every one doesnt seems to be wad they say, who they are suppose to be.. i'm reali scared i'm not in my world.. juz feel very strange.. very weird.. nth seems to be true.. everything seems to be a lie.. haiz.. wad can i do? haiz.. very upset nehz.. i'm juz afraid tt everything will end here as a dream...............
take care.. muackies muackz.. huggies hugz..
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4/13/2004 11:26:00 AM
Monday, April 12, 2004
konnichiwa..!! hmm.. guess today's blog will b a short one.. needa go cheong.. hahaz.. no lahz.. jk.. so young go cheong wad shit?? hahaz.. kkies.. stupid me.. hmm.. needa go do homework actuali.. got lotsa work.. hmm.. got wad arhz?? hmm.. needa reply mel's letter.. needa write genevieve a letter.. hehez.. very busy worz.. but is tt my homework???!?! nono.. there's lots more to go nehz.. hehez.. hmm.. got eng.. maths.. maths got 2 nehz.. maths cube and maths homework.. but maths hw is to b handed up on thurs.. so can relac abit bit.. hmm.. den still got art and home econs.. still dunno wad to cook yet.. sianz u noe.. haiz.. sianz sianz sianz.. hmm.. mel and gang seems very pissed off abt some matters.. haiz.. dunno why oso.. hahahz.. hmm.. sianz.. juz reached home anws.. wenta meet my dear dear at tm.. den wenta punggol again.. went there to slack ard lohz.. sianz sia.. haiz.. hmm.. finally get to meet him.. den met him since sat.. hahahz.. 48hrs plus plus.. hehez.. haiz.. sianz.. dunno why is cristal so pissed oso.. guessed she pms baz.. hahahz.. haiz.. seriously.. there r too much to worrie abt.. too much to trouble abt.. needa BREAK!! haiz.. f
eel so lost.. lost in sch.. lost in everything.. lost in me, myself.. and of cos.. i'm lost in u...
buaiz.. take care frens.. muackies muackz.. huGgieS huGz..
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4/12/2004 06:19:00 PM
Sunday, April 11, 2004
oHaYo g0zaImaS!! hmm.. today is oso another sianz sianz say.. nth to do.. left chi compo, art and home econs.. sianz.. compo mahz.. wad to write nehz?? sianz.. haiz.. still waiting for my dEaR dEaR's msg.. he wenta work again.. den aft tt, he going swimming again.. haiz.. sianz.. think i'll haf to wait for reali quite long b4 i get his msg.. sianz.. kkies.. nvm.. he enjoy himself den can le.. feel very bad nehz... cos i sum kinda pissed off at him last nite.. cos he had to wake up at 4 plus in the morn today cos he had to reach bedok mrt station by 6am.. den at 11plus at nite still down there playing gunbound.. even thou he nvr tell me but i knew it.. he seems to play gunbound every day.. haiz.. den bcoz of tt, he slept late and blahz blahz blahz.. haiz.. sad sia.. haiz.. find one day i go download gunbound ler.. tried to download juz now.. but cannot lehz.. pissed off.. haiz.. sianz sianz sianz.. haiz.... kkies... think going off ler.. needa go do work.. i not so relac lyk others.. kekeks.. buaiz buaiz.. muackies muackz..
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4/11/2004 11:20:00 AM
Saturday, April 10, 2004
koNnicHiwA.. hmm.. juz fnsh helping lingx to change her blog thingie.. kekez.. den today aftn fnsh history revision liaoz.. fnsh maths.. left chinese compo and art.. sianz sia.. oh yah.. still got home econs.. sianz lahz.. i dunno wad to cook.. haiz.. *fRusTraTeD* but nvm.. i very happy abt sth.. i fnsh scanning my pics in com ler.. kkekekz.. so happy worz.. hahahz.. haiz.. sianz.. by tml muz fnsh my art, compo, home econs.. haiz.. sianz sianz sianz.. think i going do compo liaoz.. take care frens.. muackies muackz.. *haPpiE* miSs mY dEaR deaR wOrZ.. mUacKz.. huGgiEs hUgZ.. =) sLp eaRli yaH..
