Sunday, February 29, 2004
haiz.. today very sianz nehz.. kinda bored lohz.. its like.. i went out wif a fren.. den aft he went work i actually wanna walk back to pasir ris mrt station de.. but horz.. on the way i saw zhan guo.. so sit down and fnsh up my work.. den its like.. he called.. den the quarrel kinda counted as 'start' frm when we meet.. which is ard... 5 plus lohz.. haiz.. sianz sia.. we reali every 2 or 3 days quarrel once.. dunno lahz.. gonecase liaoz.. den hear him down there say abt lotsa things.. den feel very disappointed wif some of my frens.. its like.. hahahz.. dunno lahz.. dunno wad to say.. haiz.. its like.. i kinda feel tt they arent real frens.. perhapz.. one person change, the others might b affected.. ritez?? haiz.. dun tok abt it liaoz.. haiz.. so tired sia.. but luckily fnsh homework liaoz.. xcept for art.. yup.. art.. haiz.. den today seems like a lot of pple are quarreling.. yanling and fatt oso quarrel.. sianz sia.. gone lahz.. no help lohz.. its like.. quarrel quarrel quarrel... if its like quarrel not very often still can understand.. cos which couples dun quarrel?? but its like.. quarrel every 2-3 days.. wah.. sianz lohz.. den its like.. haiz.. his face super red today.. he reali look so angry.. very scary sia.. nvr see his face so so so red b4.. den its like.. not even zhanguo dare to joke liaoz.. so i oso kept very quiet.. den its like.. haiz.. gone case lahz.. haiz.. dunno lohz.. very sad nehz.. haiz... i seriously dun ask for much.. i only hope tt my life will go smoothly for me lohz.. and hope tt it will b a happy de.. den can liaoz.. mayb i need to spent more time on sch or wad, but i dun reali mind.. if only my life can go smoothly, i'm kinda willing to do almost anything lohz.. haiz.. very sianz sia.. hahahz.. haiz.. gtg liaoz.. need to do sth else.. take care.. slp earli.. muackz..
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2/29/2004 11:48:00 PM
haiz.. another boring day.. today alone at home.. the feeling very.. *diaoz* i oso dunno how to say.. its like.. i dun like tis feeling.. hahahz.. haiz.. so sianz.. today frm my old hse there take bus back to Punggol alone.. wah.. den its like.. super sianz lorz.. haiz.. den its like.. sitting on the bus.. den suddenly think of him, sending me home.. den its like.. everytime on the bus quite fun de.. but today very quiet.. kinda dun like it.. hahaz.. but.. haiz.. forget it.. miss the time spent wif him so much.. on the whole journey back to Punggol, i thot over alot of stuffz.. its like.. haiz.. dunno how to say lahz.. haiz.. den my fone oso not wif me.. cant msg pple.. very bored sia.. haiz.. wondering wad time will my parents come home.. bored nehz.. haiz.. -nth's gonna change my love for u, u wanna noe by now how much i love u. one thing u can be sure of, i'll nvr ask for more den ur love.....*blah blah blah..*- haiz.. can everyone do tis?? if everyone can do tis, i dun think there'll b couples breaking up lohz.. kinda sad toking abt tis.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. sum times arhz.. life is juz unfair.. but.. actually not... if u do everything in the way u wan by putting in more effort, i guess life wud b fair for everyone.. its juz tt we didnt put more effort into the thing we wanna do, tts why we will say tt life is unfair baz.. haiz.. so.. wadeva tt has happened, is it my fault or wad?? its like, i'm utterly disappointed in waddeva tt has happened in sch.. if i think over it thoroughly, perhapz.. its my fault.. but at the beginning, i kinda think tt its her fault tt she cant accept tis kinda attitude and stuffz.. tis reaction frm me is human nature.. isnt it? everyone when being said tt he or she has done sth wrong, we wud juz push the blame to sum1 else.. but.. if we reali willing to take the time to think over it thorougly, its actually not all the other party's fault.. its partially our own fault too.. haiz.. den today when my mum was toking to my auntie over the fone, i overheard their conversation.. i rmb my mum told my aunt tt one of the daughter might kena rape and stuffz.. den its like.. she say high possibility, it'll b me.. cos its like.. *diaoz* i not fat.. den now those teenagers dunno why.. kinda very pervertic and stuffz.. or even those blangas working near my area or even some uncles might do tis kinda stuffz.. not only pple whom u noe will do tis to u.. den my mum is like.. very worried lohz.. den aft i heard.. i whole person went *diaoz..* how can it b possible sia.. hahaz.. haiz.. den its like my mum haf been warning me since aft she hang up until i left my old hse.. she keep saying ' vian, muz b careful arhz.. when u reach home, gif me a call.. dun anyhow go arhz..' den i was like 'ya lahz ya lahz..' haiz.. gonecase lohz.. hahahz.. den i think, *touchwood* wad will i do if tis reali happen?? den i think.. mayb go die lohz.. i wun b stable too.. den its like, which guy will wan a ger who kena rape b4.. ritez>?? hahaz.. mayb they still can accept gers who lost their virginity lohz.. but tis is like.. but seriously arhz.. wad's the diff btween kena rape & lose virginity?? both oso like same lehz.. its like.. *diaoz..* haiz.. i gonecase lahz.. i oso dunno wad i thinking.. sianz.. i going crazy AGAIN.. hahaz.. kkz.. i think i shall end here.. i've wrote far too long.. later u all bored until wan die arhz.. hahahz.. kkz.. take care.. miss ya.. muackz..
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2/29/2004 01:16:00 AM
Saturday, February 28, 2004
uRgHz.. sianz.. very sianz.. haiz.. got pple say i short tongue.. so sad.. uRgHz.. where can lidat say me.. haiz.. so sad.. hahahz.. jk jk.. hmm.. very sianz sia.. got so many homework to do.. got maths lahz, art lahz, chinese lahz, history lahz and literature.. wah.. i tis time die jialat sia.. urghz.. i forgot.. i still haf an eng proj... wah.. tis time reali die sia.. next week bonding camp.. sianz.. how i wish i dun need to go.. den.. haiz... sianz.. dunno if march hols free to go out not.. if not free i sure cry sia.. haiz.. s.t.r.e.s.s.. den today xiao min say i got eyebags liaoz.. *soBz* den the other person say i look very old le.. den now got so so so so so many white hair.. die lahz.. haiz.. sianz.. muz xcercise.. hahahz.. i siaoz.. *cannot blame* diaoz.. hahaz.. okie okie.. today not much to write abt.. den muz go entertain my cousin oso.. haiz.. worst.. my freaking sis wanna use com.. tts why i'm ending tis so earli.. *s0bz soBz* haiz.. nvm lahz.. take care.. miss ya.. muackz.. slp earli ya.. study hard!! =)
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2/28/2004 12:24:00 PM
Friday, February 27, 2004
*uRgz* my stomach hurts.. haiz.. forget it.. used to it liaoz.. at least not as pain as tuesday.. muahahhaz.. haiz.. today in sch.. nth much happened.. nvr go wif them again.. no point baz.. i kinda feel tt she damn xia lan.. very upset lohz.. haiz.. hmm.. i guess.. frm now till the day we guys patch back, i'll haf nth to write abt sch le.. however.. today, carine and samantha diao each other.. den carine was like super angry lohz.. she angry until face super red okiez.. den its like.. she like wanna fight wanna fight those kind.. very scary worz.. luckily i got tok to carine de.. if not arhz.. i'll end up in the same situation as samantha.. however, i feel very sorry for her.. its like.. she come in to tis sch not even half a yr, aready got sooooo many pple wanna tio her.. haiz.. hope she'll change lohz.. perhapz she juz gotta respect her seniors more and i guess nth will go wrong de lohz.. haiz...
*hoMe - today once i reach home frm my netball practice.. hahahz.. my parents quarrel again.. den its like.. cnt stand it liaoz.. so i shout and tell them how we feel whenever they quarrel.. i still rmb asking him wad kinda dad is he.. hahaz.. and wad i earn frm all tis, was juz a slap.. now u guys shld noe tt it isnt i'm the one who doesnt wanna care.. but.. whenever i care, i'll earn tis kinda things.. is it worth it or not?? if a few slaps frm him cud make tt bitch stay far away frm us and was nvr to contact any of us again, i dun mind being slap 10 times.. or even a 100 times.. but.. haiz.. my dad juz seems to side her.. i dunno why.. i hate it sia.. haiz.. sometimes, i reali feel like running away frm tis home which gives no love, very little care and worst of all, problems arouse all bcoz of an OUTSIDER.. isnt it ridiculous?? haiz.. why cant she use her brain and think?? i'm younger than her so much, yet i cud think.. why cant she.. rite?? haiz..-
haiz.. forget it lahz.. lost my mood.. waste my time.. idiotic ass.. waadeva lahz.. buaiz.. muackz..