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4/10/2004 08:07:00 PM
Friday, April 09, 2004
konnichiwa!! haiz.. sianz 1/2.. hmm.. ytd i so guai.. study very hard.. today going out to relac relac.. kekekz.. haiz.. feel very stressed up nehz.. kekekz.. dunno why lohz.. perhapz mayb mid-yr is coming.. tts why baz.. hahhaz.. haiz.. very afraid i might fail my mid-yr lehz.. very worried very scared.. think i lidat study still not enuff.. needa push harder.. perhapz mayb still needa go for tuition.. haiz.. muz tok to parents abt it.. haiz.. i super afraid i will not do well for mid-yr lehz.. how?? haiz.. sianz.. see my other klassmates, other schmates all so relac.. haiz.. worried sia!!! haiz.. sianz sianz sianz.. haiz.. kies lahz.. going off ler.. go take medicine.. not feeling very well.. kekekz.. buai buaiz.. take care.. muackies muackz..
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4/09/2004 12:49:00 PM
Thursday, April 08, 2004
konnichiwa!! haiz.. today in sch is totally sianz lorz.. sch's no longer the fun and exciting one.. very bored.. haiz.. today mel asked me wad actuali happened.. so i answer her lohz.. den english was lyk saying she very xialan.. den kelly say she very dao dao.. haiz.. sianz.. dunno wad happen lahz.. things r getting frm bad to worst.. haiz.. dunno why is he owaes siding her oso.. i reali dunnno why lorz.. can anyone tell me why??!!?! sianz u noe.. hate it when everything turns out to be lidat.. -i hate u!! i hate u!! i reali hate u!! i hate every single one of u.. enuff of lies.. enuff of heart breaking moments.. enuff of every word u say.. din noe tt u wud turn out to be lidat.. din noe u cud hurt me so much.. din noe u cud be sth to unforgetttable.. i din noe i can ever trust u.. i din noe i'll make stupid decisions like tis.. i din noe.. i reali dun..- i guessed i've reali make a very wrong choice frm the bginning.. haiz.. regretted.. full of regrets.. if only i din get into tis sch.. if only i din make wrong decisions.. if only i've owaes been a good ger.. IF ONLY.. haiz.. i kinda hate my life.. dunno why.. coming to my 13th bdae.. i'm saying all tis.. wad do i actuali wanna do?? i dunno.. i'm lost.. reali lost.. lost in a world of no one but me.. i feel so lonely.. feel so upset.. i've nvr been REAL happy for reali a very long time.. and why is tt?? still rmb wad i told cristal today.. -how u feel now, wad u are now is actuali how u wan it to be.. no one force u to be unhapi.. its up to u to make ur day a happy one or a sad one..- haiz.. if only i can be wad i used to be, i guess i wudnt be lidat ler............
haiz.. miss my dear worz.. today wont b seeing him.. he's working at sentosa.. working for the carnival thingie.. haiz.. sianz.. hope to see him soon.. but guess oso impossible.. mid-yr coming.. needa study.. surely dun needa meet de lorz.. haiz.. tts the disadvantage of having boifren not ur age or in the same sch.. haiz.. sianz.. kkies.. no matter wad, i'll still love him...
kkies.. gtg liaoz... buaiz buaiz.. take care frens.. muackies muackz.. huGgies huGz..