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2/27/2004 12:09:00 PM
Thursday, February 26, 2004
hahaz.. juz read wad i wrote ytd.. very funny.. hahaz.. but.. haiz.. today in sch.. very.. haiz.. quiet.. very sad.. i seriously dunno wad's the point of having frens?? i'm beginning to wonder and to suspect.. are frens reali pple whom u say hi in the morn, chit chat a little in sch and byee when its time to go home?? haiz.. very disappointed.. i began to feel as if i'm still in my primary schools.. there are still things such as i dun like tis person, u dun follow her lehz.. its like.. wah lao.. super childish lohz.. i reali haf no idea of wad's happening liaoz lohz.. super disappointed sia.. haiz.. why will things turn out to be like tis?? at the very beginning, things arent like tis.. i tot things wud turn out very well.. but.. haiz.. it disappoints me so much now.. haiz.. *s0bz* why??!?!?!? i seriously dun understand.. frens mahz.. haiz.. they come adn go.. only true frens will stay.. isnt it?? haiz.. i guess i'll go thru lots of pain b4 i found my true fren baz.. haiz.. i dunno wad to say lahz.. it seems like i'll only write abt sad things whenever i blog arhz?? hahhaz.. hmm.. may there be a day whereby i bring happy news to u guys.. last but not least.. u guys, study hard.. rest earli.. take care.. muackz..
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2/26/2004 02:09:00 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
haiz.. today super terrible day for me.. i've been rolling all over since aft recess until aft sch.. my stomach is super pain lohz.. is like as if sth is eating up ur inner organs lidat.. -gross- diaoz.. hahaz.. kkz.. den its like.. stomach cramp cramp cramp.. haiz.. nabei.. super fed up u noe.. cramp.. den cant reali concentrate.. but very funny.. alot off pple care for me sia.. esp. zi sheng.. is like he see me so pain lidat den keep asking me i alrite not.. need go home or not.. etc.. hahaz.. -he so caring woRz..- hahahz.. den very funnie.. today get to pinch nicholas' cheek and stomach.. hahahz.. he's so cute.. muahahahz.. diaoz.. den today i went to compass pt aft my english remedial.. den on the way to meet my fren again, i saw 3 montfort guys.. hahaz.. guess wad.. they say i very chio sia.. den ask for no... heez.. one was quite nice looking.. but.. i gave up the hope.. heez... there's owaes sum1 better than any of them.. haahz.. hmm.. (u hapi rite??) hahahz.. haiz.. super sianz.. stomach still very pain.. oh ya.. today at compass pt saw ainsly's fren.. he ask for my no. too.. and i gave him lohz.. since fren fren mahz.. hmm.. he cares for me alot.. reali worth to haf him as a fren.. isnt him?? hahahz.. haiz.. tok abt ainsly.. now i'm thinking, how's life for him now?? saw him online oso nvr tok to him.. now hardly tok le lohz.. very sianz sia.. hahaz.. nvm.. there's owaes sum1 who will lend me a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on.. hahahz.. hmm.. today in sch quite high nehz.. esp. in english remedial tt period.. me and cris terrible lahz.. i guess no one could help.. we very gone case.. she still dare to tok abt 69.. haiz.. she gone case lahz.. hahhaz.. den my fren oso gone case.. still dare to ask me to ask cris if she noe wad's doggie position or sth lidat.. haahahz.. reali can laugh until die sia.. all my frens are sick.. hahahz.. none of them are normal.. muahahhaz.. haiz.. kkz lahz.. i think i'm gonna stop here.. if not, i'll feel horny u noe.. hahahz.. -jk jk =P- muz go do stupid geog. things.. haiz.. -sianz..- hahaz.. kkz.. slp earli ya.. take care.. muackz..
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2/25/2004 11:53:00 AM
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
hahaz.. today is kinda great day.. no hw.. but still gotta revise for my chinese class test tml.. <
> hehez.. (i very lazy de lohz) hahaz.. hmm.. today went to meet a fren of mine aft my maths cube.. hmm... time spent was quite fun.. very funny too.. hahhaz.. enjoyed my day today.. quite long nvr enjoy myself like tis.. hahaz.. but haiz.. quite sad thou.. wenling doesnt reali like me.. so sad.. << sobz >> wanna cry le lahz.. so sad.. perhapz.. i kinda too violent in both my language and character??? hmm.. muz change.. muz change to a guai guai kia.. hahahz.. anw.. think i blog again tml baz.. nth much to write.. <> hmm.. rest earli.. miss ya.. muackz..
and.. *jaC* pls dun mind so much.. dun worrie too much too.. cheer up.. we'll owaes b there for u.. muackz.. =)
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at 2/24/2004 12:46:00 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2004
haiz.. he's leaving again tml.. very sad lehz.. everytime he gotta leave.. thou so many things happen.. but.. i still miss him... haiz.. so sad.. haiz.. today seems to b a boring day.. very bored lohz.. got a few cuts on my leg.. *s0bz* haiz.. today like haf nth to write abt.. mayb i'm going off liaoz.. blog in some other time lohz.. since i've nth to write.. take care.. miss ya.. muackz..
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at 2/22/2004 02:24:00 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2004
haiz.. kinda feel tt i suckz.. i'm a bitch.. i ownself upset aready so terrible.. why muz i go make until so many pple not happy?? haiz.. i agree.. life is a bitch.. and so i am.. i hate the life i'm leading now.. it leads me to llots of stress.. and i'm very uncertain abt my own life, my own future.. now u shld noe tt i'm a total failure baz.. haiz.. i hate the past few days.... our conversation was only an exchange of a few sentences... the worst.. today on bus, we hardly tok.. it was oso an xchange of few sentences.. haiz.. i dun deny tt the dist. btween us is getting far apart.. but wad can i do?? i dun wanna do anything is not bcoz i dun care.. but its tt i dun wanna end up quarrelling or making u feel upset.. didnt u notice tt our conversation is getting shorter.. time spent together is lesser.. and we dun seems to haf any more things to tok abt??? everyday, we like only reciting the same things we owaes say and remind each other.. haiz.. why things wud turn out to b like tis?? very disappointed.. very very disappointed.. things for me in sch today didnt turn out well.. during recess time, i didnt went together wif the other 3 of them.. i was up in the hall wif huimin and chrystle.. we shared our problems and had quite a nice tok.. i reali feel better aft a few strings of tears roll off my cheek and of cos i do feel better aft sharing my problems.. i muz reali thank huimin and chrystle.. if not, i think i'll be all alone.. haiz.. both of them reminds me of natalie.. the way they treat me is like the way how natalie treats me the last time.. haiz.. very touched.. seriously very touched.. (tHx.. =)..) haiz.. anw.. gtg liaoz.. *siGh* okie laahz.. shaLL blog in some other time.. perhaps tml lohz.. miss ya.. take care.. muackz..
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at 2/21/2004 10:43:00 AM
Friday, February 20, 2004
sum times, having frens and not having frens haf not much difference to me.. used to live life alone.. haiz.. i wonder wad frens are for?? are they pple who only say hi to u in sch and bye to u aft sch?? if tts the case, i wud rather stay alone in sch.. haiz.. very disappointed sia.. haiz.. feel lyk crying so so so much.. i dunno wads the point of making frens... i seriously dunno................................. haiz..... i tot we wud b very happy frens together.. but.. haiz.. things turn out to b lidat.. seriously disappointed.. i've nth to say.. haiz.. *diSaPpoIntEd* - take care thou so many things haf been going on.. muackz..
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at 2/20/2004 01:32:00 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2004
haiz.. why muz everything turn out to b lidat.. i seriously had enuff wif the life i haf now.. everyday, i'm facing everyone wif another face.. i might look very happy, very excited, very high in sch.. but deep down in my heart, the feeling is so terrible.. juz to make everyone who cares for me to noe tt i'm fine, i haf to fake out a smile.. haiz.. there isnt reali much things i cud do..i'm reali tired.. tired of so so so many things.. if only i cud make a choice btween life and death, i will still choose life.. but i wanna make it a better one.. haiz.. i dunno why muz i make my life such a terrible one when i noe tt there isnt turning back for tis kinda things.. haiz... dunno lahz.. today.. a day running out of things to write, to say.. however, i only noe tt i feel very down.. very upset.. haiz.. dunno lahz.. reali haf no idea of wad to say.. den i think i going off le lohz.. sorriE deaR.. to make u so upset, so disappointed.. nitez.. take care.. muackz..