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4/08/2004 03:20:00 PM
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
oYasUmi naSaI.. kekekz.. hmm.. i'm BACK.. kekkez.. din blog ytd.. haiz.. sianz.. was xtreme tired baz.. hmm.. sianz.. todae got quite alot of stuffz to do.. later needa do my journal, eng wb, geog. revision.. actually geog only needa copy all impt points down into foolscap so tt tml dun needa bring book.. haiz.. den mid-yr coming soon.. sianz sia.. needa summarise quite a no. of stuffx.. got.. history, geog., science.. yuppies.. den needa go read thru home econs.. cos we do practical do too much.. nvr do theory.. sure die ler lahz.. sianz u noe.. haiz.. hmm.. i'm half way thru history ler.. still got geog. and science.. tts all.. think can make it by mid-yr de baz.. think if everyday summarise a lil.. shld be can fnsh de.. haiz.. stress nehz.. kekekkz.. haiz.. ytd made a new fren.. actualli quite sum time ler.. her name is farhanah.. but she's not totally malay.. half mix malay and chinese.. but she take chinese in sch.. hmm.. she's sec 3.. small in size.. a very cute senior.. thou she mixes ard wif pple lyk lian lian de.. but she's very frendly.. kekekz.. haiz.. dun think i'll blog long today.. needa do some catching up on my work.. if not, time is running out.. another 1 mths minus 2 days i'm having mid-yr ler.. tts very fast.. kkies.. going to study ler.. buaiz buaiz.. take care.. muackies muackz.. =)
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4/07/2004 07:18:00 PM
Monday, April 05, 2004
konnichiwa.. i'm back.. kekez.. haiz.. hmm.. todae i so guai worz.. aft sch, wenta tamp to look for stuffz.. aft tt.. wenta pasir ris white sands mac eat den do homework.. kekez.. fnshed my maths homework.. den the maths cube wrksht fnsh a lil.. still haf abt 5 qns.. kekez.. haiz.. sianz sia.. stupid kuma lahz.. 'next day muz hand up.. if not u stay back and fnsh it up..' bitch nahz.. urGhz... du lanz.. kkiez.. den its lyk.. jo was there too.. den kkies.. very funny lohz.. kkies.. den ard 6 plus we went home.. haiz.. den went ard to slack at punggol area.. sianz.. den he's lyk very gloomy.. cos.. he's fren juz passed away not long ago.. i understand.. dun worry.. haiz.. sobz.. kkies.. dun tok abt sad stuffz.. yupz.. was very du lanz u noe.. heard frm simin tt stephanie frm 1h backstab us.. i mean cris and me.. wah.. super pissed off lohz.. freaking bitch.. kkies... haiz.. tml muz go tok tok ler.. simin they all helping us worz.. kekekz.. haiz.. and yupz.. today leon so cute!! sitting on the assembly grd dunno do wad.. wah lan.. sibei cute lorz.. kekekez.. tonite cannot slp ler lahz.. but i dun think tt ish me.. think the person who cant fall aslp is cristal... kekez.. hahahz.. i'm not as crazy as her.. crazy oso crazy over my dear mahz/... kekekkekz.. hmm.. sofia ang.. 1h de.. asked cris to be her god-sis worz.. hahahhaz.. chio ka pengz.. kekekekz.. haiz.. sianz.. dunno wad to do.. still left quite a number of homework sia.. got geog wb, geog atmosphere act. thingie, sci wb, blah blah.. du lanz.. haiz.. think going off ler lahz.. buaiz buaiz.. take care yah.. muackies muackz.. rmb to eat horz.. oYasuMi naSaI.. sLp tiTe.. suGaR dReaMs.. huGgiEz hUgZ..