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at 2/19/2004 01:40:00 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
haiz.. sianz sia.. today fell aslp in class.. too power liaoz.. hahhaz.. today everyone like abit strange strange de.. not only sch frens lidat.. frens frm outside oso lidat.. even he oso lidat.. i'm thinking.. wad has happen?? haiz.. things haf reali change.. like wad i've said to my other fren, as time pass, things will change.. i oso dunnno why will tis happen btween so many of us lohz.. haiz.. so sad.. so disappointed.. haiz.. forget it lahz.. pple dun wan share their prob den forget it lohz.. aftall, everyone has their own choice to say it or keep it to themselves.. rite?? hahaz.. haiz.. dun tok abt it liaoz.. haiz.. today my eng remedial, Wendy Jacobs came to my klass to teach us lohz.. haahaz.. she quite pretty sia.. got 4 children.. 1 ger 3 guys.. the youngest guy so cute sia.. hahaz.. haiz.. not bad lahz.. she's very nice to tok to.. hahaz.. her car sdf 9920 d.. hahhaz.. haiz.. kkz lahz.. i oso lost my mood liaoz.. no point carry on toking anymore.. haiz.. blog in some other time lohz.. take care.. miss ya.. muackz.. =(
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at 2/18/2004 09:45:00 AM
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
haiz.. another s.T.r.E.s.S day for me.. home work load heavy, cca tiring, heavy sch bag.. worst of all.. not enuff slp.. haiz.. reali s.T.r.E.s.S sia.. muahahhz.. haiz.. soon going to be panda liaoz.. hahaz.. sch life reali so terrible.. but when its a long holiday, i complain.. children reali very hard to understand.. awhile tis, awhile tt.. so terrible sia.. muahahz.. haiz.. so tired.. juz fnsh my art homework.. den thurs got history test.. next fri got science test.. worst of all, tis thurs got standardised test.. haiz.. i soon 'falling' liaoz.. haiz.. stress.. reali feel very very stress.. haiz.. i reali feel like giving up everything.. haiz.. dunno lahz.. sianz sia.. haiz.. reali very tired sia.. haiz.. i blog in some other time baz.. go watch tv liaoz.. muahahaz.. byee.. nitez nitez.. muackz..
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at 2/17/2004 02:15:00 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2004
haiz.. ytd was valentine's day.. or even a few hrs back was valentine's day.. haiz.. however.. it was juz like any other casual day to me.. nth special.. hahhaz.. everything went the same way.. we met.. we went out.. went for movie.. dinner.. went for a walk.. den he send me home.. haiz.. reali like any other casual day.. hahaz.. haiz.. i think tt he's kinda bored at the beach juz now.. i wasnt toking.. i'm juz staring at the sky.. at the sea.. staring into spaces.. but juz not him.. i didnt even tok.. our conversations at the beach was reali reali a short one.. it was juz an exchange of a few sentences.. haiz.. dunno why lahz.. but i feel tt whenever he's out wif me, its very hard on him.. sometimes my mood juz change within tt few mins or even secs.. its like.. to prevent a quarrel, he juz haf to keep quiet.. stop asking me anything.. cos the only ans i'll gif him is: 'nth happen.. dun worrie.. nth is troubling me..' haiz.. i reali feel very bad.. everytime tis kinda things happen.. quarrels arouse bcoz of me.. all bcoz of me.. i oso dunno wad i'm thinking.. haiz.. its like.. why bother to go out together if one feels tt its very stress for him or her.. its like.. haiz.. i dunno wad to say abt tis relationship.. i reali dunno.. i'm like cold to him.. every other thing tt stead wudnt do to each other lohz.. haiz.. i dunno lahz.. haiz.. i oso dunno how far we can go and how long we can last.. i dun wan to tok abt tt yet.. its reali sth too far ahead.. i dun even noe whether i'll be alive tml or not.. hahaz.. haiz.. 3 days later.. our 3rd month anniversary.. how many mths can we both share together?? how long will tis relationship last?? how many valentine's days can we both share together?? how far wud our relationship go?? no one knows.. no one knows the ans to it.. haiz.. -miss ya.. muackz..-
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at 2/15/2004 07:56:00 PM
Saturday, February 14, 2004
haiz.. now.. meiting and i not bad liao lahz.. but their smile are juz so fake.. forget it lahz.. aft all, their purpose is juz not to get into trouble tts all.. so.. let it be lahz.. hahaz.. listening to jasmine leong's ting bu dao.. hahaz.. feeling very moody.. quite sad.. dunno why oso.. hahaz.. i some sort of feel tt i've did sth so wrong to willie.. i seriously feel very bad.. haiz.. its no one's fault.. it's my fault.. why did i get so close wif them????!!?? if i didnt, i wouldnt even get to like them at all.. if i had a choice, i wud juz rather be the passer-by of the bball court.. rather than to get into all tis problems.. its seriously very stress u noe.. haiz.. tmL vaLentInE's daY.. i'm going out wif jo.. and he's being left all alone without stead.. its reali kinda bad.. i've lied to him.. haiz.. i'm reali sorrie.. but i noe tt sorrie has no cure at all.. even if i've said it a million or thousand times.. haiz.. i seriously feel very bad.. i dunno lahz.. haiz.. i've been hurt and i noe tt the feeling isnt good at all.. i dun like to get hurt neither do i wan to hurt pple.. but.. haiz... tt period of time and t decision i was suppose to make is reali a crucial one.. btw both of them, there is only one i could choose.. if time cud reali turn back, i would be a good ger and not wondering ard and make so many other frens outside.. haiz.. but tt is only IF time cud turn back.. haiz.. so for now, i reali hope willie can find a ger whom he reali loves and hope tt they wud last long happily.. *soBz.. -sOrRiE-* haiz........... i've lose all my mood.. blog in perhaps the day aft tml to update wad has happen on valentine's day baz.. take care.. miss ya lots.. muackz..
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at 2/14/2004 12:34:00 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2004
haiz.. today is another lonely day for me.. he's still overseas.. however, i recieved a call frm him at ard 7plus.. hmm.. feel very happy to hear his voice.. and of cos i feel very glad too.. reali miss him alot.. heez.. =) haiz.. today in school super funny.. we all laugh until cannot stand up.. super sia.. den aft tt, meiting smile at me and ask me sth abt Jo.. den i answer her wif a smile oso lahz.. hmm.. feel super weird sia.. hahahz.. but at least its better than last time.. hmm.. if only we can remain frens until we graduate, i think it'll be a very memorable experience for me in cvss baz.. hahahz.. haiz.. now cris haf a little problem liaoz.. very worried sia.. melisa say tt cris diao her.. haiz.. wad to do sia.. but.. haiz.. i think can solve one lahz... at least our condition not as bad as samantha's.. haiz.. hope tt things will go smoothly for us in the future yrs spend in cvss.. anw.. gotta go liaoz.. need to study for standardised test lohz.. haiz.. .s.T.r.E.s.S. hahahaz.. kkz.. i shall blog in some other time.. mayb tml?? hahahz.. kkz.. byee.. take care.. miss ya.. muackz..
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at 2/12/2004 01:21:00 PM
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
haiz.. today very tired worz.. got netball competition.. den still got homework.. stress sia.. hahaz.. haiz.. today in sch heard frm the netball seniors tt alot of pple wanna tio samantha-1c lohz.. wah.. she yi biao's stead sia.. no wonder everyday see them together.. hahaz.. haiz.. den.. today i juz got the news tt he's leaving singapore for 2 days for work.. haiz.. leaving tonite 11+?? haiz.. reali dun wan him to go.. but.. haiz.. forget it lahz.. since both of us has lotsa problems and troubles for the past few days.. take a short break is oso good de.. haiz.. perhapz when he's back, we den noe how important we r to each other baz.. hahaz.. so.. juz let it b lohz.. i've again no say in tis.. so.. juz let it b lahz.. haiz.. anyway its only 2 days mahz.. not as if he's going away for yrs?? hahaz.. haiz.. mayb God bless him.. and all the best =) rmb to miss me horz.. hahaz.. kkz.. gtg liaoz.. need to do home work liaoz.. buaiz.. shall blog in some other time.. take care.. miss ya.. muackz..