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4/05/2004 09:34:00 PM
konnichiwa.. kkies.. yupz.. sianz.. now in mr koh's class.. bored sia.. sianz 1/2.. juz now got upper sec gers shouting abt xia lan kias.. shld b me and cris le bahz.. kekez.. haiz.. sianz of tis le lahz.. bginning of year, is sec 2s.. now sec 3s.. den next term sec 4s arhz?? cock lorz.. .farked.up.sch.got.farked.up.students. true enuff?? freaking hell.. sianz u noe.. dunno wad to do.. hate to b in cvSs.. lyk wad many pple say.. cheebye secondary sch.. kekez.. sianz 1/2.. hate cvSs lahz/.. freaking sch.. farked up sch.. haiz.. i've a farked up life sia.. sianz.. think i shld haf a transfer.. kekez.. haiz.. shld tok to parents some time soon?? kekez.. haiz.. sianz 1/2.. haiz.. dun tok abt tis farked up stuffz.. hmm.. juz now break funny worz.. kekez.. cos u see.. me and cris not close wif yibiao de mahz.. only close to sam.. den its lyk.. kkies.. nvr tok to him de.. den juz now aft i got my nuggets, yibiao is toking to jasmine bhind me and cris.. den its lyk.. kkies.. we were walking.. den yibiao walking wif jasmine to the other direction.. den... hahhaz.. he swing his hand.. den accidentallly hit my asS.. kekez.. i was lyk shocked.. den shout kinda loud.. den he is lyk freak out lorz.. den he say.. 'dun shout so loud lahz.. i will paiseh de lehz..' kekez.. den its lyk.. my face turned freaking red lohz.. lyk tomato.. kekez.. tt reminds me of jo.. hahhaz.. kkz.. den... cris was lyk.. 'eh.. good lehz.. sure can b frens de.. hahahz.' lame fuck.. hahahz.. sianz 1/2.. later going out wif cris.. den later ard 4plus meeting my love.. kekez.. happy worz.. hahahz.. tt t0mat0.. kekez.. haiz.. sianz.. kkies.. going off ler.. buaiz buaiz. take care.. miss ya.. muackz..
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4/05/2004 12:53:00 PM
Sunday, April 04, 2004
konnichiwa... yupz.. i'm back again.. hmm.. kinda sianz nehz.. fnsh my homework.. but haben fnsh my geog. thingy.. kekez.. hahaz.. haiz..
some things go in our way.. but some dun.. life is full of choices, laughter, fun, joy, excitement...etc.... however, life is very very brittle.. u may live today.. but u might not live tml.. u might live tml, but u might not be alive the day aft tml.. life is juz so brittle tt one do not noe when will he or she juz go and leave their love ones alone.. sumtimes.. life is full of regrets.. juz bcoz u're afraid of the outcome and did not do wad u owaes wanted to do, u might or even WILL regret it for life.. dunno why i'll tok abt tis.. but aft jo's classmate's accident, i've learnt some thing tt is so impt for one to noe in life.. one of it is kinda abt love... - tt classmate of jo who haf passed away 2 days ago was a guy.. in jo's class.. there's only ONE ger.. tis ger kinda lyk tt guy.. and tt guy lyk her alot too.. however.. they did not tell each other abt their feelings to each other.. (sobz) only until tt guy haf passed away, shld be some frens of his went to tell the ger abt it.. tt ger cried very bitterly.. haiz.. the one she loves has gone.. tts wad i meant by 'sumtimes.. life is full of regrets.. juz bcoz u're afraid of the outcome and did not do wad u owaes wanted to do, u might or even WILL regret it for life.. '.. haiz.. toking abt tis now seems to haf no point.. so.. for those who lyk another person, do confess ur love for him/her.. dun wait till the day whereby u haf to regret.. haiz.. aft the whole accident.. lotsa things haf come across my mind.. i'm in a relationship wif tis particular guy whom i love so deeply for 4 mths plus.. going to 5 mths in another 14 days.. i love him alot.. and i reali do.. love him so much tt i wudnt wan anything bad to happen to him.. love him tt much tt i wud gif up anything juz to keep him safe and happy all the times.. i've objected to quite a number of things he owaes wanted.. but my motive is juz for him to be safe.. thou its very heart-broken, very disappointed by not having wad u wan, but.. i still think tt i wud feel hurt even more if sth bad happen to him.. haiz.. i dunno how other gerfrens wud go abt it.. but i'm juz like tis..
haiz.. dunno why i'm toking abt tis too.. hahahz.. kkies lahz.. guess tis is abt how i feel baz.. nth much lohz.. sorrie if tis bores u.. hahahzz.. kkies.. gtg liaoz lahz.. jie jie wanna use.. buaiz.. take care of urselves kkies?? miss ya.. muackies muackz..