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at 2/11/2004 11:23:00 AM
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
hmm.. today mahz.. haiz.. quite a terrible day.. meiting and gang bang me for no reason.. super pissed off u noe.. haiz.. even if i'm pissed off, wad can i do?? nth!! nth but to keep quiet lohz.. haiz... i cant do anything abt it at all.. i cant fight back.. if i do.. i noe i'll juz end up in the gers home.. haiz.. i better haf some self-control lohz.. if i do anything, i'll juz end up being lock up tts all.. so in order to help myself, i cant act rashly.. haiz.. for the time being.. i think i cud only act as if i'm good to bully.. juz let them push, say and do wadeva they wan.. haiz.. to avoid troubles and stuff, i muz bear wif wadeva pain they gif me for the time being.. wait till things reali get worse, i den report to tcher baz.. haiz.. now they only bang, so i juz take it tt they didnt do it on purpose lohz.. haiz.. no matter wad, i can only keep my mouth shut and get bully and insulted for the time being.. i promise tt there'll be a day whereby they wont bully me anymore.. and i'll definitely make it come true.. haiz.. take care den.. gtg.. muackz..
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at 2/10/2004 02:43:00 PM
Monday, February 09, 2004
haiz.. i'm utterly disappointed abt alot of things.. but aft all those thinking, i think it shld be alrite.. its normal aft all.. haiz.. forget it lahz.. since i got everything clear.. its owaes good to get things clear rather than being kept in the dark.. isnt it?? hahahz.. haiz.. i think i haf serious pms problems.. hahaz.. my attitude is seriously terrible lohz.. not only to him.. but to alot of other pple oso.. haiz.. i feel super bad sia.. haiz.. if only the past cud change, i'll definitely make it a better one.. haiz.. forget it lahz.. no point toking abt it anymore.. haiz.. tml got sch again.. so stress.. haiz.. kkz.. i better go finish up my hw first.. blog in again tml baz.. take care.. muackz..
[missed you`]
at 2/09/2004 03:49:00 PM
Saturday, February 07, 2004
haiz.. its another sad day.. our conversation was a short one.. my parents quarrelled again.. haiz.. quarrel quarrel quarrel.. dunno wads so nice to quarrel abt.. haiz.. marriage reali seems to b a scary thing tt most of the pple wud encounter it in their life.. haiz.. if wanna get married den muz understand each other mahz.. wads the point of getting married den having quarrels every now and den.. rite??? haiz.. actually.. i oso dun care much liaoz.. its like.. they wanna quarrel, juz go ahead.. i haf no say abt any thing so i shld juz keep my mouth shut and concentrate on wadeva i'm doing.. haiz.. changes haf take part in my family 2 or 3 yrs back.. i reali haf enuff of all the rubbish.. its reali very tiring to bother abt all these.. sch's giving stress.. and so r my family and frens.. no one seems to understand me at all.. i reali feel very tired.. so tired tt i wudnt wanna carry on any longer.. if only there's sum1 whom i can reali rely on, perhpaz my life wud b easier for me baz.. nitez.. muackz..
[missed you`]
at 2/07/2004 06:15:00 PM
Friday, February 06, 2004
haiz.. too many things haf been happening for the past few days.. feel so stress.. so tired.. hahaz.. i oso dunno wad.. am i reali too conservative?? i think so.. haiz.. muz learn to b more open-minded.. alot of things arise bcoz i'm too conservative.. i'm sometimes thinking wad shld i do.. its like.. hahaz.. i oso dunno how to say.. haiz.. forget it lahz.. i oso got no mood to tok abt it.. kkz.. gtg.. take care.. muackz..
[missed you`]
at 2/06/2004 04:47:00 PM
haiz.. super tired today.. worst thing.. got pple say i dao summore.. so irritating.. and summore i wan them to b my kor.. now dun need le.. haiz.. dunno how's everyone doing.. later still going out wif jac.. and mayb cris.. haiz.. so sianz... i tot guys r everywhere... very easy to find one?? but haiz.. wanna find one kor oso so difficult.. haiz.. wanna die le lahz.. haiz.. dun feel very hapi oso.. haiz.. its like.. feeling very terrible.. feel so tired of everything.. if only i can gif up on all tis things.. haiz.. so stress.. haiz.. dunno wad to say lahz.. haiz.. byee.. take care.. muackz..
[missed you`]
at 2/06/2004 11:34:00 AM