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4/04/2004 01:39:00 PM
Friday, April 02, 2004
konnichiwa.. kekez.. haiz.. juz got home ard 15 mins ago.. hahahz... haiz.. den come blog rite aft i on my com.. i dunno why but i juz haf the urge to blog?? perhapz... there are juz so so so many uncertainties in me.. mayb tts the reason baz.. haiz.. sumtimes i reali wonder where do i get tat smily face when i feel reali reali down?? haiz.. dunno why i born lidat.. kinda weird worz.. hahha..z.. haiz..
..wo nan guo de shi fang qi ni, fang qi ai fang qu de meng bei da sui ren zhu bei ai. wo yi wei shi cheng quan. ni que shuo ni gen bu yu kuai. wo nan guo de shi wang le ni wang le ai jin quan li wang ji wo men zhen xin xiang ai. que wang le gao su ni shi qu de bu neng chong lai..
juz fnsh hearing the listen the song 'wo nan guo'... sad worz.. haiz. dunno wad so wrong wif me today.. in sch sianz sianz de.. haiz.. pms arhzz? hahahz.. wad to do sia.. haiz.. hmm.... -u can nvr get back wad u ever lose- isnt tt true?? hahahz.. its very very true worz.. haiz.. sianz.. kkies.. shld stop it.. later tears flood my hse den jialat.. hahahz.. but serious arhzzz.. lotsa qns haf flooded my mind.. haiz.. dunno wad to do.. haiz.. sianz u noe... hate to haf my mind flooded wif qns.. hate to think abt all my problems.. haiz.. hate it.. i jus hate it.. haiz.. i cant stop thinking abt it.. thou i dun wish to think abt it.. haiz.. wad else can i do?????? haiz.... sianz u noe.. haiz... there are juz so many times when i wanted to end my life juz lidat.. but.. haiz.. cant let go of tt few special pple in my life.. haiz..... if i haben meet them.. i wud long ago end my life le.. but.. haiz.. dun need me to say.. guess u guys aready noe who's tt very very xtremely impt cum special person le rites? haiz..... very upset worz.. haiz... too many things are happening in my life.. so much tt i cudnt take it.. feel so tired.. reali very tired.. who's there to stand by me all the time?? no matter rain or shine?? haiz.. -promises are meant to be broken- is it true?? to me.. it isnt true.. but aft so many things happened.. i feel tt no one is fit to make any promises.. they'll owaes break it.. not only do they break the promises hey've made.. but as well as the person they've promised.. they've hurt their heart.. they've torn their heart into many many pieces.. sumtimes finding xcuse is of no use.. but.. haiz.. dunno lahz.. one will owaes tend to lie.. so.. dun make promises if u cant keep them.. haiz.. seriously speaking.. i hate my life... its juz shucks man.. haiz.. heart being broken and mended for many many times.. my heart is now wif many many stitches, many many scars.. many many cuts.. haiz.. its very pain okies.. haiz.. kkies.. gtg liaoz.. sis wanna use.. buaiz buaiz,, muackies,.. take care..
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4/02/2004 01:15:00 PM
Thursday, April 01, 2004
hi there.. hahaz.. back again.. hahahz.. today nvr go sch again.. but is returning to sch tml.. yupz.. haiz.. wento the polyclinic today.. guess wad the doc told me?? hahahz.. kkies.. i've got problem at my intestines area.. if things worsen, haf to undergo an operation.. hahahz.. hmm.. got 3 kinda medicines.. yuckz man.. all look so disgusting.. taste disgusting as well.. hahahz.. haiz.. du lan.. den.. gotta go back to the doc again 2 wks later... cos needa go for a cheack up... den dunno go for wad test to test wad illness i haf exactly cos i'm having pain all ard my stomach area.. haiz.. sianz.. nvm.. go operation can bcom thinner.. hahahz.. i lyk.. hahhahaz.. siaoz.. hahhaz.. kkies.. den not allowed to eat cold, spicy, fried and oily stuffz.. freak manz.. haiz.. sobz....................... haiz.. sianz.. kkies lahz.. i go eat dinner le.. if later got time den blog abt wad has happen today lohz.. take care.. miss ya guys.. muackies muackz..
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4/01/2004 07:41:00 PM
